It has been difficult to gather the right words to say since mom-mom has passed as my mind has been flooding with all of the memories of her like I am grasping to hold onto any ounce of her so I do not forget the times we had.
She was always there for me. As many of you know she was a constant in my life not only because she lived just down the street for many years but because of our unique family circumstances. I spent a lot of time with my grandmother. I grew up watching cartoons and soap operas. The smell of her home is imprinted in my mind with the lingering aromas of delicious italian dishes that were made with so much love and care.
She was a fiesty pistol that always spoke her mind but also had a sweet and fun loving personality. She was such a strong woman and despite many circumstances and hardships, she perservered. She loved to cook, make you laugh, prank strangers with her partner in crime Tilly, drink coffee, dance, her trip to Italy, buffets, scratch off's, playing the lottery, going to the casino's with my beloved Uncle Donald (RIP), and visiting Las Vegas with her sisters. But even more than she loved those things she loved her grandchildren and great grand children so very much.
She was so giving and always wanted to feed you. She never came to visit empty handed whether it was food she made, sweet treats, or even a gift. I will never forget the noise and giggle she would make while she watched you enjoy her food or open her gift. Her lightly pinching my cheeks or arm saying "audea audea audea". Her hugs, her smile, her laugh, her gold hoops that she always wore, the way she mispronounced words that would have everyone laughing including her. There is so much more I can say as words are just not enough.
I miss her so much but the truth is that I have missed her for quite sometime and these memories are sadly more distant than one would assume. In her final days, I am happy I was able to help advocate for my grandmother and help my mom to care for her although it wasn't as much as I wish I could. I loved her dearly and I will miss her every day. Rest in peace mom-mom.