14 years ago, today Charles and I suffered a devastating loss of our daughter, Schanae James’ mother.
The loss of a child is a very difficult journey, when everything in life has returned to normal, to others it was just a sad spot in one day. For us and James, it’s a gaping hole in our hearts, and it never gets better it just gets different, and time doesn’t heal anything….it just teaches us to live with the pain.
In loving memory of our daughter, Schanae a daughter, sister, niece, mother, wife, aunt, and best friend we still miss you every second of every minute, of every hour, of every day. We blow you kisses to heaven; you will never be forgotten, you always, and forever will be alive in our hearts. R. I. P.
Charles and Barbara Holland
James Camerin Spates(son)
Born: December 23, 1978
Died: April 24, 2005

I REMEMBER WHEN YOU WHERE BORN AND I WAS YOUR BABY SITTER FROM TIME TO TIME.... THEN I HAD MY BABY GIRL 4 YEARS LATER AND YOU AND TESHIA WAS THE BEST CHILDHOOD FRIENDS.... I TELL YOU GREW UP SO FAST... I REALLY MISS YOU, YOUR KIND HEART, AND THAT BEAUTIFUL SMILE... I STILL LOOK AT ALL THE PICTURES I HAVE OF YOU AND WITH THE CHILDREN YOU GREW UP IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD.... I MISS YOU SCHANAE AND CONTINUE TO REST IN PEACE IN HEAVEN..... WE WILL SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN.... "GONE BUT NOT FORGOTTEN"..... LOVE YOU BABY GIRL....

13 years has passed slowly by without you, although it’s sad to reminisce, I will put aside my sorrow and with every unshed tear I will concentrate on all the joy we shared when you were here. Therefore, although it’s been 13 years, it is no surprise that the pain of missing you is still fresh as though it was yesterday.
I know we will be together some day, but until then I just want to say I love you, I miss you terribly my baby girl, my precious daughter.

12th anniversary of the day I lost my daughter. For a time, the loss felt as though my life had ended as well. Schanae was truly a blessing, she had an abundance of faith, and I realize now that her loss has taught me many things, on how we should face each day with faith, hope, a lot grace, and make happy memories.

The loss of my daughter has taught me that those we love don’t go away, they walk beside us every day in memories, unseen, unheard, but always near, so loved, so missed, and so very dear.

Continue to Rest-In-Peace my precious love.

Mom

a TRIBUTE TO MY DAUGHTER!

11 years, but it seems like yesterday: No words I write can ever say, how much I miss you everyday. As time goes by the loneliness grows, how much I miss you, nobody knows. I think of you in silence, I often speak your name, but all I have is memories in a frame. My mind know that you're in a better place where there is no pain, and you're at peace. I do understand that, I just wish I could explain it to my heart. I love you so my precious child..... and I always will!

MOM

Friday, December 23, 2016

38 years old!

Each year I think of you as I shed so many tears.
It feels like just yesterday though its been many years.
You’re in a better place than this world could give.
Happy birthday, the memories I will always relive.

MOM

Thursday, December 23, 2015

37 years old!
Today is your birthday in heaven above. I am sending my blessings on the wings of a dove, not only for today, but every day hereof, I think of you always, my love! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

MOM

Wednesday, December 23, 2014

36 years old!' HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE!
Although I miss you each and every day, the sadness seem to hit me even more when it is your birthday.

MOM

Tuesday, December 23 2013

35 years old!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEET DAUGHTER!
For ever since you’ve gone,
Life has never been the same,
Yet, it comforts me to know,
That one day we will meet again

MOM

Today I would like to wish my Friend a Happy Birthday!!! I miss you and
so much about you!! You will never be forgotten!! I remember your smile, your straight forwardness, your kindness, your ability to come to my aid at the drop of a dime!!! I love and miss you greatly. You are worthy to be celebrated today!!!

!HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY ANGEL!

(34 years old) Schanae Latreece Bailey (December 23, 2012)

"HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY" (2012)


TO MY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER, SCHANAE!

Seven (7) years today has passed of sadness and pain; seven (7) years of wishing we had the chance to bring us all back together again. I have always heard that time is a healer, and in time the pain becomes easier to bear; but for us the pain we feel in our hearts is still fresh as if it was yesterday.

GOD BLESSED THOSE WHO FEEL THEY'VE LOST. But know one thing,WE ALL WILL BE       "REUNITED"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  No matter how much I want to question HIM I can't.

My lil sis, words can not express what i'm feeling right now. They couldn't form a sentence the day she went home.In my heart the worlds greatest was taken but my soul told me otherwise.We never know our purpose but yet we are not called until our bidding is done.Missed, thats an understatement. Cherished, greatly all who granted the blessing of an Angel sent for only a brief moment. ILUVU

Schanae was my lel sis, she didn't mind letting you know when you were wrong, especially her big brother. She was a brat but I loved her. She will always be missed. shae!

Barbara, I know you miss her, but remember she is our Angel, what is an Angel- An angel is a whole being. Angels come in all shapes and sizes and colors, Heaven is the most natural place for an Angel to live. Angels always know where to fine you-even when you're hiding, Babara she is your Angel, I will be praying for you all,,,,much love Shirley McArthur

Schanae and I had a special relationship. We related to each other quite differently from mother and daughter relationship. I miss her unique talents and gifts that she had which made her so very special. She was my only neice and the hurt and pain of her not being here is as fresh as if it was yesterday. I miss her and love her dearly !!! Aunt Dot

Shae, I never thought the last laugh we had would be our last. However, you fought a very good long fight. After 7 years I am still hurting, but I know your spirit will continue to guide your one and only son, who you referred to as #1 uno. It hurts like hell that you are gone so soon. Children are suppose to bury their parents, but I buried you instead. I miss you dearly, and I love you!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY; MAY-2005/May-2011
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DECEMBER 23, 2005-2011 (27-33)

Missing my Sister and Best Friend--It still seems surreal and strange that you're not here with me. I miss those soft brown eyes of affection, your laughter, and your generous soul. You had such a forgiving and understanding heart even when you screamed at me, you loved me unconditionally. Memories floods my mind about the good times we shared, but I still miss you!

Tribute from Grandmother (2008) deceased You were my daughter's new daughter, which gave me pleasure to have you as my granddaughter. You were precious and sweet from the top of your head to the bottom of your feet. You had such a generous soul. It's still so fresh that you are not here, but I know that you are in good hands, I still remember the sweet words...Granny. I miss you!

Best friend Veronica Dixon-Jackson

Poem written by James Spates (age 8). Mom, Mom where are you? I can't see you anymore. How I will survive I don't know, the few years we had together you taught me the spirit of faith and courage. Now that you're gone I feel all alone, it's so hard to go on. I want to keep the memory of you strong always in my mind, because you were my inspiration; I love you now and always!

I'll always remember the good times we shared, 26 years is a long time. It has not been easy for me, and I know as a mother I will never forget you. I have years of wonderful, wonderful memories to cling to. We were so close and we shared so much.
Rest in peace my dear sweet angel, until I see you again!