Sissy I love and miss you so damn much....everything is so different without you and I really am trying but I don't know how I'm supposed to live without my baby sister....everyday I talk to you and wonder if you can even hear me....I feel like I'm completely losing my mind. .

SISSY EVERYDAY IS A CONSTANT REMINDER THAT YOUR GONE AND THAT WHEN YOU DIED A HUGE PART OF ME DIED WITH YOU...I WILL NEVER BE OK NOR THE SAME EVERY AGAIN...I WILL NEVER HEAR YOU SAY "WHERES MY SISSY" I LOVE YOU MY BEAUTIFUL SISSY, OR EVIL MIDGET, OR THAT YOU WERE SO PROUD I AM YOUR BIG SISTER.... I WILL NEVER GET TO HEAR YOUR LAUGH, OR U YELL AND THROW A FIT CAUSE UR MAD, OR UR BIG MONSTERS INC "BOO" ALLIGATOR TEARS WHILE U JUMP IN THE BED WITH ME AND CUDDLE UP WITH ME AND CRY UR LITTLE HEART OUT I TRY MY HARDEST TO HOLD ON TO IT AND SISSY ITS GETTING ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE TO CAUSE I AM STARTING TO REALLY LOSE MY MIND SISSY I SWEAR AND I STAY BUSY AT ALL TIMES CAUSE IF I DONT THEN I WILL FALL APART AND THEN IF I DO THAT THEN IT WILL MEAN THAT UR REALLY GONE AND NOT COMING BACK AND IM NOT READY FOR THAT I DONT THINK I EVER WILL BE READY FOR THAT....I MISS YOU SO SO SO DAMN MUCH IT HURTS TO EVEN BREATHE...IF I COULD I WOULD TRADE U PLACES IN A HEARTBEAT...LOSING MY DAUGHTER AND U ARE BY FAR THE HARDEST THINGS I HAVE EVER HAD TO DEAL WITH AND I AM TRYING MY HARDEST SISSY I REALLY AM TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO PICK UP THE PIECES OF MY LIFE BUT HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THAT WHEN I DONT KNOW HOW...HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LIVE WITHOUT U GUYS...SISSY I JUST REALLY WISH U KNEW JUST HOW MUCH I LOVE U AND THAT I AM SO PROUD OF U AND THAT THERE ISNT ANYTHING U COULD EVER DO THAT WOULD TAKE THAT AWAY U HEAR ME SISSY...I AM SO LOST AND EMPTY WITHOUT YOU SISSY AND REALLY NEED TO WAKE UP FROM THIS NIGHTMARE CAUSE ITS NOT POSSIBLE THAT THIS COULD BE REAL...CAN IT SISSY??? IS IT SISSY??? ARE YOU REALLY GONE FOREVER AND NOT COMING BACK??? I CANT AND WONT EVER ACCEPT THAT SISSY IM SORRY I WONT DO IT ...I LOVE U SO MUCH SERENA ROSE...U ARE AND ALWAYS WILL BE MY PRIDE AND JOY FOREVER AND A DAY....

Sissy this life isn't the same without you! A piece of me left this world with you that I'll never get back and because I'm missing that piece of me it hurts everyday! I wish I could just sit down with you and tell you I love you one more time and see that huge beautiful smile on your face! You were one of a kind! I just hope that your next to me everyday seeing how much your missed and loved! I know that no matter my struggle I have a piece of you in our tattoo we got together! I will forever and always carry that with me! I love you baby sissy! More then this world could ever understand!

SISSY I MISS YOU MORE AND MORE EVERYDAY I SWEAR IT GETS HARDER AND HARDER...MOST DAYS I DONT EVEN WANNA GET OUT OF BED I LOVE YOU AO MUCH AND JUST WISH I COULD TALK TO YOU SO BAD..