It’s been 11 years and the tears still coming every time I think of you . It still hurts to go on day after day watching the childern and grand childern being born and growing up without you. My memories of you keep me going and keep me fighting for our family . God is testing me every day and I hope I am holding up to his grace. I feel like I am losing the battle of holding everyone together but I have to try . I know god will give me that strength to keep going just wish you were here to hold me close and say it’s alright . You my love are so missed I love you your wife always Pa

The day I had to say goodbye was the hardest day of my lif while trying to stay strong for the childern I cried every singl minute on the inside . While walking with th smile on the out side I was dying on the inside. I cried every night for a whole 3 months after putting you safely away. Nobody knew the hurt and pain it was costing me not to just give up and go too. But I knew they needed me so I had to walk that road with god he never let me down he was there when no one knew the pain. I still have that breaking heart just keep it well hidden. Still carrying on that promise I made of taking care of the childern who are now that piece of you that I hang on too. My Love You Will Always Be I Love You Always And Forever your wife Patricia E Phillips