My Ryan was a beautiful boy who had the biggest heart and smile. He loved helping people and was very loving. He worked so hard while he was here on earth. He loved his family and friends. He had soooo much more to do here but his life was cut short. I miss him dearly and so does his brothers and life isnt so easy for us. I will never understand why this happened and NO one can say anything to change it. People say things like he is in a better place Really! The only place Ryan should be is with his family. As a Mother unless you went though this you shouldn't say anything you have NO idea the pain I live with everyday. I will NEVER get over the loss of my Son and NO one should expect me to. My heart is broken and that can NEVER be fixed. Ryan was a beautiful person with special needs who could do anything once he put his mind to it. He made friends where ever he went. He loved going  to his sleep away camp in the summer for a week. He would come home wiped out and all he could do was talk about nexted year. He worked in the school cafe and loved his life skills classes. He would tell me I can't live with you forever I am going to live with my friends in the house and work. I couldn't even think of him living without me.Now I am living without him and it sucks. He was a blessing!!!!  We all miss you Ryan Scott xoxo