God I miss you so much sometimes I can hear your voice in my head I think about you everyday try and picture your face and our last words together I so wish things were different you were so young you had your whole life still to live for fife Lewis Jo Gemma Tanya and yourself your forever in my head and I will continue to miss you every day my love for you hasn't left  what I would give to hold you one more time for ever in my heart Alan xxxx
P. S trott died 2 days ago seems like everyone around me is going I hope use find each other up there and look after each other till I get up more chance of me going south but you no silver tongue with the big man should be good forever in my heart love Alan  xxx   miss you Sarah Jane xxx