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This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Rodney Hicks, 46 years old, born on December 11, 1974, and passed away on May 21, 2021. We will remember him forever.
June 6, 2021
June 6, 2021
Rodney my love, it’s only been 16 days since I lost you but it seems like an eternity since I looked into those beautiful blue eyes, or kissed those warm sweet lips. I feel like when you passed everything inside me died with you. I have always been a fairly positive person but now all I feel every second of every day is excruciating pain and a rage I cannot explain and know isn’t rational. I’m so enraged at everyone on earth. I look at everyone and all I can think is why are they alive and the love of my life isn’t. It angers me to a boiling point. It’s not fair, I’ve lost SO many loved ones, especially recently but none compares to you. The loss of you has crippled me to complete and utter devastation. I know now what true human suffering is. Everyone keeps telling me that I’m strong and will be alright but the truth is I was only strong because you made me strong. With you by my side I was untouchable unstoppable, I feared nothing. I truly do fear nothing now. I’ve already lost EVERYTHING, so I absolutely fear nothing. Not even death. Actually for once in my life I look forward to death, knowing it will release me from this painful hell of this God forsaken world, and I can rejoin you. Which is my Heaven. I go where u go, anywhere that may be at anytime I will always go where you go. I am truly nothing without you by my side. You made me who I am, I was always strong with you by my side. It’s not fair that all these people who goes around cheating on their spouses not caring one bit is still allowed to be together while you and I had a very special bond. You weren’t just my husband you were my better half, my very best friend and my entire heart and soul, my reason for living. The billions and billions of people in this world that God could’ve taken. The useless evil deceptive people on this planet and God takes the “1” that I love most, the one I needed the most. If he needed you fine, but he should’ve taken me too. I knew one day we would pass on but I thought it would be when we were old or we would go together. That’s how I wanted it to be. Remember just a couple weeks before your passing we talked about this very things. We agreed that when we were old we would hold hands with one hand and each have a pistol we would fire at the same time so we could go together. You were never supposed to go first and DEFINITELY not this soon!!! When your old and one dies, you know you don’t have many years left anyways, but for me I’ve probably got another 30-30 years here without you!! Just the thought of that makes me want to eat a bullet. There is NOTHING left here for me in this world, I didn’t get a choice in it either, I’m being forced to live in this Godforsaken world where I don’t want to be without you and a future of excruciating pain and anger. I’m done, the thought of a world without Rodney Hicks in it is NO world I want to be ANY part of!! I can’t do this baby!! I am so sorry to let you down but I’m just not that strong, this is the one thing I cannot overcome no matter how hard I try. Each day I wake up hoping it all had just been a bad dream, I reach for you in bed before I realize it wasn’t, then i cry for about 30 minutes before literally forcing myself to get up. Afterwards I struggle thru the day staring at walls n listening to the deafening sound of silence. At night I stare at the place you always set on the couch and talk to you, before crawling into our big empty bed and remembering how it use to be my favorite time of day. You would have your strong arm under my pillow and stick your hand out of the top so I could hold it. You would spoon me and have your other strong arm around me with my arm on your and hold your other hand too. How I would always let u put my top leg between your legs. We slept that way every night and when you rolled on your back, I would put my head on your chest and go to sleep listening to the sound of your heartbeat. You would have your arm around me and stroke my hair and play with my ear. I’d have my top leg over your legs and my free arm wrapped around your stomach or on your chest. God I miss you holding me SO much. EVERYTIME I get into the bed I think of it, I cry myself to sleep now holding your tee shirt. That’s my life for the next 20-30 years? No thank u, I JUST WANT TO BE WHERE YOU ARE!!! Is that too much to ask? I don’t so. Please baby ask God to make sure the kids are taking care of and to take me too... to where you are. I just wanted to be with you. There’s nothing left for me here. I love you baby with everything inside me, and hopefully I’ll be seeing you soon! Xoxo
May 29, 2021
May 29, 2021
Just wanted to let you know I'm sorry about your loss. Rodney was a very Good Man. He was a Good friend one thing I liked about Rodney he was the same every day. He sure will be missed again I'm so sorry about your loss. Weslie Triplett

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June 6, 2021
June 6, 2021
Rodney my love, it’s only been 16 days since I lost you but it seems like an eternity since I looked into those beautiful blue eyes, or kissed those warm sweet lips. I feel like when you passed everything inside me died with you. I have always been a fairly positive person but now all I feel every second of every day is excruciating pain and a rage I cannot explain and know isn’t rational. I’m so enraged at everyone on earth. I look at everyone and all I can think is why are they alive and the love of my life isn’t. It angers me to a boiling point. It’s not fair, I’ve lost SO many loved ones, especially recently but none compares to you. The loss of you has crippled me to complete and utter devastation. I know now what true human suffering is. Everyone keeps telling me that I’m strong and will be alright but the truth is I was only strong because you made me strong. With you by my side I was untouchable unstoppable, I feared nothing. I truly do fear nothing now. I’ve already lost EVERYTHING, so I absolutely fear nothing. Not even death. Actually for once in my life I look forward to death, knowing it will release me from this painful hell of this God forsaken world, and I can rejoin you. Which is my Heaven. I go where u go, anywhere that may be at anytime I will always go where you go. I am truly nothing without you by my side. You made me who I am, I was always strong with you by my side. It’s not fair that all these people who goes around cheating on their spouses not caring one bit is still allowed to be together while you and I had a very special bond. You weren’t just my husband you were my better half, my very best friend and my entire heart and soul, my reason for living. The billions and billions of people in this world that God could’ve taken. The useless evil deceptive people on this planet and God takes the “1” that I love most, the one I needed the most. If he needed you fine, but he should’ve taken me too. I knew one day we would pass on but I thought it would be when we were old or we would go together. That’s how I wanted it to be. Remember just a couple weeks before your passing we talked about this very things. We agreed that when we were old we would hold hands with one hand and each have a pistol we would fire at the same time so we could go together. You were never supposed to go first and DEFINITELY not this soon!!! When your old and one dies, you know you don’t have many years left anyways, but for me I’ve probably got another 30-30 years here without you!! Just the thought of that makes me want to eat a bullet. There is NOTHING left here for me in this world, I didn’t get a choice in it either, I’m being forced to live in this Godforsaken world where I don’t want to be without you and a future of excruciating pain and anger. I’m done, the thought of a world without Rodney Hicks in it is NO world I want to be ANY part of!! I can’t do this baby!! I am so sorry to let you down but I’m just not that strong, this is the one thing I cannot overcome no matter how hard I try. Each day I wake up hoping it all had just been a bad dream, I reach for you in bed before I realize it wasn’t, then i cry for about 30 minutes before literally forcing myself to get up. Afterwards I struggle thru the day staring at walls n listening to the deafening sound of silence. At night I stare at the place you always set on the couch and talk to you, before crawling into our big empty bed and remembering how it use to be my favorite time of day. You would have your strong arm under my pillow and stick your hand out of the top so I could hold it. You would spoon me and have your other strong arm around me with my arm on your and hold your other hand too. How I would always let u put my top leg between your legs. We slept that way every night and when you rolled on your back, I would put my head on your chest and go to sleep listening to the sound of your heartbeat. You would have your arm around me and stroke my hair and play with my ear. I’d have my top leg over your legs and my free arm wrapped around your stomach or on your chest. God I miss you holding me SO much. EVERYTIME I get into the bed I think of it, I cry myself to sleep now holding your tee shirt. That’s my life for the next 20-30 years? No thank u, I JUST WANT TO BE WHERE YOU ARE!!! Is that too much to ask? I don’t so. Please baby ask God to make sure the kids are taking care of and to take me too... to where you are. I just wanted to be with you. There’s nothing left for me here. I love you baby with everything inside me, and hopefully I’ll be seeing you soon! Xoxo
May 29, 2021
May 29, 2021
Just wanted to let you know I'm sorry about your loss. Rodney was a very Good Man. He was a Good friend one thing I liked about Rodney he was the same every day. He sure will be missed again I'm so sorry about your loss. Weslie Triplett
His Life
May 29, 2021
Rodney was born December 11th 1974 in Columbus Ohio to Lawrence and Linda Griffith Hicks. He had one older brother, Rocky Lee Hicks and a younger brother, Gregory Phillip Hicks. One baby sister Kimberly Shannon Hicks Davis. He is survived by his wife of 24 years, Jeannie Marie (JB) Maggard Hicks. One son, Devin Bryce Hicks, and one daughter, Destiny Kaitlyn Hicks. A very special granddaughter who he thought the sun rose and fell upon, she was his heart and soul, Miss Heaven Leigh Skye Hicks. From the time our daughter became pregnant with her, she was the most amazing creature he had ever seen. Papaw was his proudest title. He meant so many things to so many people. He was a father, a grandfather, a son a brother an uncle a friend and a husband. He nailed them all! He was beyond wonderful and beloved in all titles. He was a generous man who would give a stranger a helping hand or the shirt off his back. He was a proud man. He led his own path, he had his beliefs and never strayed from them, no matter how hard. He knew who he was and never felt the need to apologize for it. He worked hard and sacrificed much for the good of his family. He believed in family God and country, and he stood strong and true for all of them. He was a proud southern rebel, who did right by his friends his family and his God. He was true to hisself and everyone around him. He made people want to be better people. My life was better just by him being in it. I was extremely blessed to have had the privilege to call him my husband , and though it has crippled me from the pain of losing him, I would gladly go thru it all again just for one more day to spend with him. He wasn’t just my husband, he was my confidant, my better half, my partner and my very best friend. There is no one else’s company I would have preferred. Knowing I’ll never get to hear the wonderful sound of his voice again, to feel his warm and loving touch again... the content safe feeling I had in his arms, his strong embrace... is intolerable. I’m going to miss the way his soft silky hair felt on my lips and cheek. I would give anything in the world to look into those sparkling blue eyes again, that looked back at me with so much love and laughter in them. He was my soulmate, the love of my life. He stole my heart from the first time I saw him n I will take my last breath loving him and only him.
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May 29, 2021
On May 24, 1996 A young girl at the tender age of 17 was lazily lounging at her grandmas home bored with absolute no idea of the adventure that was about to bestow her. Her cousins decided it was too beautiful of a day to just hang around their grandmas house and asked this young girl if she wanted to accompany them if only to get some fresh air and enjoy the outdoors. Without hesitation the young girl accepted and hastily joined them in the car. When they pulled into the parking lot of the local elementary school outdoor basketball court at Blaine Kentucky, she noticed there were already some boys there playing basketball. However, they all suddenly disappear thru her eyes and she saw but one. The most gorgeous guy she had EVER laid eyes on stopped her cold in her tracks. He was so breathtakingly beautiful he seemed unreal to her. She stood watching here for a few minutes before realizing she had been standing there like an idiot mouth agape. She hurriedly tried to smooth it over and pretend she hadn’t even saw him. Knees shaking she slowly made her way in front of a parked red-orange Ford tempo and unsteadily sat down on the ground. She watched this beautiful man run up and down the court for a while before noticing that he had been watching her as well. When her eyes locked with the most sparkling mischievous blue eyes she had ever saw, her heart rate quickened and she could feel herself blush all over. Not able to continue looking into those gorgeous bright blue eyes she looked down at the ground hoping he couldn’t see how weak the mere sight of him made her. This went on for about 30 minutes her watching and looking down every time her eyes locked with his before looking up at the sound of footsteps coming upon her. Her heart skipped a beat when she realized it was him making his way directly to her. He walked with a confidence only someone with arrogance could. She had to quickly remind herself to breath because her head was suddenly beginning to spin. She felt drunk with joy and tingled throughout her body as fear mixed with excitement poured through her. He kept his eyes locked with hers as he passed and opened the car door of the car she sat directly in front of. It was his, of all the vehicles there she had unintentionally sat directly in front of his. He wrote on a piece of a fila shoe box something quick. He shut the door and walked right next to her where he sat down and fumbled with the piece of shoebox. He smiled the most gorgeous smile she had ever seen the aroma of him strong in the air... an aroma that was his own and she instantly fell in love with. The aroma was one she later told him many times they should bottle bc she loved that smell more than any other her whole life. It was the sweetest smell the young girl had ever known and would ever know all the days of her life. Years later, after this young girl and this gorgeous man married and had two children and one granddaughter, after 24 years of marital bliss and 25 years complete. The young girl now a middle aged woman sat at the bedside of the local hospital emergency room, and once again and for the final time leaned over and put her face in his silky dark peppered grey hair and breathed deeply the greatest smell she had ever known. With her lips pressed into his hair she quietly whispered, “sleep now love, and wait for me. I will see you as soon as I can. I love you more now than the day I first saw you and I am and will always be yours and yours alone. I will miss you everyday!” With those works the woman closed those beautiful sparkling, now milky blue eyes forever

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