Hey Rick... My goodness where do I start? I've attempted to write something for you since your funeral, for the life of me, I can't seem to find the words. You always had something great to say. I absolutely love that about you! There's so much I wanna say to you. Thank you so much Rick. Thank you for our beautiful little girl we made together. I can remember being pregnant with her, and you writing to me saying you prayed that I had a piece of you and, well... Lol,your prayers came true!! She has your eyes and your heart and it kills me a little more every single time she breaks down crying, missing you. I found the talking unicorn you had given her with your voice on it, saying you love her, she's your sweetheart, and you want her to get in bed,say her prayers, and how much you love her! Im so very grateful she has that, & i pray she always does so she doesn't forget your voice. She loves her daddy so so much, & she still isn't ok, But you probably know that. I can feel you around often. Every time Lydia sees a butterfly she says there's my daddy, visiting me from heaven! She sleeps in your shirts all the time. I finally got her to talk about you again, For a long time she couldn't talk about you. But I know she will heal eventually, with time. You helped me and loved me through the toughest times of my life, I never thanked you. I'm sorry. Thank you so much, Rick, I wish I hadn't pushed you away, you had given up, and moved on, yet i wasn't angry. We remained friends, so i know it just wasn't in the cards for us. No matter what tho, you always treated me with respect and always let me know you cared, and you really stepped up as a daddy, I can't express how much that means to me!!! You checked out too soon. Honestly, I thought you'd outlive us all. I mean, to me your a superhero. You could've done anything you wanted and most of the time it'd all work out for you. You inspire me still to this day Rick. Im gonna love you forever and ever, I will never forget you, our time we shared, the good, the bad, in-between, the ups & downs & the on again, off agains. You will forever be in my heart. I think of all the times you wooped me at Scrabble & smile! OMG! & LONG ISLAND ICE TEAS! Oh, my my my, we wouldn't have Lydia if not for those long island ice teas, good times, great memories! Good friends! Talking for hours under the tree in front of our apartment at 10500... SMH. LMAO I can't get all my thoughts & memories to come out, i guess maybe it still hurts too much, but stay close with our little girl, please, & let her feel your presence always, ok! Im so grateful, and I'm proud I had the opportunity to get to know you. I'll never forget the night we met what you said, Lol you were so silly, & so crazy! You new how to put people at ease, you were always a blast to be around! You were a friend to just about any & everyone you met. You've definitely made your mark on this world, and I always looked up to you too. I wish I had said this stuff to you while i had the chance. you will definitely always be missed in my home. Every min of every day. R.I.P. my friend, I love you to the moon and back!
Love you always,
Jody