How my heart aches to see my son and not be able to pat or squeeze his shoulder and just tell him I love him and proud of him.    I did so often so I have no regrets    This is a picture of him after a long day fishing as we all gathered around to clean the fish.   We took with us Chase and Nick and went to Branson   What seemed like it might be one if the more dull vacations because we were not headed to Disney rides or the beach in Florida turned out to be one of the very best ever.  Having the boys together and giving them room to be boys proved a wonderful thing.   I knew in my heart I needed to bank up from just being the same and give him some room especially with his buddies around.   If you have a son around 16 you no doubt see this in them.  All part of growing up    We had quit a stronger of fish of which thre are pictures of and of course eating them is the ultimate finish.  Chase and Nick although good with a fishing pole were not well vested in cleaning so it be and a learning session.    It's been almost a year and a half now and I can say we now realize there will never be a tine when we have gotten over this.   Never a time when he is not thought about every day or a time when he is not considered in our thoughts in everyday life decesions.   When you lose a child it's different then any other loss although all loss of loved ones are terrible.  As I look at pictures or lay in bed nightly and play in my mind him coming into the bedroom and laying down with his dog or plopping his big self in between us in our king size bed to watch tv with us .  As I think of times gone by like this time which were only a few years ago I am dramatically faced with the realization of what life really REALLY is all about.   You see none of my effort to build and franchise a company, no amount of money or accomplishment means anything in the end.   I cannot say how thankful I am that somehow, somehow I didn't make the mistake of putting those things in front of spending time with my son   I cannot imagine the additional grief of regret that would be on me.   It was only a few days while I was still in shock that I started seeking heaven   I needed to know where my son is and it was and is very serious to me.   Since that time I can honestly say I have sought scripture and researched heaven daily and I see no end to it.     I have found a hundred tines more then I have ever heard taught and God has revealed so much more about it then is widely known.   This is one of only a few real means of peace and hope   Heaven is actually more real then what life we live here.  More real meaning every bit as real but 100000 tines better.     After losing my son both my wife and I have had to revisit much of what we believe the Christian walk is suppose to involve and how it is to be lived    Where does our ability mesh with Gods and so forth I cannot go into all of that here but want to end by stating heaven is a rejoining of family and friends in the atmosphere God ORIGINALLY created and desired.   The Fathers heart is to have His family around Him.   To let them live their individual lives but to be close to it.  To be the Father    Because we are children of God we are destined to rule and reign with Him.  We don't REALLY REALLY comprehend just how real our eternal life is.   TV will show a persons testimony of what is called a near death experience as blurred vision and a lack of clarity in order to depict the unknown yet nothing could be further then the truth.    Our life now is viewed as a journey.   We know now where home really is and we know that we will hold our son again.  I will see him together with all of his friends and all of you that knew him.   It's where we all go if we accept His gift of the cross.   No one will escape death so we should actually spend a little more time understanding it and even embracing it vs being afraid of it and never thinking about it let alone living like we know we will not live forever here 

Thank you to all who knew my son.  Please feel free to talk about him and post a story or a thought or a statement etc.  

Here we were up in Lake Michigan with best of friends the Jett's   So many memories with them I can't begin to tell.  Here Robbie hooked into something and although I can't really remember the moment of the picture I do know instantly the heart felt joy of seeing my boy experience it.   The love in my heart runs so deep towards him is what makes the pain so severe to be away from him.   At this age he would think nothing of wrapping his arms around me and telling me he loved me or his mother   He was always proud to be out with me but I was the one who was most proud to be with him .

Chase and Aaron were both two of Robbie's best friends   They grew up together and although each have their own distinct personality they all flowed well together.

Here we went downtown Indy and stayed in a hotel for a night.  We got the boys there own room next to ours and boy did they like that   I was always of a mind this type of expense was well worth it.  I always knew memories our made from today's life, no other way.   I'm very very thankful I had and acted on that insight.  Robbie has several other great friends we hopefully have pictures of.   These are two of several that are great boys and great friends of my sons so they will forever also be to me 

Robbie Dad