O.K. here is a poem I wrote for my mom and dealing with her passing on to the other side. I hope it helps some people if they are going thru the same trouble. And I hope you like it. If you do I would really appreciate it if you checked the like button. It is entitled    
                                        "Sometimes". 
When your soul is feeling lost in deep emotions. And it feels like your inner conscious is about to break into little pieces. Knowing inside your mind that everything that follows is gonna be bad. The adult persona inside you,won't let your true emotions come out. So now your locked in this inner battle.With your emotions in one corner and self pride in the other. Then all the sudden.Your standing there screaming,like a child that just lost there first pet. To all your family and friends it seems like its just in vain. But inside your soul you know it's a much greater pain. For now you let them know its that thing we call death. It just took your best friend"Your Mother" and it's a new kind of pain that hurts deep inside your soul. 
So now you make a promise to ones self. This pain that runs deep inside your body and mind. Is leaving you feeling all empty inside. So your promise is, to keep all your feelings to yourself and not letting anyone in. All bottled up and not wanting share any kind of emotion. Not wanting to let anyone see you cry. Your soul and heart feel like there all empty and lost. Well you think to yourself,"I've never felt so alone". So you tell yourself to be stand strong and be tough. But once you get close. To where all previously passed loved ones are buried. The tears begin to fall and there is no holding back. They stream down freely on both sides of your cheeks. You stare out the window hoping no one has seen you cry. Holding them back is a terrible feet. Only when you get there and see that photo. There is no stopping them now, because there flowing like a river. So now you take your seat, and your body starts to shiver. But as you sit there you see almost everyone is in tears. You now don't feel so alone and let them fall freely.
For now your not feeling all alone, with these memory's and emotions . 
This world doesn't feel like a dark cruel place. In which you once thought it was just a few minutes ago. This feeling runs through your soul giving it peace of mind. Falling to your knees inside your mind. And asking God to take care of her until I get there. Knowing inside that He has all ready done all of that. He gently lifts, this large amount of pain from your heart. He lets her talk to her one last time. She softly whispers "Don't cry for me son, I am in good hands. I want you to be happy" she says with that loving smile upon her face. She vanish's in that pail Winter's morning.
Now you tell your self,she is no longer in pain. You remember when you just seen her. She had all ten toes and fingers,which she had lost years before. When the devil tried to take her from us 3 kids. But God brought her back to us. It was a long and hard each day she was in that comma. 9 months later she came back to us. Seeing that light and not going to the other side. So knowing that in mind,body,and spirit set my soul at ease.Knowing she is with loved ones in that new place she went. A shinning light streams down from the Heavens above. Letting your soul and mind know it can smile,because she loves you. It makes your soul feel free and safe. For now giving ones self to fall upon Gods Grace. Telling yourself deep inside your soul don't be afraid of that "Bright White Light". She whispers in your ear again. Telling you, she will be here for you when it becomes your turn in flight.
Miss ya Momma,
Love ya Uriah

It was taken shortly after they got married and its at my grandpa's place.When he was living in Ground Mound. The guy that is unidentifyed in it is old Rex Cossy.And boy you didnt want to be around him when he had gas ........... He stunk me and my brother Mraw out of the house. He is a good guy but stinky ......lol
 

 Angels Enchantment

The Swan Song emerges from the lake
As an Angel sets flight in the summer night sky
The music plays thoughts throughout my mind
As the melodies carry praise to the awaiting world
Behold the angel of Gods heavenly sight
Capture the essence of its bountiful might
Take in the Knowledge that in your time of loss
God wills not to ever forget you
And
Remember that love lives forever
So let the Angels Enchantment give you
The Strength to Carry on
While you sit in the Remembrance
Listen to the Swan Song
It will Guide you Through
Your time of Sorrow

In Loving Memory

To A Beloved Daughter, Wife, Mother, Sister & Friend
Rosemarry Hill
Shall she remain in our hearts and in our thoughts till its our time
to meet her again in the grace of our Heavenly Father.

 "Mama"

Countless ways, your days are within my soul Enless memories, I hold of you deep in my heart You were always there for me This is not a loss, a loss in the sense; that you are totally gone I have you with me forever and always I shall carry you with me till one day we meet  again, by the grace of our Heavenly Father Till then watch down on me from time to time Know this, I love and miss you dearly But know, I have the knowledge that this is  not the end We will be together again "Mama"
Loving you always and forever

 Angel of Mine

(Adding for Caroline Hendrickson)

She ain't got no money
Her clothes are kinda funny
Her hair is kinda wild and free
Oh, but Love grows where my Rosemary goes
And nobody knows like me

She talks kinda lazy
And people say she she's crazy
And her life's a mystery
Oh, but Love grows where my Rosemary goes
And nobody knows like me

There's something about her hand holding mine
It's a feeling that's fine
And I just gotta say
She's really got a magical spell
And it's working so well
That I can't get away

I'm a lucky fella
And I've just got to tell her
That I love her endlessly
Because Love grows where my Rosemary goes
And nobody knows like me

There's something about her hand holding mine
It's a feeling that's fine
And I just gotta say
She's really got a magical spell
And it's working so well
That I can't get away

I'm a lucky fella
And I've just got to tell her
That I love her endlessly
Because Love grows where my Rosemary goes
And nobody knows like me

Fadeout:
It keeps growing every place she's been
And nobody knows like me

If you've met her, you'll never forget her
And nobody knows like me

La la la- believe it when you've seen it
Nobody knows like me

(Adding For Caleb Goins)

I'm so tired of being here 
Suppressed by all my childish fears 
And if you have to leave 
I wish that you would just leave 
'Cause your presence still lingers here 
And it won't leave me alone 

These wounds won't seem to heal 
This pain is just too real 
There's just too much that time cannot erase 

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears 
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears 
And I held your hand through all of these years 
But you still have 
All of me 

You used to captivate me 
By your resonating life 
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind 
Your face it haunts 
My once pleasant dreams 
Your voice it chased away 
All the sanity in me 

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone 
But though you're still with me 
I've been alone all along 

 (Adding For Caroline Hendrickson) 

Chiquitita, tell me what's wrong You're enchained by your own sorrowIn your eyes there is no hope for tomorrow How I hate to see you like thisThere is no way you can deny itI can see that you're oh so sad, so quiet Chiquitita, tell me the truth I'm a shoulder you can cry onYour best friend, I'm the one you must rely on You were always sure of yourself Now I see you've broken a feather I hope we can patch it up together Chiquitita, you and I know How the heartaches come and they go and the scars they're leaving You'll be dancing once again and the pain will end You will have no time for grieving Chiquitita, you and I cry But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you Let me hear you sing once more like you did before Sing a new song, ChiquititaTry once more like you did before Sing a new song, Chiquitita So the walls came tumbling down And your love's a blown out candle All is gone and it seems too hard to handle Chiquitita, tell me the truth There is no way you can deny itI see that you're oh so sad, so quiet Chiquitita, you and I know How the heartaches come and they go and the scars they're leaving You'll be dancing once again and the pain will end You will have no time for grieving Chiquitita, you and I cry But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you Let me hear you sing once more like you did before Sing a new song, ChiquititaTry once more like you did before Sing a new song, Chiquitita Try once more like you did before

Sing a new song, Chiquitita  

(Adding for Caroline Hendrickson)

 I have a dream, a song to singTo help me cope with anything If you see the wonder of a fairy tale You can take the future even if you failI believe in angels Something good in everything I seeI believe in angels When I know the time is right for meI'll cross the stream, I have a dream I have a dream, a fantasy To help me through reality And my destination makes it worth the while Pushing through the darkness still another mileI believe in angels Something good in everything I seeI believe in angels When I know the time is right for me I'll cross the stream, I have a dream I'll cross the stream, I have a dream I have a dream, a song to sing To help me cope with anything If you see the wonder of a fairy tale You can take the future even if you failI believe in angels Something good in everything I seeI believe in angel sWhen I know the time is right for m eI'll cross the stream, I have a dream I'll cross the stream, I have a dream

(Adding for Uriah Hill)

 I was Standin' by my window, on one cold and cloudy day.

When I saw The Hearse come rollin' , For to carry my Mother away Chorus Will The Circle Be Unbroken, By and By Lord, By And ByThere's a Better, Home A waitin', in the Sky Lord In The SkyWell I told The Undertaker,"undertaker please drive slow...for the body, that you are carrying, Lord I Hate To See her go."Repeat Chorus Till fade I was standing by my window, On one cold and cloudy day When I saw that hearse come rolling For to carry my mother away  Will the circle be unbroken by and by, Lord, by and by There's a better home a-waiting in the sky, Lord, in the sky  I said to that undertaker undertaker please drive slow for this lady you are carrying Lord, I hate to see here go  Will the circle be unbroken by and by, Lord, by and by There's a better home a-waiting in the sky, Lord, in the sky  Oh, I followed close behind her Tried to hold up and be brave But I could not hide my sorrow When they laid her in the grave  Will the circle be unbroken by and by, Lord, by and by There's a better home a-waiting in the sky, Lord, in the sky  I went back home, my home was lonesome missed my mother, she was gone all of my brothers, sisters crying what a home so sad and lone  Will the circle be unbroken by and by, Lord, by and by There's a better home a-waiting in the sky, Lord, in the sky  We sang the songs of childhood Hymns of faith that made us strong Ones that Mother Maybelle taught us Hear the angels sing along  Will the circle be unbroken by and by, Lord, by and by There's a better home a-waiting in the sky, Lord, in the sky  Will the circle be unbroken by and by, Lord, by and by There's a better home a-waiting in the sky, Lord, in the sky

 (Adding For Uriah Hill)

 I remember when I was a lad,times were hard and things were bad.But there's a silver lining behind every cloud.Just poor people, that's all we were.Trying to make a living out of black land dirt.We'd get together in a family circle singing loud. Daddy sang bass,Mama sang tenor.Me and little brother would join right in there.Singing seems to help a troubled soul.One of these days and it won't be long.I'll rejoin them in a song.I'm gonna join the family circle at the Throne.No, the circle won't be broken.By and by, Lord, by and by. Daddy sang bass,Mama sang tenor.Me and little brother would join right in there.In the sky, Lord, in the sky. Now I remember after work, Mama would call in all of us.You could hear us singing for a country mile.Now little brother has done gone on.But, I'll rejoin him in a song.We'll be together again up yonder in a little while. Daddy sang bass,Mama sang tenor.Me and little brother would join right in there.Cause singing seems to help a troubled soul.One of these days and it won't be long,I'll rejoin them in a song.I'm gonna join the family circle at the Throne.Oh, no the circle won't be broken.By and by, Lord, by and by. Daddy sang bass,Mama sang tenor.Me and little brother would join right in there.In the sky, Lord, in the sky.

In the sky, Lord, in the sky. 

 (Adding For Dana Anderson)

 In the day we sweat it out in the streetsof a runaway American dream

At night we ride through mansions of gloryin suicide machines

Sprung from cages out on Highway 9

Chrome wheeled, fuel injected

And steppin' out over the line, oooh,Baby this town rips the bones from your back

It's a death trap, it's a suicide rap

We gotta get out while we're young

'Cause tramps like us, baby we were born to run 

Wendy let me in I wanna be your friend

I want to guard your dreams and visions

Just wrap your legs 'round these velvet rims

And strap your hands 'cross my engines

Together we could break this trap

We'll run till we drop, baby we'll never go back

Will you walk with me out on the wire

'Cause baby I'm just a scared and lonely rider

But I gotta know how it feelsI wanna know if your love is wild

Girl I want to know if love is real  Beyond the Palace hemi-powered drones scream down the boulevard

The girls comb their hair in rearview mirrors And the boys try to look so hard

The amusement park rises bold and stark

Kids are huddled on the beach in a mist

I wanna die with you Wendy on the streets tonightIn an everlasting kiss

The highway's jammed with broken heroes

On a last chance power drive

Everybody's out on the run tonight

And there's no place left to hide

Together Wendy we can live with the sadness

I'll love you with all the madness in my soul

Someday girl I don't know when

We're gonna get to that place Where we really want to go

And we'll walk in the sun But till then tramps like us

Baby we were born to run 

 (Adding this song for Matt and Betty, they sang this song
with my Mama all the time) 

all the leaves are brownand the sky is greyI've been for a walkon a winter's dayI'd be safe and warmif I was in L.ACalifornia Dreamin'on such a winter's daystopped into a churchI passed along the waywell, I got down on my kneesand I pretend to prayyou know the preacher likes the coldhe knows I'm gonna stayCalifornia Dreamin'on such a winter's dayall the leaves are brownand the sky is greyI've been for a walkon a winter's dayif I didn't tell herI could leave todayCalifornia Dreamin'

on such a winter's day x3 

   (Adding this song for my Mama and Clarence) 

Won't you take me with you darling I don't want to stay And this place just keeps on getting sadder ever since you went away And I smell you on this pillow as I lie here in our old bed With a bottle and a bible, I just pray i might get some rest  When I get my wings I'm a gonna Fly back home to you And go ahead and you can tell St. Peter Open up, I'm coming through  And I put you in that blue dress and a new pair of high heel shoes And a photograph of two love drunk kids on the day that they said i do 57 years of memories fall like the rain comes down And I could not help myself but cry as they laid you in the ground  When I get my wings I'm a gonna Fly back home to you Go ahead and you can tell St. Peter Open up, I'm coming on through  And every Sunday I kneel down to pray that I won't be alone And every night I lay down and hope I wake up back in your arms  When I get my wings I'm a gonna Fly back home to you And go ahead and you can tell St. Peter Open up, I'm coming on through  And I don't think, don't think I can wait any longer O Lord I'm counting down the days I'm gonna come back, come back and hold you my love Soon as I get my wings O Lord Just as soon as I get my wings One more time Lord 

Soon as I get my wings 

 (Adding This Song For Uriah Hill)

 If you're traveling in the north country fairWhere the winds hit heavy on the borderlineRemember me to one who lives thereShe once was the true love of mine. If you go when the snowflakes stormWhen the rivers freeze and summer endsPlease see if she's a coat so warmTo keep her from the howlin' winds. Please see if her hair hangs longIf it rolls and flows all down her breastPlease see from me if her hair hangs longThat's the way I remember her best. I'm a-wonderin' if she remember me at allMany times I've often prayedIn the darkness of my nightIn the brightness of my day. So if you're travelin' in the north country fairWhere the winds hit heavy on the borderlineRemember me to one who lives thereShe once was a true love of mine.

 (My Mama wanted this song played at her memorial)

 If I leave here tomorrow Would you still remember me? For I must be travelling on, now, 'Cause there's too many places I've got to see. But, if I stayed here with you, girl, Things just couldn't be the same. 'Cause I'm as free as a bird now, And this bird you can not change. Lord knows, I can't change. Bye, bye, its been a sweet love. Though this feeling I can't change. But please don't take it badly, 'Cause Lord knows I'm to blame. But, if I stayed here with you girl, Things just couldn't be the same. Cause I'm as free as a bird now, And this bird you'll never change. And this bird you can not change. Lord knows, I can't change. Lord help me, I can't change.

 (Matt,Betty & Caroline wanted this song added)

So I'm back, to the velvet underground
Back to the floor, that I love
To a room with some lace and paper flowers
Back to the gypsy that I was
To the gypsy... that I was

And it all comes down to you
Well, you know that it does
And lightning strikes, maybe once, maybe twice
oh, and it lights up the night
And you see your gypsy
You see your gypsy

To the gypsy that remains faces freedom with a little fear
I have no fear, I have only love
And if I was a child
And the child was enough
Enough for me to love
Enough to love

She is dancing away from you now
She was just a wish
She was just a wish
And a memory is all that is left for you now
You see your gypsy
You see your gypsy

Lightning strikes, maybe once, maybe twice
And it all comes down to you
"
And it all comes down to you

Lightning strikes, maybe once, maybe twice
And it all comes down to you

I still see your bright eyes, bright eyes
I have always loved you
And it all comes down to you

(This song is being added for it's beautful words) 

I have seen my last tomorrow,

I am holding my last breath,

Goodbye, sweet world of sorrow,

My new life, begins with death.

I am standing on the mountain, 

I can hear the angels songs,

I am reaching over Jordon, 

Take my hand, Lord lead me home.

All my burdens, are behind me,

I have prayed, my final pray,

Don't you cry, over my body, 

Cause that ain't me, lying there.

No, I am standing on the mountain, 

I can hear the angels songs,

I am reaching over Jordon, 

Take my hand, Lord lead me home.

I am standing ( Lord, I am standing)
on the mountain ( on the mountain ), 

I can hear ( I can hear the angels songs )
the angels songs,

I am reaching over Jordon, ( over Jordon )

Take my hand, Lord lead me home.

Take my hand, Lord lead me home.

(This song reminds me of my Mother and
has since the day I first heard it,
She wanted it played at her Memorial)

She never mentions the word addiction
In certain company
Yes, she'll tell you she's an orphan
After you meet her family

She paints her eyes as black as night now, 
Pulls those shades down tight
Yes, she gives a smile when the pain comes,
The pain gonna make everything alright

Says, she talks to angels,
They call her out by her name
Oh yeah, she talks to angels,
Says they call her out by her name

She keeps a lock of hair in her pocket
She wears a cross around her neck
Yes, the hair is from a little boy,
And the cross is someone she has not met, not yet

Says she talks to angels,
Says they all know her name
Oh yeah, she talks to angels,
Says they call her out by her name

She don't know no lover,
None that I ever seen,
And to her that ain't nothing
But to me, It means, means everything.

She paints those eyes as black as night now
She pulls those shades down tight
Oh yeah, there a smile when the pain comes,
The pain gonna make everything alright, alright yeah

She talks to angels,
Says they call her out her name
Oh yeah-eah-eah, angels
Call her out by her name
Oh-ooh-oh-oh, angels
They call her out by her name
Oh-oh, She talks to angels
They call her out
Yeah-eah-eah, call her out
Don't you know that they call her out by her name?

(Adding this Song for Heather Hill)

 You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
Its hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small

But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

(When I last saw you laughing)
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show

Your true colors
True colors
True colors
Shining through

I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

 This photo bring's back one of the happiest days of my life. My Mama and Auntie got to be there for the birth of Thane Rion. This picture was one of my Mama's favorite's.