An Open Letter To My Brother Robin
Grief
To Honour You
Broken Dreams
Hero;in Addiction cont
Dear Mum - if only this was the outcome
Breathe. The anxiety is better when you take in deep breaths and hold them. Count in 1-2-3-4, hold 1-2-3-4, out 1-2-3-4.
You didn’t do this. It’s on the corner, in his school, at that party where you first met the parents. It’s an evil little devil, that drug. Doesn’t matter its name. That sneaky chemical masqueraded as temporary escape, tricking your boy into trying something he had no idea would imprison him.
Hold your head up, Mum. You didn’t do this. I saw you bake those cupcakes, cheer him on at his games, go to his parent teacher conferences. I saw you meet parents before he stayed over, heard you talk to him on the phone when he was out, saw you checking his messages and even making him clean his room; yes, he should clean his room.
You did it right, Mum, and I salute you. But the fact is, there is someone more addictive than your love, more dangerous than your wrath when he misbehaves, more loving when he’s sad and confused.
His name is Drug, and he’s much stronger than you. He’s much stronger than your son’s will. He’s a devil disguised as his best friend. And now he’s masquerading as your boy.
Drug is not your boy! Drug has taken him over, turned him into a thief and a liar, an angry and vile mess.
Keep loving him, Mum. Don’t give up. But when you need a break from the hell, you must take one. Clear your mind. Go for a walk. Go out with your friends.
You see, Drug will control you too. He will make sure you wither and fall, he will make sure you cry and shake, he will make sure you can barely take care of your other children, and he will try hard to break up your marriage. And you will succumb to those powers….if you don’t fight him.
Hold your head up, Mum. There is hope on the horizon. Keep loving your boy, keep encouraging him, but do not let Drug get his way. Be tough. If you must masquerade your love as distance, do it. If you must be uncomfortable turning your back, you must do it. The less Drug feeds off of you, the more he dies. Remember who is beneath the evil disguise. Your baby. Your beautiful, precious baby.
Stay strong, Mum.
Stay healthy, Mum.
You didn’t do this.
Hold onto that promise of a new day.
There is hope in each and every sunrise.
From,
Another Mum
Be Your Own Hero
Did You Know
Did you know
That life would end like this?
Did you know
You were killing yourself ever so slowly?
Did you know
We all knew your pain you couldn't even see?
Did you know
in the last moments of silence
the pain you'd leave
Did you know
you where going to die that night, as you slowly lost control
Did you ever see
your choices weren't killing just you, but also me?
Did you know,
you where a special brother to me?
Did you know
as we lowered you into the ground that that night was the last you'd see?
You showed me a lot of things,
I learned a lot I didn't know,
But you forgot to teach me one last thing
How to let you go,
I know you didn't mean to leave me,
Sometimes we have no choice,
I miss being your sister,
Hearing my name called by your voice,
I wish I got to say "I Love You"
Before you were given to the sky,
If God could grant me one last wish
I'd ask to say "Goodbye"
You always meant a lot to me,
I could never love you less,
I Know It's True When They Say
"HE ONLY TAKES THE BEST"
R.I.P.
From your sister
Hero
If a frame is worth a thousand words,
And still by all accounts,
A thousand words is all it takes
To make a second count.
Except a picture doesn't move
until there's twenty four
So for every thousand words too few
I'll write a thousand more
At least that's what I'd like to say
That I have two billion words.
That's eighteen years turned into frames
To heal a world of hurt
And it's not that I'm not willing
But rather, I'm not able
So I'll use freeze frame magic
To tell this hero's fable.
To reiterate; twenty four frames per second
Creates the illusion of motion
That's twenty four thousand words per second
To recreate this fluid notion.
And illusion isn't a word I like.
It implies he isn't real.
But the movement inspired in all alike
Has a kinesthetic feel,
And acts as a concrete testament to his existence.
His grin was always worn a little bit off kilter
As if it couldn't hold all of the joy it filtered,
And was tipping into the surrounding space
A contagious smile that slowly spread across his love ones' faces.
His eyes glowed without compare, immersed in umber flame.
The questioned who you were and asked you without shame,
"How can I help?"
They burnt away the paper mache masks we so often wear,
Mantles and guises with incendiary tears
Would fall to the ground, replaced by genuine care
And glimmering hope.
His eyebrows. I could talk for hours and still not touch the length of those majestic caterpillars. And no, there's no poetry here. They're eyebrows. Just looking at them, at him, you knew he would make you laugh.
And he did. He carried a profound simplicity for his youth,
And understanding hidden unkempt and uncouth
Behind messy tufts of shaggy hair
Aloof behavior, suggesting "I don't care"
When really, that's all he did.
He walked with a loose sensibility and a tenacious
Comprehension for life that many of us still grasp at tentatively.
He loved to live.
He lived to love.
If only life were so simple as kissing the pain away.
Which brings me to what I'd like to say today.
Sometimes, actions aren't enough to take away the pain.
Sometimes words cannot will the past to live again.
Sometimes what we feel seems wrong
And what we know is wrong feels right
Sometimes we don't have the answers
And sometimes that's alright.
Our hero lived a wondrous life,
And left so much love behind
His legend isn't simply his
But his and yours and mine,
A legacy lived on through us
And countless stories told
Frozen movie frames
We'll remember 'til we're old.
Snapshot stories played on repeat
Forever in our minds
To make up for the things not done
And words we'll never find.
I'd like to close on the last few words
I spoke to my dear friend.
"I won't say goodbye for now,
but 'til we meet again."
I wanted to genuinely write a thousand words for you.
And while I was writing, I realized something.
I'd want to write a thousand more.
And a thousand more.
And a thousand more.
And I don't think that feeling will ever go away.
So instead, I'm going to trust that you'll live on in all of us.
To my dearest brother.
I'm Free
(Author Unknown)
Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free
I'm following the path God laid for me
I took his hand when I heard Him call
I turned my back and left it all.
I could not stay another day
To laugh, to love, to work or play
Tasks left undone must stay that way
I found that place at the close of the day.
If my parting has left a void
Then fill it with remembered joy
A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss
Ah yes, these things I too, will miss.
Be not burdened with times of sorrow
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow
My life's been full, I savored much
Good friends, good times, a loved one's touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all to brief
Don't lengthen it now with undue grief
Lift up your heart and share with me
God wanted me now, He set me free
Don't cry for me now I have died, for I'm still here I'm by your side,
My body's gone but my soul's is here, please don't shed another tear,
I am still here I'm all around, only my body lies in the ground.
I am the snowflake that kisses your nose,
I am the frost, that nips your toes.
I am the sun ,bringing you light,
I am the star, shining so bright.
I am the rain, refreshing the earth,
I am the laughter, I am the mirth.
I am the bird, up in the sky,
I am the cloud, that's drifting by.
I am the thoughts, inside your head,
While I'm still there, I can't be dead
Look for me in Rainbows
Time for me to go now, I won't say goodbye;
Look for me in rainbows, way up in the sky.
In the morning sunrise when all the world is new,
Just look for me and love me, as you know I loved you.
Time for me to leave you, I won't say goodbye;
Look for me in rainbows, high up in the sky.
In the evening sunset, when all the world is through,
Just look for me and love me, and I'll be close to you.
It won't be forever, the day will come and then
My loving arms will hold you, when we meet again.
Time for us to part now, we won't say goodbye;
Look for me in rainbows, shining in the sky.
Every waking moment, and all your whole life through
Just look for me and love me, as you know I loved you.
Just wish me to be near you,
And I'll be there with you.
Music and lyrics: Conn Bernard (1990). Vicki Brown
Emily
I hope I am doing a job that the dog whisperer would be proud of...
Until We Meet Again
by Unknown
Each morning when we awake
we know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heartache
As we try to carry on.
Our hearts still ache with sadness
and many tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you,
No one will ever know.
Our thoughts are always with you,
your place no one can fill.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we love you still.
There will always be a heartache,
and often a silent tear,
But always a precious memory
Of the days when you were here.
If tears could make a staircase,
And heartaches make a lane,
We'd walk the path to heaven
And bring you home again.
We hold you close within our hearts,
And there you will remain,
To walk with us throughout our lives
Until we meet again.
Our family chain is broken now,
And nothing will be the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.
What became of me
What Became of Me?
What became of me?
Stripped of my identity
Grief engulfed my soul
Where is the girl of old?
Was I simply existing
Inside a well formed shell?
No-one new my weaknesses,
No-one could tell.
What became of me?
Stripped of my identity
When you came to me
I was oh, so happy
You left me feeling hijacked
And my world was shattered through
Now I’ve lost my confidence
And lies became the truth.
What became of me?
Stripped of my identity.
I’ve become so sad
Thinking of what I could have had
I must learn to live with this
Yesterday’s girl non-existent
Now I have to get to know
The me I really ought to show
I’m living with a stranger in my head.
What became of me?
Now I see that I am free
Welcome in the new
And start to become truer to myself
You Never Said Goodbye
by Unknown
You never said I'm leaving
You never said goodbye.
You were gone before I knew it,
And only God knew why.
A million times I needed you,
A million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place,
That no one could ever fill.
It broke my heart to lose you,
But you didn't go alone
For part of me went with you,
The day God took you home
Forever Missed
Your Great Nephew
I know how proud you were to become a Great Uncle when we found out that a lil Skizz bean was on its way. Of course at the time we didn't know if it was going to need a pink or blue city kit.....
Reggie Thomas Skirrow Will know you Robin in every way I can possibly manage or conjure up xxx
Reggie says Hi Uncle Robin xxxx
Emily
Just a Dog.....
From time to time, people tell me, "lighten up, it's just a dog," or "that's a lot of money for just a dog." They don't understand the distance traveled, the time spent, or the costs involved for "just a dog."
Some of my proudest moments have come about with "just a dog." Many hours have passed and my only company was "just a dog," but I did not once feel slighted.
Some of my saddest moments have been brought about by "just a dog," and in those days of darkness, the gentle touch of "just a dog" gave me comfort and reason to overcome the day.
If you, too, think it's "just a dog," then you will probably understand phrases like "just a friend," "just a sunrise," or "just a promise."
"Just a dog" brings into my life the very essence of friendship, trust, and pure and unbridled joy.
"Just a dog" brings out the compassion and patience that makes me a better person.
Because of "just a dog," I will rise early, take long walks and look longingly to the future. So for me and folks like me, it's not "just a dog" but an embodiment of all the hopes and dreams of the future, the fond memories of the past, and the pure joy of the moment.
I hope that someday they can understand that it's not "just a dog," but the thing that gives me humanity and keeps me from being "just a man/woman." So the next time you hear the phrase "just a dog," just smile--because they "just don't understand.
Within my heart
Still Here (Within My Heart)
You were taken way to soon
I guess God has big plans for you
How can I deal with these feelings
How can I concentrate
When I don't understand
Why you, were taken away
I'd come and join you tonight
Up in that starry sky
But I know you'd want me
To keep on living my life
So I promise you I'll fulfil my dreams
Just like I told you
There's still so much I haven't given
So tonight this one is for you
You're still here within my heart
You're in my thoughts
(I know you can hear me)
You're in my dreams
(I still see you)
Oh I hope you hear my prayers
Because every word I say to you
You know it's true
I still feel you
All around me
The warmth you gave
Still, surrounds me
The light you gave
Can still be found in me
Just gotta look deep down
To see you're still here with me
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep
Sometimes it's hard
Just to make it through the week
Nothing has ever cut this deep
Why did you leave us
Why did God take you away
Why couldn't he have just let you stay
I question that every day
I know you'll still guide me,
I know if I'm lost.
You will find me
I feel your presence inside me
You'll always be here to stay
Nobody can ever take that away
You're still here within my heart
You're in my thoughts
(I know you can hear me)
You're in my dreams
(I still see you)
Oh I hope you hear my prayers
Because every word I say to you
You know it's true
I still feel you
All around me
The warmth you gave
Still, surrounds me
The light you gave
Can still be found in me
Just gotta look deep down
To see you're still here with me
The memories never fade
I can still clearly see your face
And the way you assured me
Everything's gonna be okay
I remember your embrace
The smiles you always gave
All the laughs and tears we made
I remember all your advice
Didn't even have to think twice
You pick me up
When I need you the most
You may have been, taken away
But I know you're here in me
You're still here within my heart
You're in my thoughts
(I know you can hear me)
You're in my dreams
(I still see you)
Oh I hope you hear my prayers
Because every word I say to you
You know it's true
I still feel you
All around me
The warmth you gave
Still, surrounds me
The light you gave
Can still be found in me
Just gotta look deep down
To see you're still here with me
I'm still torn,
That you're gone
But I know
you're always gonna be
Right here with me
I look to the sky
When I need some advice
Because I can still hear your voice
It speaks from deep inside
Telling me everything's
gonna be alright
I know you're out there
I know you care
Oh this one is written for you
I dedicate this song to you
You're still here within my heart
You're in my thoughts
(I know you can hear me)
You're in my dreams
(I still see you)
Oh I hope you hear my prayers
Because every word I say to you
You know it's true
I still feel you
All around me
The warmth you gave
Still, surrounds me
The light you gave
Can still be found in me
Just gotta look deep down
To see you're still here with me
I miss you
You'll always be in my heart
Hope you're feeling all my love
I never have to say goodbye
Because I'll see you on the other side
Up in that starry sky
In the starry sky
In the starry sky
Hero;in Addiction
**TRIGGER WARNING, MAY BE DISTRESSING TO SOME READERS**
Hero;in addiction (pt 1)
The Dragon is elusive,
Chase it down, no escape,
Warm in foil, Turkey is never served hot,
Silence the clucking, as you nod off
Warm flush, pain-free push,
Hungry demon, temporarily sssshhhhh'ed
Rapidly heading into the rush hole,
Cost of this ride; Only your heart & soul.
When the frazzle fizzles and you've rinsed it clean
In the pipeline, you find no relief
Pin all your hopes on the direct mainline
Making tracks to despair
The world's tinted BROWN
With hints of light and dark
Speed balling, score own goal
The sound of rattling is deafening
Waves of nausea, ebb and flow
Skag sticks around. ...
The aching is killing
Fiending the boot, cracking up
High is actually really low
Pop pop, here's a bag for your head
Farewell ; you are long since dead
That junk was really expensive
Rock bottom costs you everything
Trapped between 'H'eaven & 'H'ell
Smack! It hit hard
Slipped into euphoric slumber
Feeding the dragon
Battling the demons
"Just one last hit; this really is it!"
The mantra of every Hero;in addiction
So many regrets
So many unanswered questions
I miss you...
Miss you so much...
Listen
Yo yo yo yo
I hope you're somewhere listening to this
I wish I knew why you did what you did
'Cause I still haven't really come to terms with the truth
There must have been something you were determined to prove
The lessons you taught me, I can't forget
But there's so many unanswered questions
Now everything seems meaningless
You lived fast and died young
But my brother you were a genius
How could you ever believe that you'll survive
I don't care what they say, that shit is suicide
I won't lie, there was much distance between you and I
I should've told you not to do it, don't be stupid
You've got looks, got brains and your future's bright
Now you're gone I feel like I'm gon' lose my mind
I never thought you'd get yourself organised
I wish we saw the signs, the shock left us all traumatised
These are awful times, and I need more than rhymes
'Cause this was more than a tragedy
You can't just cheat the forces of gravity
You left me here to hold a brave face supporting the family
In a way you were dying to live
It's fucked up man, I'm crying while I'm writing this shit
Water from my eyes is stopping me from lighting my spliff
Why didn't you realise that your life is a gift
Mum and Dad don't understand why they've outlived their son
Every single CD, Mix Tape and Album to come
Is dedicated to no other than my blood brother
But I hate you, for the way you made my Mum suffer
Words can't explain, how a certain part of my heart hurts with the harshest pain
Last time we spoke, we said we weren't brothers and we aren't the same
I told myself you were too far past insane
How could we not take your death badly
I just asked mum and she said your name meant happy
But my soul is too cold to laugh
My heart bleeds when I'm looking at your old school photograph
I wish that I could touch your beautiful flesh
I'm writing but we ain't even had the funeral yet
Now death is something, that I'm staying ever ready for
You had plenty more to give, you weren't even 24
I don't understand why you had to die
In a lot of rappers rhymes, death is glamorised
Not me, I'll always stay remembering you
I should've known this was something you'd eventually do
When you got shift, we should've known it was bad
The next day I was sitting here consoling my Dad
It's like a nightmare, it still doesn't seem real
But this is my life, not some fucking deep film
It's the strange feeling I felt in the late night
Witnesses said that you fell from a great height
Can't be my brother man, tell me it ain't right
Right now I'd rather blaze, we could face life
Shit what a waste, what a shame
I just gotta make sure your life wasn't lost in vain
This is my brother, not just a departed friend
So hard for my [?] to start again
From now on our lives will never be the same
We holding on too tight for the memories to fade
24 years was hardly a life
On the day you passed, it's like a part of me died
I've been scarred many times but this pain is so much worse
And it's so much harder to describe
You will still be missed
I'm sorry we didn't support you, we thought we did
I wish I broke your leg so you couldn't jump
Now all I can do... is rep your fuckin name like I should've done
'Cause it's only right
I'm still not sleeping, but now I'm seeing your ghost at night
We all wish we could've stopped you
I know I can't go back in time now, but I want to
It's like a tightened knot that I can't undo
Why did I have to lose you to realize I loved you
Be careful what you wish for, in case it comes true
Right now I'm confused, feeling so subdued
When they arrested you, they wanted to sanction you
The only thing we did wrong was going and getting you
Next morning you was up, not doing what you was meant to do
That wasn't the life that you were meant to have
That wasn't the way that it was meant to be
You were sick, not physically but mentally
I still ain't got a fraction of this shit off of my chest
All that goes through my mind is them constant regret
Why why why did you die for no reason
All of a sudden the weathers cold it's so freezing
Have you ever head the saying, when it rains it pours
Don't ever try to tell me my pain is the same as yours
'Cause it's not, and everything isn't what it seems
I'm pinching myself but I know that this is not a dream
Why did you have to do that, this isn't fair
Listen my brother, never think that I didn't care
There's no words to describe the way that this feels
Now I can clearly separate the fake from the real
Why did everyone else have to be bro
I still can't quiet believe that you're actually gone
Just 5 days, 5 days and it feels like the same day
Weed ain't helping but I need it just to maintain
'Cause the bleak reality is terrible
And last night mom was practically hysterical
People I thought would care, couldn't care less
I need a lot of support 'cause I'm feeling bare stressed
And everyone else seems immature
I'm being tested, thinking what is there left that I'm living for
I need to clear my thoughts, stop thinking and try n breathe
Just a week ago I was so innocent and naive
Now my insides are burning like hells flames
I've realized up until now I've never felt pain
It's so evident that everything I cared about before was so irrelevant
There's certain people that call when they see that this shit is hurting
But I see them for what they are now 'cause I'm a different person
R.I.P.
I miss you...
In fact fuck R.I.P
I want you to live through me
Live through me...
Live through me...
Live... through... me...
Goodbye for now
Heaven has called upon you today,
leaving so many words left to say.
But now it's too late, for your time has come,
words unspoken; I am sure everybody has some.
Regrets and wishes are probably there too,
but lasting forever are memories of you.
I was there when you needed a place to stay,
just like you would be there for me night or day.
There have been many times that we disagreed,
but we were there for each other in time of need.
Now it's time for me to say Good-Bye,
until we meet again in heaven to fly.
41st Birthday
Pete and I came to wish you happy birthday Bro. You are missed and loved more than ever xxxx
You need not visit my grave
for repentance or regret
release from guilt will
not be found there either.
Your forgiveness
must come from within
for I forgave you
a long time ago.
Do visit my grave and
bring flowers
if it reminds you of all
the good times we shared.
Come and do your
“remember whens”
stories of laughter and love
we shared before
it was my time to go.
The day you became a great uncle
Quote
Is death the last sleep? No, it is the last and final awakening.
Walter Scott
Jemma's Birthday Celebrations
We celebrated Jemma's birthday on 19.01.17. Our dear friends Kim and Sophie joined your sisters and mum for a lovely meal and a few cocktails at Turtle Bay in Leicester. Jemma ordered your favourite double dipped steak. It was absolutely delicious! Gappy Ranks - Butterflies played in the background and we knew that you were there with us! I am sure that you had a good laugh at some of our silly antics!
HIS LEGACY
www.justgiving.com/fundraising/robin-francis-Ali
SLOW DANCE
SLOW DANCE
Have you ever watched kids on a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Do you run through each day on the fly?
When you ask, “How are you?”
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done, do you lie in your bed,
with the next hundred chores running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short
The music won't last.
Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch, let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,'Hi'
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last..
When you run so fast to get somewhere,
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.
NO GOODBYE
I never got a chance to say goodbye
And now when I think of you all I do is cry
You left a message upon my heart
One with which I shall never part
The things you taught me the world will never know
And now thanks to you I can finally grow
You taught me strength, you taught me courage
You taught me love and gave me knowledge
You made me smile when the tears poured down
You helped me to turn my life around
We hurt each other it is true
But for the rest of my life I will always love you
WITH LOVE
Last night I came to you in a dream and although you didn't want it to end, we had to part once more. Will you do something for me? When sleep finds you tonight and we meet again in a place where life is so unreal; know that we are truly together in spirit. Forget the nonsense of happenings around us and just feel my presence. Understand that it is only my body that has died, not me, not my soul, who I am. I am with you, watching over you, guiding you. I am alive... I realise that it's not the same, the fact that you are not able to reach out and touch me, hold me, even kiss me like you once had, and for you, I wish I could change all that... but I can't. You see, for me nothing has changed between us, but the fact that you no longer hear me the way you use to, you no longer see me or feel me in a way that you're familiar. My love for you hasn't changed, but what has is my understanding of life and self. It's so beautiful here... I am happy and at peace. It's more then you could ever dream. If you could only feel how serene it all is. Imagine for a moment standing in a sea of tall green grass surrounded by wild flowers dancing with a breeze, trees towering lazily above you swaying gently back and forth while reaching upward toward a brilliant blue sky. Imagine the sun so warm, so soft its touch, so full of love filling you completely as you are one with all that is and ever has been. I feel no pain... I am happy and I know that I am home.
Please do not be sad for me and know that I am only... but a breath away.
With Love,
From Heaven
FOREVER MY BROTHER
You were still my brother
no matter what you did
or how you lived
and I loved you.
We were so close
These latter years
Just as we were
when we were younger.
I wish you were here
so I could hold you
one last time
before you had to go.
The last time I saw you
You looked tired , old
I wish you were still here for me to scold!
My Brother
Brother is the one who helps me up when I have fallen.
My brother is the one who is always saying no he can't be your boyfriend.
My brother is the one who sticks up for me.
My brother is the first one to fight for me.
My brother the one I love with all my heart.
My brother the strong one.
My Brother and I
Falling through memory's wide open window,
Hitherto kept tightly closed.
I'm flying away into chilhood experience
Where, brother and I were supposed
To be good, while parental strife, flaring
Brightly, would envelope us nightly,
As arms flung round each other
We struggled to sleep,
Despite shouting and fighting
Downstairs, we said pleading prayers
And, always tearful goodnights.
We often cried quietly
Into the darkness my brother and I.
Orphaned from love, we grew close
Together, and clung to each other
Over the ensuing years.
Losing my beautiful brother
Too soon, has emptied and drained
My lonely heart, despite
Crying rivers of tears.
I reluctantly close that window again
But never will close on my brother, Robin.
BROTHER BROTHER
Brother Brother
Please Come Back Home
I Wish We All Would Have Known
Brother Brother
Why Arent You Here?
You Didn't Have Anything To Fear
Things Would Have Gotten Better
Throughout This Past Painful Year
You Took Your Own Life Brother
Just Like So Many Others
Your Family Just Looks At Pictures And Has To Stare
Thats The Only Way We See You And Its Just Not Fair
We All Miss Your Big Smile
That You Had On Your Face Every Day
I Love You Sister
The Words You Said Every Single Day
I Miss The Way You HUgged Me
The Way You Would Always Be There
Now Once Again All I Do Is sit and Stare
Brother Brother
WIPE YOUR TEARS
Grief - Wipe Your Tears
Wipe your tears, sit down and rest a while
The rays of sunshine will caress your face
And children playing will only make you smile
Know those you loved are with you in this place.
From Robin
What are you doing by the graveside stood
Can you not see me through the darkened wood
Can you not feel me for I'm here with you
I've not gone away so why are you blue
Dry your eyes and do not weep
I haven't gone far and was only asleep
My breath is the wind my laughter the birds
And if you listen you can hear my words
For the words I speak are only of love
That sent to you from heaven above
If you only knew how I really feel
I had to go for my body to heal
You know I love you and will always be near
Because you are special and so very dear
So I'll kiss you goodnight as you climb the stairs
And listen intently while you say your prayers
My earthly time had to come to an end
But to stay with you I do intend
So goodnight and god bless I say to you
And I'll see you in the morning I promise true.
Xxxx
Happy Birthday - February 18th 2016 - From Kristie
Happy Birthday to one of the best brothers anyone could ever have, want or wish for. We have had our fall outs over the years, been estranged, disliked each other, lost contact for awhile and had our fair share of conflict. But he's proven to me that when my backs against the wall, I'm alone, I'm struggling and I desperately need someone to help me, he's there 100% & unconditionally. I love, respect, & admire Robin Lcfc Ali. May all of your hopes, dreams & wishes come true, & that your life is filled with nothing but Love, laughter and happiness. Thank you for all you have done to help me along my journey. I'm extremely grateful and Proud Xxxxx
Thank You (14.10.16)
I'd like to take this opportunity to thank each and everyone of you that gave me the strength and encouragement to make it through one of the most difficult moments of my life. The kindness, compassion and love shown towards my brother Robin Ali Robin Lcfc Ali, My family and I has been amazing. I apologise sincerely if I have not thanked you in person or via a message. I respectfully ask you to allow me some personal space for a short while, so that I process, reflect and begin to slowly heal. Thank you once again. I appreciate everything. Xxxx
The Poem Read by his Sisters at The Crematorium (13.10.16)
Do Not Stand At My Grave And Weep
Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.
FROM ROBIN
Death is nothing at all.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
I am I, and you are you.
Whatever we were to each other, that we still are.
Call me by my old familiar name, speak to me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no difference in your tone, wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was, let it be spoken without effect, without the trace of a shadow on it.
Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same that it ever was; there is unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near, just round the corner.
And all is well.
Henry Scott Holland ~ 1847-1918
Canon of St. Paul's Cathedral ~ London. UK
Remember Me
Remember me whenever
you’re blue
Remember me when there’s
no one holding you
Any time you feel like you
can’t make it through
Remember me and I will be
with you
Remember me whenever
you’re afraid
And when you lose your
dreams along the way
Any time you feel like you
can’t make it through
Remember me and I will be
with you
Every night and every day I’ll
be by your side
Just reach out and take my
hand and I will be your guide
And any time you feel like you
can’t make it through
Remember me and I will be
with you
Remember me whenever
you’re afraid
Remember me if there’s
someone in my place
Any time you feel like you
can’t make it through
Remember me and I will be
with you.
Dear Family and Friends -:Love From Robin xxx
Don't cry for me ,
now that I am free.
Just look around anywhere,
and that is where I'll be.
For I am the daylight ,
when the sun starts to rise.
I'm the bright rainbow,
you see with your eyes.
I'm the tiny raindrops,
that sprinkle in the wind.
I'll always be here with you,
for there really is no end.
I'm the dew that's on the ground,
and the quietness all around.
Yes, I am so very happy,
with this new life I have found.
I'm the peaceful summer breeze,
that flows softly through the trees.
I'm the bluebird in the sky,
that sings with such ease.
Yes, I am so very happy,
so happy to be free.
Understand my family and friends
and don't you cry for me.
~ Sheila Pearce...
From the internment service
Death is nothing at all
I have only slipped away into the next room
I am I and you are you
Whatever we were to each other
That we are still
Call me by my own familiar name
Speak to me in the easy way you always used
Put no difference into your tone
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow
Laugh as we always laughed
At the little jokes we always enjoyed together
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was
Let it be spoken without effort
Without the ghost of a shadow in it
Life means all that it ever was
There is absolute unbroken continuity
What is death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind
Because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you for an interval
Somewhere very near
Just around the corner
All is well.
Nothing is past; nothing is lost
One brief moment and all will be as it was before
How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!
Canon Henry Scott-Holland, Canon of St Paul’s Cathedral (1847 – 1918)
A Reading from Robins Internment Service
He is gone
You can shed tears that he is gone
Or you can smile because he has lived
You can close your eyes and pray that he will come back
Or you can open your eyes and see all that he has left
Your heart can be empty because you can’t see him
Or you can be full of the love that you shared
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday
Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday
You can remember him and only that he is gone
Or you can cherish his memory and let it live on
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back
Or you can do what he would want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.
David Harkin (1959 – )
Memories
My memories are what I have left,
and a lesson I will not forget.
The time has come when time is no more
and all that's left was once before.
The memories so dear and true,
those memories of me and you.
Although we fell and stumbled at times,
all those hills were necessary climbs.
All the times when your heart shined through,
Are the greatest memories I have of you.
I will always remember you, brother of mine
in my heart I will keep you, so I will be fine.
I will go forward with my head up high,
it might be hard, I cannot lie.
But in my heart you will be,
moving forward, you with me.
SIBLINGS
“To the outside world we all grow old. But not to brothers and sisters.
We know each other as we always were. We know each other's hearts.
We share private family jokes. We remember family feuds and secrets, family griefs and joys.
We live outside the touch of time.”
—Clara Ortega