It's hard to believe you've been gone 10 years. We keep your memory alive for Lily and always talk about your laughter, smile and big energy. She's surrounded by the ones who love her the most and never mention the others, she doesn't even know their names. Please keep watch over her and visit her in her dreams my love. We think of you always. I love you and miss you more than you know.

I can't believe it's been almost 5 years without you. I pray every night that you watch over us and visit Lily in her dreams. We had a good visit in Texas a couple weeks ago. We even drove through Spring, so many emotions came over me. I miss you so much. I love you babe.

It was a long day. It's been 2 years since you took your last breath at 7**pm on January 13, 2013. Not a day goes by that we don't think of you. Today we remembered your life, I hope you received our love notes to heaven. We had a nice get together at the cemetery sharing memories of you. Lily always says she misses you, she knows how much you love her. I miss you. I love you. You're mine forever.

I'm taking the kids to see Santa today, Lily is excited she gets to wear her new "princess dress" I know you're always with us. I feel your love every time Lily hugs and kisses me.

We miss you everyday babe. I show Lily pictures and videos of you often, she knows you love her and are always watching over her. Thank you for giving me strength and for keeping evil people away from us. 

With that being said, I do/did NOT give Sylvia or anyone else permission to post pictures of MY children on fb or any other website. I will do anything to protect them and the memory of MY husband. If anyone has comments or concerns about why and would like to know the reason behind me cutting my husband's family out of our lives I'll gladly send you proof. I sent proof of Sylvia's deceit to different members of her family, which I know she hated.

Thank you James for blessing us and leaving ME the only part of you left, Lily. I love you with everything I am.

We are soo happy you're here in CA with your family where you belong. We would've been at your service at Houston National Cemetery but your fucked up mom tried to hide it from us, I only knew you were there bc a friend sent me a picture. I made sure you had a beautiful and perfect service, you were honored by the Air Force and Army...you would have been soo proud! It was beautiful, the weather was perfect, I tried not to cry too much during my eulogy for you and Lily was as beautiful as ever. I'm happy/sad that your headstone is finally in, when I die bc we'll be buried together. You're mine and I'm yours forever. I left your family off your headstone bc they excluded me from yours in TX and excluded your one and only daughter from your service. I love you babe. One day closer...

Tonight is another one of those nights where I can't sleep. You're on my mind as I lay next to Lily listening to her baby snore. Today I found the first letter you wrote me. I remember how much I laughed at what you wrote. I'll miss the letters and cards we would try to sneak into each other's bag. Love you!

Love you James it feels good having you here in California with us where you belong. I'll never have to take Lily to Texas to see you ever again. =)

Today would have been a perfect day to bbq :) love and miss you soo much James

Miss You Buddy! Growing up around you and knowing u for so long I don't think I'll ever forget your crazy butt! I remember all the crazy times we had in high school and how silly you would be, you have a way of making people laugh, :) smh miss u james

I love and miss my husband more everyday <3