We think about you always, we talk about you still; You have never been forgotten, and you never will. We hold you close within our hearts and there you will remain; to walk and guide us always until we meet again!
Love n miss you Son! "Ma"

Today is Mother's Day. How I miss the days when you and Heather scrambled to be the first with the wishes! Thank you for all the memories we have made, for the beautiful granddaughters, for the pride I feel and for the purpose I was given. This day is a bit more empty with you gone but it gives me purpose and pride in all my children, grandchildren and great-grandchildren. God care for you and keep you close, always. Love and miss you Son!  "Ma"

Today marks 7 years without you. Is it easier? No. Am I getting thru life? Yes, because there are others who need me to. Without them, I'd probably shut down. Your daughters are someone to be proud of. They are strong, beautiful, smart and adjusted. I can't speak for your siblings, but I can speak of them. They have had quite an adjustment to make in life and they each deal with it differently. The greatest difference in life without you is the absence of "family." There is no togetherness anymore. We all miss you, but we don't share that emptiness among us. I am still taking one day at a time. Oh how I wish I didn't have to face another year without you. I love you Son. God keep you for me. "Ma"

Breathe In Breathe Out https://g.co/kgs/K6HGxl

Brother I never get on here. Mom tells me to all the time. It's just too hard. I see all the things that people have to say about you and it reminds me what the world lost when we lost you. Just know I love you so much and I am never going to be the same without you. The song above is one thing always reminds me of you and our relationship. I would have done anything for you. I remember our talks. I remember our fights. But all of that was us. I always wanted my big brother....I still do. I hate being older than you now. This world isn't easy to navigate without having you to lean on. I miss your hugs, your smile and your laughter.

I recently came across this anonymous quote and thought of you, Scott. 
"Grief, I've learned, is really just love. It's all the love you want to give but cannot. All of that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go."
We love and miss you a lot.

I'll miss you on your birthday, I wish we could be together to laugh and love and celebrate the day. Even though we can't, I hope you know that my heart overflows with love for you. 
And today I'll celebrate you and the wonderful moment that you came into my life---for on that day, my greatest dream was born! 
Happy Birthday, Son! I love and miss you SO much!!     "Ma"

Happy birthday bro! I would give anything to spend the day with you . I never had the chance to tell you how much you had an impact on my life and how even now that you are gone i continue to learn from the things you taught me. You always made my birthdays so great and special. I just wish i could give you an awesome birthday in return. I love you so much and miss you terribly!

Hey Son, today your lil brother turns 29! The best gift he could've gotten would have been a celebration with you. I wish you had realized how needed you were in our lives. He could have used your help becoming a father, would have loved you being an uncle to his son, Tyler. There are times he could have used your advice or just needed to hang out with his brother, but all that and more was lost that day and now we move forward with that huge emptiness that haunts every special day, every single day. Hope you are watching over him from Heaven. Love and miss you, "Ma"

My Child Did Exist
I've lost a child, I hear myself say
And the person I'm talking to just turns away.
Now why did I tell them, I don't understand
It wasn't for sympathy or to get a helping hand.
I just wanted them to know I've lost something dear
I just wanted them to know my child was here.
My child left something behind which no one can see
So if I've upset you, I'm sorry as can be.
You'll have to forgive me, I could not resist
I just wanted you to know that Scott did exist!
            Missing you ALWAYS, "Ma"

Wish I could go back to the day
When angels came and took you away
I wanted to hold your hand so tight
Kiss you gently and say goodnight
And then just before you had to go
I would tell you how much I love you, so
I don't know how, I don't know why
I never got to say goodbye.
                     Miss you FOREVER, Son, "Ma"

Son, I miss you. Death leaves a heartache difficult to heal; love leaves sweet memories no one can steal. You may be out of my sight, but you will never be out of my mind. Until we meet again, I will FOREVER love you. "Ma"

There is no word, no label, no identifying moniker
I am not a widow, not an orphan, not childless
But one child less!
One less open laugh and little boy giggle, one less challenging tete-a-tete; one less artful, winking manipulation, one less word of comfort, one less grateful hug.
One less chance to embrace a son, one less new life to carry your eyes, your chin, your grin, your name. No one word for the pain, the longing the brevity of a life meant for living and an old soul meant to grow older than mine. Would there be any one price too high, any sacrifice too great for one more moment, one more breath, one more warm touch. I grasp desperately and sense the closeness--the ONE just at the fingertips of my heart and mind; only to realize again, there is no ONE ---you are gone and I am--less.  Love you Son, "Ma"

Those we Love don't go away,
They walk beside us everyday,
Unseen, unheard, but always near,
Still Loved ,still missed, and very dear.
Always will you be in my Heart and Soul

Never far from my heart, in remembrance to you, Scott. I find peace in the following promise.

1 Thessalonians 4: 13-14 Concerning those who have fallen asleep, brothers and sisters, do not be sad like those who have no hope; For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, God will bring forth with Jesus all who have fallen asleep believing in Him.

-Leo Buscaglia-
I know for certain that we never lose the people we love, even to death
They continue to participate in every act, thought and decision we make. Their love leaves an indelible imprint in our memories.
We find comfort in knowing that our lives have been enriched by having shared their love.

The moment that you left me, my heart was split in two, one side was filled with memories, the other side died with you. I often lay awake at night when the world is asleep, and take a walk down memory lane with tesrs upon my cheek. Remembering you is easy, I do it every day, but missing you is a heartache that never goes away. I hold you tightly within my heart and there you will remain, you see, life has gone on without you, but will never be the same. Love you, Son..."Ma"

"I've missed you every single moment since you went away, I would give ANYTHING just to see you on this Valentines Day." 
I miss you, Son!

Today is full of memories, happiness and tears
Of birthday celebrations shared throughout the years.
And tho I'll always miss you, the endless joy you brought
Warms my heart with gratitude and fills my every thought
Where ever you are resting, I hope that you can see
How precious and uplifting your memory is to me.
I feel that you are with me in everything I do
So I'll celebrate your birthday, but I'll spend it missing you. "Ma"

Like time suspended, a wound untended....you and I
We had no ending, no said good-bye
For all my life, I'll wonder why.

I was walking on our local trail. There was a plaque that had this poem which I really like and thought of Scott as I read it:
Those we love don't go away,
They walk beside us everyday.
Unseen, unheard, but always near,
Still loved, still missed, and very dear.

I've lost a child I hear myself say and the person I'm talking to just turns away. Now why did I tell them, I don't understand; it wasn't for sympathy or to get a helping hand. I just want them to know I've lost something dear; I want them to know my child was here. My child left something behind which no one can see, if I 've upset you, I'm sorry as can be. You'll have to forgive me, I could not resist, I just want you to know that my child DID exist!  (Missing you, Scott.)

For all you were to me in life and all the joy you brought, your memory is with me in every single thought.
The pain I felt in losing you will never go away, but knowing that you're in my heart helps me through each passing day.
When you were here, I always felt that nothing could go wrong, but you're still my inspiration and your memory keeps me strong.
And though my heart is heavy, it's also full of love and that's enough to comfort me while you're in Heaven up above.  Always your Ma...

Mother's Day, 2015
I have been blessed 4 times with amazing children. All different yet bonded by love of family. I hold tight to the memories of past Mother's Day when you were here but I must move forward for those who remain and show them the strength of a mother's love regardless of what is dealt in life. I love you dearly, Scott, and I would move Heaven and Earth if I could still have you with us, but sadly that can't happen. Thank you for honoring me this day for 35 years. I LOVE YOU!!

A million times I've needed you
A million times I've cried.
If love alone could have saved you
You never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly
In death I love you still
In my heart you hold a place
No one else can ever fill.
It broke my heart to lose you
But you didn't go alone
Part of me went with you
The day God took you home.

It's Easter, Son. Another holiday without you. There's no joy in the holidays anymore. Your leaving us has changed us all in so many ways. We miss you. We are still learning how to move forward, respecting the loss we feel, but having to continue to have a life with our family. I love you, miss you and will forever keep you in my heart.

Hi, Scott....I think about you often but don't know what to say as all my thoughts just stay in my head and we "talk" to each other. I don't know what to put on your tribute page. But you know that I am thinking of you. I want your mom know that I am thinking of you. Your mom loves and misses you so much. I wish I lived closer to be by her side when she needs that special extra hug and understanding. Just so you know, Scott, I love and miss you, too. We will be "talking" again soon..... Love, Aunt Jackie

The worst type of crying is the silent one. The one when everyone is asleep. The one where you feel it in your throat, and your eyes become blurry with tears. The one where you just want to scream! The one where you just have to hold your breath and grab your stomach to keep quiet. The one where you realize the person who meant so much to you is GONE!  This is my constant cry Son...I miss you so much!!

Today would have been your 40th birthday. What a celebration it would have been if you were still with us!! So now we all remember in our own way, the person you were, the memories we've made, the love we had. Not one of us can judge you or know the darkness you felt, but we all feel the emptiness you left behind. You will forever be a part of each of us as we move on holding you in our hearts. I love you, Son. Happy Birthday!

I still miss you, as the days and years pass
I still miss you, as the pain of grief softens
I still miss you, as new memories are made
I still miss you, as I smile and laugh
I still miss you, today and everyday
I STILL MISS YOU!!

Your absence in my life is felt in every way, every day. I love you, Son!

I think of you, Scott, all the time. Every time I pass etching pads at a store or anything artistic I think of the exceptional artistic talent you had. I was always in awe at your artistic ablity. You are truly loved and missed. You are always in my thoughts. I love you.

Well as of yesterday it's been 4 years without you bro. It just blows my mind that its been that long. I have been though so many things since you left us. I really wish that I still had you around to give me advice and to pick me up when I fall. I really wish tyler could of known you. I think he would of loved his uncle Scott a lot. I hope you got our balloons and messages we sent up to you yesterday. I love you bro and can't wait for the day I can see you again.

I don't ever go thru a day without thinking of you or shedding tears. I hold you close in my heart and cherish memories of you. We all feel a deep loss still in your absence. There is so much you missed and so many things that would have been better if we could have shared them with you. Your daughters are amazing and we try to be there in your place, but honestly no one can replace a father's love. I pray you have the peace you must have sought. I love you son and miss you to the depths of my being! God bless you.

Brother-Your girls are with me this week. I am so happy to spend time with them. Trinity is so outgoing and has the best laugh. She reminds me of you in so many ways. Tristin is so loving and sweet. She wants me to carry her all the time! We are having a wonderful time. I call them the "Blonde Brigade" when they are hanging with Killian and Carleigh. Everyone thinks they are siblings. It is crazy how much our kids have turned out alike. I have moments with them that remind me of you and I as kids. That is a happiness unlike any other but always brings tears to my eyes. I mentioned that you used to love pistachio pudding and Trinity lit up and was like "Oh I HAVE to try that!" I will be making it for her this week. I think she just very much wants to hold on to any piece of you. It was odd mentioning you at first but I know they need to hear stories of you and they both love listening to tales of us as kids. I love you immensely. I thank you for my beautiful, wonderful nieces. I know I moved but I am still committed as I promised to you, to always being in their lives. I know you never meant to leave them. It s been hard to come to terms with that statement and without any proof- I now believe it. Peace brother.

Today is Valentine's Day, a day of love. I love you, Son! I love the memories you left behind that lift my spirits, bring a smile to me, and even the ones that cause tears to fall because it reaffirms that you were here and you left your imprint on my heart forever. We all miss you and send love to Heaven for you!

Another year has started. Tyler just had his 3rd birthday. Soon Tristin will be 9! So hard to accept life goes on when it seems to have stopped in my heart. Heather moved to the Hill Country and now it seems like I've lost half of my family. I'm struggling to find a reason, a purpose for me to still be here. A day has yet to go by that I don't think of you and cry! I love you, Scott!!

Christmas 2013--the holidays have arrived and still I feel your absence in every part of it. I've cried till no more tears will flow, but there is no way to remove the pain. I saw Trinity annd Tristin tonite. Both are so well-adjusted and getting tall. Wish you would have stayed here if only for them. I miss you, Son. Merry Christmas!

Today is Thanksgiving. I'm thankful for the memories we created as they give me strength to go forward. I'm thankful for your girls, Trinity and Tristin who show me love regardless of how long it"s been since my last visit! Life is so different without you! Sometimes I just want to give up and stop but that's not fair to the rest of the family, so I go forward with heavy heart. I LOVE YOU SON!!

I thought of you this week. Easy enough to do since your birthday has been the day after Toni's. I just needed to say that I miss you. I know that your Mom especially is sad that you are gone. Just know that you have always been loved.

Another birthday, the 4th one without you. The day you were born was filled with so much love and pride! As you grew to be your own person, there were times of disappointment and some "not so happy with you" times, but the love was ALWAYS there and remains still. I am doing my best to cherish memories and keep you in my heart but it"s small steps, day by day. I miss you, Son!

They say time heals all. Well I would have to say that's wrong. Seems like the more time that goes on the more pain I feel. I miss you so much bro. Everyday that passes I think about you. Even after 3 and a half years I just wish I would wake up and this was all a long horrible dream. I would give anything just for one day with you. Happy birthday bro! love ya!

Hi, Scott......I have been thinking alot about you lately. You were a very special nephew. I loved having you around. You always brought laughter and love into a room. You knew how to light up a room or anywhere else you were. I love you and miss you immensely. Until we meet again in Heaven.....Aunt Jackie

Thinking of you Scott. Remembering you...your smile, your gentleness. Until we meet again...... Love you!

Brother, There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you. It's been really hard on me not having you around. Losing you has changed so much inside me. I miss your hugs. I miss your laugh. I miss all the things we shared that only you and I really know. When I lost you I lost more than just a brother. More than anything I wish I could have helped. Love always, your Sis

Scott had a nature you could not help loving and a heart that was purer than gold. And to those who knew him and loved him; his memory will never grow cold. Scott, I will love and remember you always, I love you, Scott   Aunt Jackie

Unfortunately, we lived hundreds of miles apart. There was a time when he was much younger that I remember Scott very well. His smile was wonderful! He had a gentle spirit. His art was also amazing. We always expected to be able to see him and his family at some point in time. Now we will have to wait until we get to heaven to see him. Scott will be missed!

I will forever remember your beautiful smile, your amazing talent, your sweet spirit and your generous heart! Your time here was too short it seems for us left behind, however our memories of you give great comfort.  We miss you, Scotty!!

There is always a face before me,
A voice I would love to hear,
A smile I will always remember,
Of a brother I loved so dear.
Deep in my heart lies a picture,
More precious than silver or gold,
It's a picture of my brother,
Whose memory will never grow old

Death leaves a heartache
no one can heal;
Love leaves a memory no
one can steal
I Love and miss you greatly ! Scott

Love Lives On
Those we love remain with us
for love itself lives on,
and cherished memories never fade
because a loved one's gone.
Those we love can never be
more than a thought apart,
far as long as there is memory,
they'll live on in the heart.

We all miss you dearly scott but i know you are still with us all watching over us,with that smile of yours. You will always be in our hearts and thoughts with all the love we have for you !  Love You

Well I never got to meet ya...but from what i hear you sounded like a good man..I saw your drawlings and I must say they are pretty Damn awsome..R.I.P im sure we will all see you again someday until then takerr easy...