July 7, 2013 - My Mom
Saroj Bala Bansal
  • 75 years old
  • Date of birth: Sep 14, 1937
  • Place of birth:
    Mawana, Dist. Meerut, U.P., India
  • Date of passing: Sep 8, 2013
  • Place of passing:
    Fitchburg, Wisconsin, United States
"Forget I ever had Heartache; Remember I had lots of fun.."
"I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end"

Dear Friends and Family, this memorial website was created in memory of my dear Mummy, Saroj Bansal.  She was born on September 14, 1937 and passed away on September 8, 2013 from complications arising from Congestive Heart Failure.  She will live on in our Hearts forever.

Please take a moment to visit with her and share some of your thoughts and memories.

She was born in Mawana, in U.P. State of India to Maaneshwari Devi and Ved Prakash Kaushik. She was the 6th of 8 siblings (3 brothers and 5 sisters).  Her mother suffered from High Blood Pressure and became paralyzed because of a stroke.  My Mom was only 18.  She took care of Naniji for almost 2 years when she passed away.  So she knew the meaning of hardship from a very early age.  She was married to my father, Sushil on December 25th, 1958 - an arranged marriage.  We lived in Meerut with my paternal grand-parents for most of their married life before moving to the United States.

We came to the United States on September 3rd, 1977.  My father worked as an Accountant for the Embassy of India.  Both of my parents worked very hard to make a place for us here.  Without them and their efforts, we would not be enjoying the good life that we have.  She mostly managed a Gift shop in Virginia until she was diagnosed with Endometrial Cancer in 1993.  Cancer would recur twice again, both times in her lungs.  The treatments put cancer in remission but left her with diagnosis of Congestive Heart Failure and Type II Diabetes.

She was last hospitalized in June of 2013 for complications related to her Heart.  She spent 12 days in ICU before being sent home with Milrinone to be administered via a Portable IV to keep her heart pumping. It made her heart work so well and she felt good and healthy in a very long time.  For the first time in years, she smiled and asked for food and sang!  She wrote a long message for the ICU nurses and insisted we go to UW and deliver it.  Those few days were the best in ages!  She was so proud of the fact that she walked out of hospital on her own two feet rather than in a wheelchair. For me these were a gift.  It was such a happy thing to have her ask for more food that the Hospital Staff thought they were allowed to give!

She was very independent minded and did not accept help easily or happily. 

But this reprieve was not to last very long.  She came home on July 2nd and the medicine slowly stopped working as well within 2-3 weeks.

She knew it was time and she made a call to someone she trusted – to make sure I didn’t fall apart without her.  Chris told me later - 'You thought you were taking care of her; she was looking out for you!'

On September 7th she said she wanted to go for a drive with me, came home and later during the morning hours between 4:30 and 5:00am on September 8th, slipped away just when we turned the lights off to let her sleep.  My father was next to her on bed and I was at her feet.  This is the way she wanted to go, with her family around and in her own bed.

She was a very strong and smart lady. Even her close friends did not know how ill she was until the end. She never talked about it. Whenever I or anyone else talked on phone with her, she always sounded cheerful and well. She was very determined. The only thing that terrified her was the thought that she may end up in a Nursing Home.  Even when she was getting Chemo, she would go to her craft class next day and they only realized her problem when they saw the loss of hair. She loved to knit and sew. She used to make all my clothes when I was a child; embroidered her saris and shawls. I remember watching her do that in fascination. She continued that almost until the end. She used to do quilting for the Senior Center. She was very active - never wanting to sit in one place, always on a move.  Cooking was her passion.  She was a wonderful cook and loved to make all kinds of dishes. 

She is survived by her husband, Sushil; her daughter and son-in-law, Sandhia and Christopher; her son Ashish, his wife Gauri and two of their daughters, Priya and Pramita; two brothers, Narendra and Upendra; and one sister, Vimla. 

Memorial Tributes
This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 26th April 2017

"Dear Mummy

Today is Babaji's Day... But you already know that.  I hope that somewhere you, Babaji and Ammaji are together and that I will see you all again.  Babaji has been gone for 37 years now but he is in my memory as fresh as ever.  When I look back at my life, I am very thankful that I had the three of you in my life.

I miss you so very much.  Wish you would call me just one more time... Mother's Day is coming soon.  Who would I call?  I miss your voice and your smile.  Looking at old photos, you always had a wonderful happy smile on your face and that is how I want to remember you.  I know that is how you want me to remember you too.  But I miss you... Have I already said that?

Love you forever.
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 8th March 2017

"Dear Mummy

I can still feel you, the feeling of safety, home, the touch of your hand, the way your feet felt when on those rare occasions you let me massage them...  I can feel all this whenever I want.  I can see your face and smile when you were happy...  Same as with Babaji and Ammaji.  

I am lucky to have had all of you and I want so much to just think of it and be happy - the way I know you would want me to be.  I am but I just miss those times so much and wish I took more time to spend with you.
I thought we had more time...

Miss you so much - on this day and always
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 23rd February 2017

"Dear Mummy

I wish I had your strength... strength to always smile and breeze through difficult times with great dignity.  Help me... help me to be able to live my life the way you did - you know what I mean, don't you?  

I miss you so very much.
Love you, your daughter."

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 8th January 2017

"Dear Mummy

I am watching 'I Love Lucy' - a coincidence that I should find this program just before I was going to write to you.  You used to love watching it; and 'Wheel of Fortune'.  That was your favorite.  

Today was the day, 3 years and 4 months ago, when you went away - well, just in body.  You will always be in my heart.  Sometimes I just like call out 'Mummy' just to remind me of how this most beautiful word sound.  

You used to sit where I am sitting now and I wonder what you used to think about.  Coming home on Friday, I was thinking of the days when you used to be here.  It was nice to have you two at home when I opened the door; though we argued a lot, didn't we?  But you knew how much I loved you and that means everything to me.  

'Dil dhoondta hai phir wohi phursat kai raat din... Jaadon ki garam dhoop mein aangan mein beth ker...' - Now I know the true feeling behind this song.  Miss those days...  Miss you.  

I saw you in my dream last night.  I was going to take a path dotted by something like bread crumbs to go for a walk and you kept calling me, I think to have lunch :-)  Come take a walk with me...

Love you
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 3rd January 2017

"Dear Mummy

Waited for that call that won't be coming.  'Happy New Year'! - you used to call and say.  I wish I could dream of you - and Babaji, Ammaji more...  This is my wish for the New Year.

Hope you all are looking down on me from wherever you are.
Love and Miss you
Your daughter."

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 25th December 2016

"Dear Mummy

Missed your call today. I was hoping to see you in my dream today.  
Papa and i miss you very much always, but specially today on your Anniversary.

We would have gone out to lunch today somewhere to celebrate your day.

Wishing you a Happy Anniversary and Merry Christmas , wherever you are.

Love you and Miss you
Papa and your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 7th December 2016

"3 years and 3 months since we talked!  And it all seems like yesterday...

Missing you
Your daughter."

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 5th December 2016

"Dear Mummy

Tumne keha tha 'baandh kai thodi rakh legi!'.  Mein kehti thi 'Rukh loongi'.  Per kehan rukh paayee?  Chali gayi haath chuda ker...

Send me another sign..  I need it...

Love you and missing you
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 27th November 2016

"Dear Mummy

I miss you every day, but specially today...
Wish you were here...

Love you and miss you.
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 12th November 2016

"Dear Mummy

Will you walk with me on my birthday?  I miss those; and I miss you.

Love you.
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 7th November 2016

"Dear Mummy

You said to look out for Papa.  I need your help as I do not know how to help him.  I saw you yesterday in my dream that you had a stroke but you were still running around as best as you could cooking and taking care of Papa.  I need some of your strength.  I need to know how you held on to your dignity until the very end.

We are in such chaos now that I am glad you are not here.  It would have been too much for you.  At the same time, I wish you were here for I could lean on you even in your frail condition.

Missing you.
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 16th October 2016

"Mummy -- How to do this without you?  I don't have the strength.  Help me...  You were so calm and collected and were able to keep your dignity.  Teach me how.  I am lost without you and don't know how to do all I have to do.

Miss you so much.
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 25th September 2016

"Dear Mummy

Wish you were here...  11 years ago, we were together at the Savage Mansion, happy and enjoying good food.  First and last time you and I had our hair done together :-)

Love you and miss you on our day
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 24th September 2016

"I saw you in my dream today - just for a moment.  You were sitting in a very high window in a house and I wondered how you weren't afraid to be looking down, because I was afraid.  

Tim says that you are with me; that I should believe you visited the bench on your birthday when papa, Jill and Laura were there, through that butterfly that hung around.  He said that he met you when you and papa went to talk with him about the class.  I did not know that he had met you.  Somehow it is important.  He cares a lot about papa - may be he gets inspiration through you.  I want to believe in all this; a part of me does; a part wonders...

But that is okay.  I know you are always with me.  Just like Babaji and Ammaji.  After all these years when I look at their picture sitting in front of his rook on a nice sunny day, I can smell the day.  I can feel the touch of your hands.  Chris says that he can feel the touch of Mom's hands when he thinks about it.  So, I feel not so alone in all this.

Still I miss you.  Tomorrow is the Anniversary of that Big day for me.  You used to cry and worry so much that I would be all alone when you are gone.  At the time, the thought of you being gone was so absurd.  I hope it gives you and Babaji Ammaji peace to see that I am with Chris, he being the best in the World!  You know I am well loved and taken care of.  

I wish we could hug once again.  I wish I gave you more hugs and spent more time with you.  But you were supposed to be here forever.  Even on that last evening on September 7th as we sat together, I meant it when I said that we would take that walk when you are better.  Somehow my Heart never knew you would be gone until you were.  But you will never be gone really - until I am.

Love you and miss you - especially today.
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 14th September 2016

"Dear Mummy

Papa went to the bench at the park to send off balloons for you on your 79th birthday.  Jill and Laura were there too.  

Jill says "It was a wonderful way to celebrate Saroj’s memory!  And as soon as we showed up at the bench a beautiful Monarch butterfly came.  It flew around us the entire time.  I am pretty certain it was your mom."

I believe you came;  Tim tells me that it must be you.  I am happy...

Love you
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Navneet Bansal on 14th September 2016

"By Shradhanjali and swt memories ."

This tribute was added by Radha Sijapati on 14th September 2016

"You are cherished on your birthday and always for who you were and for your unconditional love, compassion, and kindness you left behind."

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 14th September 2016

"Wishing you a Happy 79th Birthday, wherever you may be.  I wish I could call you; wish I could send you flowers; may be you can hear my heart calling for you...  I can still hear your voice at the other end of the phone when I used to call.  All those 11 years you were in Wisconsin, I never came for your birthday.  Wish I had.  Wish I was there for you more.  Wish...

Love you and miss you
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Radha Sijapati on 8th September 2016

"Offering our sradanjali with fond memories!"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 8th September 2016

"Dear Mummy

Three years without you!  How is it even possible?  But then you are with me every second of the day - in my heart.  I want to remember your smile and happy voice and to forget your pain.  I know that is how you would want to be remembered.  I try...  But I miss you so very much.  Wish I could give you a hug one more time.  I hope to always be able to feel the warmth of your hand and touch of your feet - the way I do today.

You will always be in our hearts.
Love you and miss you.
Your daughter."

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 18th August 2016

"Dear Mummy

I was just thinking of those mornings when you weren't feeling strong enough to take the regular longer walk.  You would go on a short walk and Papa and I would go in the opposite direction for the longer one.  I regret now why we didn't walk with you first and then went on for more after dropping you back home.  I used to turn around and look back at you then and think 'one day she will disappear' - but my heart never believed or imagined a World without you in it.  Not until you were gone.  Always live in my heart...

Love you and miss you.
Your daughter."

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 9th August 2016

"Dear Mummy

Wherever you were, there was home.  Somehow I can still feel a kind of security wall around me whenever I think of you...  I saw you in my dreams twice yesterday - very short dream - but you were there, once walking to a train station with me in a dark snowy night and in a hotel in second one.  May be you are still watching out for me.

Miss you so very much
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 7th August 2016

"Dear Mummy

2 Years and 11 months today since you and I sat together...  I remember your touch and your sound of voice just like yesterday.  I feel like you are so close, so close...  I saw you in my dream yesterday.  We were on a trip somewhere.  I need you to come and walk with me again.  I miss you so much.  Miss the kheer... Sel... your smile and just plain arguing with you...

Love you
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 29th July 2016

"You were once my one companion
You were all that mattered
You were once a friend and Mummy
Then my world was shattered

Wishing you were somehow here again
Wishing you were somehow near
Sometimes it seemed if I just dreamed
Somehow you would be here

Wishing I could hear your voice again
Knowing that I never would
Dreaming of you won't help me to do
All that you dreamed I could

Passing bells and sculpted angels
Cold and monumental
Seem for you the wrong companions
You were warm and gentle

Too many years fighting back tears
Why can't the past just die?

Wishing you were somehow here again
Knowing we must say goodbye
Try to forgive, teach me to live
Give me the strength to try"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 3rd June 2016

"Dear Mummy

1000 Days since you and I sat together!  How can it be?  At the time, it never occurred to me that you would be with me for only 12 more hours!  I don't know why but it didn't seem possible to be in a World without you.  But I am not without you, am I?  I know you, just like Babaji and Ammaji are always in my heart and I know you are always somewhere close to me.  

Still I wish so much that I could hear your voice just one more time!
I miss you so very much.  I know you wanted me to be happy and I try. When I think of us, you always seem like you were here just yesterday.  Even when I look at babaji, ammaji's pictures, I can smell the smell of the day.  

I saw you in my dream two days ago.  You were driving to go to your programming job :-)  It is good to see you healthy and happy - even if in my dreams.

Love you and miss you.
Your daughter."

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 8th May 2016

"Happy Mother's Day Mummy!

I missed your voice today; I missed not being able to call you and say "Happy Mother's Day".  You would say in your smiling voice "Thank you! You and Chris, go and have a nice lunch somewhere today".  I missed you today; just like every day.

Happy Mother's Day to you; to Ammaji; and to Naniji.  I hope you are with them and are happy.

I wish you would come in my dream again and take a walk with me.  I miss walking with you; regret not spending more time with you; regret talking more than listening to you.  you always wanted to talk but had become so quiet in those last few months.  I am sorry Mummy that I didn't listen; didn't hug you more.

I love you Mummy.  Come again in my dream.  

Love you and Miss you.
Your daughter."

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 17th February 2016

"Dear Mummy

Now I understand what you were trying to explain to me and could not.  I can see without the rose-colored glasses now and know what you were talking about.  I miss you every day so much and wish I could sit with you just one more time and have that heart-to-heart that you longed for; a hug that I long for...  

One day I will see you in my dream again and may be then we will talk...

Tum thi tow...

Love you
Your daughter."

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 14th February 2016

"Happy Valentines Day, Mummy!
Hope you can see the flowers I sent for you and papa.
I miss you so much.  Help us be strong.  You had so much strength.
I read your old letters that I had forgotten about and feel such love and my heart aches.  I miss our walks; and talks; You missed me so much when I went to India for few weeks.  Now you have been gone for 2 year, 5 months and 7 days!

We miss you; I miss you so much.
Love
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 28th January 2016

"Dear Mummy

When I close my eyes and go back in time thinking of you, that is a safe place.  I have found some of your old letters dating from 1987 when I went to India for a visit to 2005.  I had forgotten about those; I wish I found them when you were still here.  They are my treasure.  I also feel a deep heart ache while reading them.  Last so many of years were just full of worry about you and your illness that all else that was important and all else that you felt about me and wanted kind of got lost.  

Wish I could give you a hug.  Come and walk with me one more time...

Miss you and love you
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 1st January 2016

"My Mummy...

You would have called this morning 'happy new year'!  
I miss you today...  just like always.  Miss your voice; and touch.  I can still feel it, when I think of it, the roughness of your feet and the warmth of your hands.  Chris says he can feel it when he thinks of his Mom.  Hope you two are together somewhere...

Happy New Year.
Love you
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 25th December 2015

"Dear Mummy

Three years ago, on December 25, 2012, I was with you in Wisconsin.  At this time that day (7:27am), we probably just finished breakfast and you were probably asking what to cook for lunch.  

57 years ago - at just-turned 21, on this day you were getting ready to start your new life with Papa in Meerut!  Sab Kuch kitna badal gaya hai na...

We made Pizza that day for dinner at home.  

I was with you then.  I am missing you today.  Where can I send your present on this X-Mas Wedding Anniversary?

I dreamt of you last night - you put very little food on your plate and I was fussing at you.  Few nights ago in my dream, you were driving a motor-cycle and I sat behind you and we were going down-hill and were scared :-)

Happy Anniversary and X-Mas, wherever you are...
With Loving Memories
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 8th December 2015

"Dear Mummy

Sab kuch kitna badal gaya hai!  - You said this to me once and I can see you sitting on the sofa and the way you looked.  If I could, I would give you a big hug and let you cry on my shoulder.  I feel what you felt then.  I was just too busy to get up at the time.  I wish...

Miss you so much
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 7th December 2015

"Dear Mummy

We talked 821 days ago on this day - you and I, sitting at the bench.  Still I didn't think you would leave me - it was such an incomprehensible thing to exist in a World without you.  

Come and give me a hug today.  I can still feel the touch of your hands; your feet.  I hope to always keep that feeling close to my heart.

Love you and miss you.
Your daughter."

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 27th November 2015

"Dear Mummy

We were closer than anyone can be - physically and emotionally  - on this day so many years ago.  You held me for the first time.  Now you are a part of me - my heart.  

Still I wait for your call...

Miss you so very much
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 11th November 2015

"Happy Diwali, Mum...
You would have done pooja and cooked lots of food.  
I miss you so much.  

Love you
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 27th October 2015

"Dear Mummy

Mamaji is with you now.  "Surro, dollar dai dai...".  My last connection with you in India - and what may be last 'home' in India is gone with him.  Give me a sign that you are together somewhere.

Love you and miss you
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 18th October 2015

"I turned on my cell camera,
for a quick glance at me,
Just to make sure I looked all right.
No, I would never take a selfie.

But my heart skipped a beat
as I saw the image reflected in the screen.
A glimpse of my mom's face,
was not what I expected to see.

Always been combo of Mom and Dad,
a mix of their features reflected in my face.
Dad's dark brown eyes stood out most,
but now I see more of my mom as I age.

Like mother, like daughter,
everyone says about my little girl and me.
But like mother, like daughter with my mom,
wasn't something I was expecting to be.

So now I honor my mom
in more than just was I say and do.
Mom, I am aging and changing
and my features are beginning to reflect more of you.  -- Kathy"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 16th October 2015

"She's everywhere as an angel,in the wind that blows through your hair,her soul is a star that sparkles in the sky.the whif of her perfume you swear you just smelled,maybe she's the hummingbird that seemed to linger near just a little to long,the shadow you swore you just saw out of the corner of your eye,the flowers in bloom,but most important she's in your heart! She's in another dimension,the heavenly one,about three feet above our heads,so close yet so far,not fair is it?In the glimpse of happiness I had,thats when I seen her aura.I know the more upset we are the farther away they seem.It will seem like a blink of an eye to our Mom's when they see us again in our heavenly bodies.As angels they can go anywhere,some are more powerful then others.Maybe your trying to hard to see a sign,for I know as soon as You stop looking in someway she'll show you she's there,a feeling,a cold breeze,in your dreams. --Beachwalker33"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 1st October 2015

"Dear Mummy

I am watching 'I Love Lucy' and thinking of you.  You used to love watching the crazy lady :-)

I go to bed thinking that I will see you in my dreams tonight but its been so long!  If only in dreams, I so long to see you; take a walk with you.

Love and miss you.
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 14th September 2015

"Happy 78th Birthday, Mummy.
Did you get the balloons papa, Sarah, Jill and I sent for you?

We miss you
Lots of love
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 12th September 2015

"Dear Mummy

2 years is such a long time without talking to you. Wish you could come back just once again. I want to keep your memory fresh and worry that a day may come when my heart will ache a little less. But i doubt that such a day will come. I miss those days. You would have come to pick me up today.

Are you at peace now that we performed the ceremony?  Now there is more empty space in the house. It must have been you who brought the sunshine in the midst of thunder storms that day on the 8th. Weather looked real bad but i knew you would make it better because you didn't like to go out in the rain.
And sure enough, the weather broke and sky totally cleared with lots of sunshine and nice breeze.  You now rest in the Gulf of Mexico, 5 miles from Clearwater in front of the Anclote Key Light House.  It is warmer weather there and you would have been much more comfortable in a place like that.  

I didn't know (nobody did) when we made the trip to Florida in 1991 to see GRO launch and drove around Orlando, Miami, Clearwater, St. Petersburg and Treasure Islands that one day we will perform a ceremony like this for you.  I didn't know you would leave us so soon.  You could have easily be with us for at least another 10 years. What was the hurry?  Come in my dreams, Mummy.  I haven't taken a walk with you in so long.

Love you and miss you.
Yours, Gudia"

This tribute was added by Navneet Bansal on 8th September 2015

"People will walk in and walk out of your life, but the one whose footstep made a long lasting impression is the one you should never allow to walk out"

This tribute was added by Seema Kumar on 8th September 2015

"Dear chachiji
Alok Anika Ruchika & I remember you everyday& believe that you are in a peaceful place.
Love
Seema"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 8th September 2015

"Dear Mummy

We used to talk every day!  Now its been two years and a day since you said 'chal thodi dair gaadi mein chaley`.  I miss you; miss your voice. I can still feel your touch as if it was just now when i think of it. Come take a walk with me again like you did on April 19th. I feel in my heart that you are still looking out for me.

Today we, as they say, 'set you free`.  Will it make you happy?  Are you somewhere and can see me?  Give me a sign again like you did on Mothers Day.

I wish you were still with us. You were only 75. Too young to go!  I muss you so much."

This tribute was added by Chhavi & Maitrie Bansal on 8th September 2015

"Respected Tai ji,

We miss your absence. Wherever you are your blessings are with us.

Meenu"

This tribute was added by Chhavi & Maitrie Bansal on 8th September 2015

"Namaste Amma,

In God’s care you rest above. In our hearts you rest with love.

Need you and your blessings always.

With lots of love: Chhavi and Maitrie"

This tribute was added by Anju & Pratap Thakur on 7th September 2015

"Dear Aunty

Physically you might have disappeared but you are very much present somewhere near you dear ones ,specially around Shalini.Give her enough strength. We all remember you and pay tribute to you
."

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 6th September 2015

"Dear Mummy

Time is approaching fast to set you free.  How will I be able to do it?  Give me a sign if this is what you want.  There is an empty space in the house and now there will be empty space where part of you now sits.  Always stay in my heart until my end comes.  

38 years ago on this day I wonder what you were doing.  In a new place so far from everyone who loved us.  But it must have been happy time too.  The excitement of being in the US and seeing / learning new things.  You would turn 40 in another week.  

2 years ago this was the worst day of your life and I am so sorry that I wasn't there to be with you.  I remember standing outside your room waiting for you to wake up.  You got up and were so quiet... so quiet...

And now you will go to Clearwater tomorrow morning to be one with the Ocean.  I will come and visit you every year there, I promise.  Just to be where we all say goodbye to you.  But in reality it can never be goodbye.  You will always live on in my heart... always...


Love you and miss you
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 4th September 2015

"Dear Mummy

38 years ago, we came here together.  I am sure you were busily making breakfast at this time in a new country; new place.  We were missing babaji ammaji and others.We were together.  Wish I could go back in time and have all that back again.  Miss you so much.

I now wish I flew with you at least once again to go to India.  Now you will fly with me to your final resting place in Clearwater, FL but in another form.  You will always be in my heart.  Is this what you would have wanted?  I don't know but perhaps.  Don't want to let go of what remains but your blood flows through my veins and you can never really be separated from me - that is my only consolation.

Love you
Your daughter"

This tribute was added by Sandhia McLeod on 19th August 2015

"Dear Mummy

Its been 4 months today... Time for another walk.  
I miss those times; and you;

Love, Your daughter"


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