April 4
April 4
Dear Mummy
I had a bad dream about you last night. I saw you a night before too but you were okay in that. Last night, or was it this morning just before waking up (?), I saw you were lying down. I came from somewhere and you told me that you were bleeding and you looked very sad.
And it made me very sad.
Perhaps it was because we have been talking about the cruise you and Papa took, probably in 2012, when you were so unwell. Chris was telling me how he sat down with you two and tried to talk you out of going on the cruise. But he said that Papa kept saying that he had already paid for the cruise. Chris even told you two that he would take time off from work and that we could all vacation locally but he said that Papa was adamant about going. Chris said that he tried to get you to change your mind until the bags were handed over to the ship. He said that you didn't say anything and just smiled but Papa would not listen. That was the cruise when you became very ill on the ship and they tried to dump you to at St. Thomas. Chris was totally opposed to that. It was thanksgiving holiday and airports would be full, you were very ill and what hospitals in St. Thomas - well, who knows what they are like. What could be more comfortable than lying in your own bed in the ship. You had everything you needed. That was a very traumatic day for us. I called everywhere - the ship, your cardiologist who, being a total idiot, had given the ship permission to drop you off. Finally when I talked to her, she called the ship and we were able to get them to let you stay on the ship.
You would not have arrived back alive if they dropped you off.
We were talking about it few days ago but also recently because there was exact same incident of a Norwegian ship dropping off an 80 year old lady who had stroke/heart issue at an island without any id or money. The local hospital at this African island had no clue about her. Lucky for her, there were some other passengers who were left behind because they were late returning to the ship. They managed to pay her bills, arranged for food and contacted the family and because of their kindness she was able to get back home in California.
This brought back all those terrible memories of that day when we would have lost you - and who knows in what condition.
Perhaps that's why I had that dream.
I hope you are happy wherever you are and are surrounded by beautiful things and everyone who loves you.
I miss you very much.
You are all gone and I am still here.
I hope to be gone before Chris...
Love you
Thinking of you...
Your daughter
I had a bad dream about you last night. I saw you a night before too but you were okay in that. Last night, or was it this morning just before waking up (?), I saw you were lying down. I came from somewhere and you told me that you were bleeding and you looked very sad.
And it made me very sad.
Perhaps it was because we have been talking about the cruise you and Papa took, probably in 2012, when you were so unwell. Chris was telling me how he sat down with you two and tried to talk you out of going on the cruise. But he said that Papa kept saying that he had already paid for the cruise. Chris even told you two that he would take time off from work and that we could all vacation locally but he said that Papa was adamant about going. Chris said that he tried to get you to change your mind until the bags were handed over to the ship. He said that you didn't say anything and just smiled but Papa would not listen. That was the cruise when you became very ill on the ship and they tried to dump you to at St. Thomas. Chris was totally opposed to that. It was thanksgiving holiday and airports would be full, you were very ill and what hospitals in St. Thomas - well, who knows what they are like. What could be more comfortable than lying in your own bed in the ship. You had everything you needed. That was a very traumatic day for us. I called everywhere - the ship, your cardiologist who, being a total idiot, had given the ship permission to drop you off. Finally when I talked to her, she called the ship and we were able to get them to let you stay on the ship.
You would not have arrived back alive if they dropped you off.
We were talking about it few days ago but also recently because there was exact same incident of a Norwegian ship dropping off an 80 year old lady who had stroke/heart issue at an island without any id or money. The local hospital at this African island had no clue about her. Lucky for her, there were some other passengers who were left behind because they were late returning to the ship. They managed to pay her bills, arranged for food and contacted the family and because of their kindness she was able to get back home in California.
This brought back all those terrible memories of that day when we would have lost you - and who knows in what condition.
Perhaps that's why I had that dream.
I hope you are happy wherever you are and are surrounded by beautiful things and everyone who loves you.
I miss you very much.
You are all gone and I am still here.
I hope to be gone before Chris...
Love you
Thinking of you...
Your daughter