My son.

For almost as long as I can remember you lived your life like the restless wind.  No matter where you went, there was always somewhere else to go, and when you got there you always gave me a call.  But where you are now, you won't want to leave; and we can talk anytime at all.

A mother should never have to outlive her child, So I won't believe your gone. You've just gone ahead.

All my love

Mom

You were never really there for me in my life. But the moments we had together were the moments I will always remember and cherish. I wish I could have spent more family time with you.

I can't help but wonder how different my life would have been had you been a part of it as I grew up. Though you have done a few things I don't like and because of these things I had a harder life than necessary, I love you , I always have and always will.

I am glad that death came easy for you rather than hard for you, for many reasons. One of those reasons is because of what your life was like growing up, that I think you never forgot. Because of that you have been miserable for so long. Death took that pain from you, both mental and physical pain.

Many people would say that death is a horrible thing. In this case I disagree.

I am glad to say I am your son and that you were my dad.

I hope someday I will meet you in heaven and have a huge BBQ with you they way we used to.

Love always

Your son

Tyler

In our wildest of dreams, I think that few of us had really given much thought to this moment.  I personally , never once considered what I would say at my big brothers funeral. I suppose I always saw him as invincible and it never dawned on me that I would ever have to say goodbye.

It is fair to say that Toddy travelled a rocky road in life. From childhood on , the chips were often stacked against him. One thing about Toddy is that he always made the best of whatever hand he was dealt.  He would never dwell on any problems or situations he was in. he would just deal with whatever was in front of him, never too worried about what lie ahead nor drowning in misery about the past. Sometimes I think he took things a little too lightheartedly, but now I realize that perhaps. that is the very thing that allowed him to be happy in life.

Toddy kept most people at a distance. Or, perhaps people kept HIM at a distance. But few people ever got to know the real Toddy. But those who were close to him know that he tried to give them all that he had to give. For someone like Toddy that was difficult to do. He was never any good at emotions and feelings. He was terribly misunderstood and awkward in personal relationships. Yet, if you were someone in his life that he loved , you just always knew it. 

He and I never spent a lot of time sharing" I love you's". But I have no doubts about what he felt towards me. I was his bratty little brother and he always defended me , whether I needed it or not...Lord knows I didn't always deserve it.

Caren and Chris were his big sisters and it is important for the world to know what they meant to him. They were the ones that were truly there for him, especially growing up. I can only imagine what his life would have been like without them through his childhood. To Caren and Chris: I hope you know how much he truly loved you.  He looked up to you both beyond belief. You were his heroes in life. Although he and I will probably never know ALL of the sacrifices you made for him , and for us, he did know that the two of you did all you could to make him safe, happy  and loved.

You will never know the comfort and joy that I have in knowing that he died coming home to you and Marie. You are taking care of him in Death as you did in life and for that I am forever grateful.

Marie was his best friend and longtime companion. For over 10yrs she was his rock. In my heart of hearts , I believe nobody knew Toddy as Marie did. For over a decade she was his partner in life and took care of him in ways he couldn't have done for himself. She watched over him , protected him and gave him more stability than he ever knew in life. She loved him .....truly loved him. And he loved her. At times she was the only person he felt like he was living for.  I am sure I can speak for my entire family  when I say " Thankyou Marie for loving him so much and giving him the best 10 years of his life."

Toddy was a simple man and it didn't take much to make him happy. He loved food and he loved to cook. On our last day together , Toddy, Tyler , Mom and I had a BBQ. There were steaks and hamburgers with all the trimmings. There was plenty of food already but Toddy wanted bratwurst.   At first I told him I wasn't going to buy any because there was already too much to eat.     Since he had been away a while , I decided to surprise him and got the bratwurst anyway.  It was Hillshire farms Brats cooked in Miller Genuine Draft ( one of his favorite beers). At the last minute I handed them to him and said " You gotta cook 'em , but I got these for you".

  It was as though I had handed him a hundred dollar bill and I will never forget the look on his face and his voice as I handed them to him. .... * ( We all know that excited high pitched squeal he got sometimes ..that quirky , childish almost baby talk voice he spoke in when he was excited)*..."All for me ..Thankyou thankyou thankyou..Me cook you yummy dinner"  He was so happy over something so simple. He was beaming with pride after he cooked them and served us dinner and bragged over the " amazing bratwurst".

And that is how I will remember my big brother; goofy, quirky, invincible. I know that he will be watching over , protecting and defending me for the rest of my life. He is in a place of absolute peace and joy, and there is a Karaoke machine in every room. And I am positive that he is sitting in heaven right now with a bratwurst in one hand , a Bud Light Lime in the other , and in that childlike voice he is saying " Let's go shoot some pool".

I love you

Wayno

God saw you getting tired and a cure was not to be. So He put his arms around you and whispered "come with me" With tearful eyes I watched and saw you pass away. Although I loved you dearly, I could not make you stay. A golden heart stopped beating, hardworking hands at rest. God broke my heart to prove to me, HE only ...takes the BEST Put this on your status if there is someone in heaven you miss....I miss you

I went to visit with Thunder Pool league tonight and while I was there I got to thinking about the very first time I played pool at pogo.com...Toddy came up with my pogo name for the league..his was Peac374 and he created PeacsPoohbear for me.

Electric Pool league was just a couple of weeks old. I entered the room and said hello to his friends there.  One of them I forget which one .typed into the chat OMG PEAC HAS GOT A POOHBEAR ~!!!   several others chimed in and said NO fair if peac has gots a poohbear I want one !!... that was the beginning of my relationship with his friends in Electric Pool ..some of whom are still online today and I am still in touch with. They all send their best wishes to you Peac374 and hope you are at peace playing pool and having a few beers up there.

This evening at dusk I was sitting outside thinking about Sam and Todd ..Sam is my husband who passed away 14mths before Todd and I met ........... It was as if I was hearing the two of them talk up there .

I got to thinking about a conversation between the two of them and it was as if I were hearing both of their voices in my head.  All of a sudden I started laughing. Ever since then .things don't seem to be weighing as heavily ...My heart and mind have been at peace since I heard them.

I think that this  was God's way of  telling me "they are safe with me and you are  going to be alright "... RIP Sam and Todd .. ..thankyou both for  helping to heal my mind and my heart

todd was a very good friend of mine have know him for years. i can not beleive he is gone its like a nightmare. he sure could make people laugh when they were down. i will never forget the day i met him and marie and all the seizures i had he took me to the er. them i keep having them him   and marie had to call 911. todd has safe my life many times and so has marie. i keep remembering the good times we all had. you sure will be missed. you will always be in my heart please look down on all of us . love ya my good friend

Todd became a member of the online pool league ThunderPool.  He soon became a regular in our tourneys.  He always came with fun in his heart and the love of the game. He will be missed by our Thunder Family.  

Rest in Gods hands and find the peace that you were looking so hard for.

The prayers and thoughts of Thunder go with you and your family Todd.

Well I met todd on the internet An spoke with on the phone When I was Going thew rogh times with my relationship. with out his help I would not have a Relationship today he help out of kindnes of his heart an out of love for his ex kerrie  an my wife today an I thank todd

I MET TODDY IN COMMERCE CITY COLORADO IN 1995 AND WE WERE BLESSED WITH A BEAUTIFUL SON JANUARY 1997

HE WAS SINGING A VERY BEAUTIFUL SONG HE LOVED TO SING

I FELL FOR HIM RIGHT AWAY A VOICE OF AN ANGEL

WE HAD MANY UPS AND DOWNS IN OUR LIFE

AND RECENTLY LEARNED TO FORGIVE EACH OTHER

WE SHARE A SON TYLER

I WAS GOING THRU A VERY BITTER AND HATEFUL CUSTODY BATTLE AND LOST MY CHILDERN

TODD AND I BECAME HOMELESS AND HAD NOONE BUT OURSELVES

DUE TO OUR LACK OF NOT REACHIN OUT FOR HELP AND WHEN WE DID IT WAS TURNED AGAINST US

WE DIDNT HAVE A VERY GOOD LIFE FOR A WHILE WE TURNED TO THE SINS OF THE WORLD

AND WE BECAME LOST

AND UNTRUTHFUL TO OUR FAITH AND EACH OTHER AS WELL AS OUR CHILD

WE LOST AND NOW WE HAVE LEARNED TO BELIEVE FORGIVE AND BECOME FRIENDS AGAIN RECENTLY

HE WAS TAKEN TOO SOON

I AM NOT READY TO ACCEPT HE HAS GONE

BUT I KNOW HE HAS

HIS PASSING WAS TOO SUDDEN AND NOT EXPECTED

I AM ANGRY THAT HE HAS BEEN TAKEN AWAY SO SOON AFTER WE HAVE NOW BECOME CLOSE AGAIN

WE HAD A DATE PICKED FOR  NEXT MONTH TO VISIT OUR SON TOGETHER

AND TO HAVE A KARAOKE SING OFF

HE WILL BE MISSED NEVER FORGOTTEN AND FOREVER LOVED

GOD BLESS U TODDY

AND MAY U FIND THE PEACE LOVE AND WARMTH WITH THE ANGELS ABOVE THAT U HAVE NOT FOUND ON EARTH

I met Todd when I moved into the same apartment complex where he and Marie lived in 2002.  Todd was always happy and joking.  Todd loved to pay pool (both online and off), enjoyed watching movies and listening to country music, with a love for good comedic songs such as "The Streak" by Ray Stevens.  He had a deep love for animals, enjoyed playing cards with neighbors and was a superb cook.

Todd had a very generous nature and would help anyone.  Todd will be greatly missed by all those his life touched.

Todd and I met Feb 14th 1998 .. It was the beginning of an 11yr relationship. We had many ups and downs in that 11yrs .....one could call it a wild rollercoaster ride!

Toddy had his issues as many of those who knew him well can attest.. but deep down inside was a really good person trying hard to get out.  I left him July 20th 2009 and he became a better person for that wake up call......

people don't realize that love does not come with a switch..our hearts continue to love long after our minds say this is all wrong for you...

He will always have a place in my heart and i will always love him as he never stopped loving me.. Love wasn't one of our problems  but sometimes love isn't enough

Rest in peace and may angels sing thee to thy rest .....love your Booboo Wabbit