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Rainbow Reese Aurora

August 17, 2016

Last year on Aug. 20, 2016 we were proud to announce the birth of our Rainbow baby Reese Aurora Meyerholtz. In 3 days we will be celebrating her 1st b-day along with bubbles in memory of her big sister Apple. She is our Rainbow after a bad storm. Everyday we miss her sister so much but she has brought back light in our dark times. 

This is my Story and this is my Baby's Story.

October 5, 2013

https://www.facebook.com/RosalieApple
I'm 25 years old I have three son's. All we ever wanted was a Lil baby Girl to complete our family and on Christmas of 2012 we found out we were pregnant. I have missed carried after my first son and my Third son was born at 35 weeks and almost didn't make it. So my body doesn't handle pregnancy very well but this pregnancy was so different. my lil girl was so filled with energy in my belly and I had a wonderful pregnancy up till the last 4 weeks. I went in labor on a weds night and I thought it was the fake one until Thursday nothing had changed and I was hurting worse. I went to my doctor and he sent me to the hospital to get ready to prepare to have my lil girl Rosalie Apple. Everything at home was ready for here and her room was filled with Hello Kitty everywhere and her brothers were waiting at there grandparents house to hear when she had come. My first two pregnancy were C-section and lucky my third one was natural so this pregnancy was another trial pregnancy. The only problem we were having was my cervix wasn't progressing very fast like my last one so the Doctor tried to speed it up some by breaking my water. There were many things I could say went wrong during the time the doctor left the night nurse messed up my pain meds and the day nurse kept refusing to fix them even after the doctor had told her I was to have none because he didn't want my uterus to rip. He also had told her he want to do a C-section if I kept going slow but she pushed me to get to a 10 even longer. Finely Friday at 12:45 they told me I was finely a full ten the only problem was the pain was just so much to pare and even though I kept bagging for her to fix it before I was a ten she still never did. I could feel my lil Girl stilling moving before I pushed I could feel that little foot of hers pushing on my belly and I knew how alive she was then. I got to the push before the crown and my body started feeling pain that was not normal I hurt so bad my body felt like it was breaking in half and the nurse yelled at me to suck it up and push so I did as I was told and as soon as my Baby girl Crowned her heartbeat dropped so fast to 67 she had me push again and then decided to get the doctor. I could tell when he came in he was so very scared that he had to choice either Vacuum her out or push he back up and do a c section. The Vacuum was the fast because she had to come out very fast and the c section would take way to long at this point. It took him 30 second to help me push her out and as soon as My lil Apple came out I knew my lil girl was gone. She was born at 1:38 p.m. and her heartbeat was still there but she never took a breath. there were so many people in the room now trying to revive my Little Angel Apple. The Obg came back to fix me up while they worked only to have to take me in to emergency surgery because they could figure out were I was bleeding from. She had rip my old scars and had rip be from my belly button down lucky both of my doctors worked hard on me to save my life as well plus made sure I could have another baby. When I woke up the first thing I wanted to know was if my Little girl was okay and if they saved her. I already knew the answer it wasn't hard to tell no body would look me in the eyes and they kept saying the Doctor was coming to check on me in recovery to talk with me. The Doctor normally never does this unless its bad. They said my baby passed away at 2:09 and she never took a single breath at all. She was so beautiful They said that after they got inside my body they learned that my Placenta abruption for any one who don't know what that is its when the Placenta separates from your body before the baby is out which cause the baby to lose Oxygen so they only had seconds to get her out and a min to revive her before she would of been brain dead as well. I'm not sure and neither are the doctors if they had done things different if my lil girl would of live maybe if I had just told them to do the c section it could of been different but the doctors said the out come could of been the same they just don't know how it happened there were no signs during the pregnancy but my Angel Apple live she live I could feel her every move until the end. I feel lost and empty but I try to stay strong for my boys and husband until I'm alone. Nights are sleepless and my mind never shuts up with the what ifs or if I could just try to do it over maybe if I tried the c section it could of been different. I lost my baby on 8/16/2013 and I would trade place's with her in a second and only wish I could hold her one more time and kiss her lips just one more time but I'm only left with Pictures, memory's and this lost empty feeling. So on 8/20/2013 I laid my Rosalie Apple in her Basinet on top of a bed of Rose's and put her in her very first dress I ever bought for her. This is my Story and this is my Baby's Story.