I mentioned it briefly in the message I left but I felt I wanted to expand on it a little. 

Being on the football team with Sean I remember that first day. Coach brought him into the huddle and introduced him. At the time, we had quite a few people on the team that I didn't agree with, so much so that I honestly can't think more than two people I would call "friends" from that team. One being Billy Holley and the other being Sean.

On his first day coach introduced him and stated he would make many friends to which Sean replied, "I'm not here to make friends." Looking back on it, I'm not sure if he just immediately could tell the overall character of the people composing that team or what it was, I'm sure that had something to do with it. Like I said there were quite a few unsavory people there.

It doesn't bear repeating what happened his first few days on the team, and, I would just like to tell you that a majority of us were livid when we found out. I made it a personal mission to hit the people involved as hard as I could for quite some time.  

It was during that time though that I started talking to Sean. I didn't want him to feel like an outsider. I had grown up in Poway and had only been in Lakeside for a few years so again, I found myself relating to Sean in a way most other people on the team couldn't. I would chat him up whenvever I saw him, memory is hazey but I am fairly certain him and I shared a few classes in which I took the oppurtunity to talk to him. I loved Sean. He, as I mentioned, was infectiously happy and positive. I don't know many people that could have happen what happened to him and not leave the team immediately.

I think after that he gained a ton of respect amongst the other memebers of the team. Surely there were still some that viewed him as an outsider and maintained their ridiulousness. But I started seeing him grow. He wasn't immediately talented or athletic but he showed so much dedication and desire to grow. So many days in practice there would be people taking plays off or not trying, and then, there'd be Sean, going 100 miles an hour every. single. play.

He was determined to earn respect, and I can say with no doubt in my mind he did. I left El Cap after my juniour year but going through the pictures I see he got the reward for most improved, I'm not surprised. He was an amazingly hard worker and put most to shame. Even during his growth I can recall a few times I saw him throw out a block or go up to catch a pass that 9/10 receivers on our team wouldn't have been able to and come down with it. He was something else.

Hearing the news I did a while back I was shocked. I teared up immediately and before I knew it had tears rollin down my face. I spent time with so many people from that school and otherwise, but Sean, he was something else. He left a lasting impression on me. And I just wanted to tell him and you that. 

The self does not return to who it was.  It changes. 
Death of a loved one changes who we are. 
The change is healthy and necessary.

Seen this way, it becomes clear why we never “get over” the death. 
We don’t “snap out of it.” 
We don’t get over it. 
Getting over it is not an option because we are already permanently changed by death.

“As long as we can love each other, and remember the feeling of love we had, we can die without ever really going away. 
All the love you created is still there. 
All the memories are still there. 
You live on – in the hearts of everyone you have touched and nurtured while you were here…
Death ends a life, not a relationship.”

We do not stop loving because the loved one died. 

We change our minds to make way for a rearranged relationship. 

The self changes this way. 

We defeat tragedy this way. 

We change it into ongoing love and relationship. 

It is who we become. 

It is who we are, then.
A broken heart can inspire new life.
Death redefines us; it does not annihilate us.
We do not need to go backward to find peace.

Been searching all day and evening with just what to say and if I should say anything ? 

During this time of year, many things and memories come into peoples lives, sometimes painful. 

And I was not going into the situation of Sean Luc, 
Was not going into the sadness, just post pictures and happy memories.

BUT; 
Myself and Sean Luc has received personal message about taking ones life and thinking about it on our Face Book pages.

And I know this is personal and I am not a professional. You can contact me I well send my Phone number, and or a professional's number. If possible and if wanted I well meet with you personally. Just an O'Cowboy with big Ole Shoulders.

Let me say this: “Satan, who is the father of all lies, can cause people to believe that they are worthless and have no purpose,” 
“When people start thinking that way we need to get to them quickly.

We all especially myself missed the signs that Sean Luc was suffering so much..
They need to know they are a son or daughter of God and that they are loved.”

Elder Birch aka Ol'Cowboy needs to warned about judging those who take their own lives.And those who even are even thinking about taking their lives.

Only God can truly understand the many complexities and circumstances that surround a suicide, and the thoughts of suicide. 
He will be merciful and kind.

So be gentle and kind in word and thought for those who have passed, 
“And let the judgment issues rest with heaven.”

Losing a child, a spouse, a parent, a sibling or a friend to suicide can cause deep suffering and confusion. 
But survivors can find peace and hope amidst their grief through Christ. 

“Trust your Heavenly Father. Trust the Lord Jesus Christ, and go on with your life as ending ones life there is no "Do-over's" "No What If's" and anything can be over come. ANYTHING!
This the Ol'Cowboy knows!!