My Friend: A Permanent Place in My Heart
Shae was my best friend for a moment in time. A moment in time that I will never forget and will always hold dear to my heart. We did everything together! We had such a deep connection because both of our mothers struggled with drug addiction. We confided in each other and was always there for each other helping to get through the hard times. We spent so much time together that eventually Shae moved in with me. I’ll never forget the time that we took home dresses from the play I was in and got caught by my mom and forced to take them back. It’s funny looking back on that memory because I am not sure why we thought we would get away with it. We shared our birthdays as hers was the day before mine we always had a blast. I’ll never forget the times we got caught trying to smoke cigarettes and all the other countless mischievous things we got our young selves into. I’ll never forget the day I moved away. That was the day I lost my friend. My family and I moved away to Hobbs New Mexico and of course Shae could not come with us. At first we talked on the phone everyday but that soon faded. Time can be an enemy in situations like these as we tend to get lost in what’s going on right in front of us. I came to San Angelo from time to time to visit family and I would always look her up and stop in for a moment. It was always bitter sweet to see her and hold her and tell her I loved her and have to leave again. After some years in my grown up life I tried looking for her but to no avail. Every address I had for her and her family was invalid. When social media started to blow up I tried looking for her that way because Shae was always so full of life, I just knew she would have to be on Myspace or eventually on Facebook. But I never found her that way in fact I’ll never forget the day I did find her. I paid money to search for her and I never expected to find her obituary. That broke my heart. I was blessed to see that she had found love and became a mother before her short life had ended. Through finding information about her I was able to talk to some of her family and blessed enough to talk to two of three of her daughters. I hope to meet them one day! I thought it was neat she had three daughters because at that time I had three sons. I created this page so that her memory can live on forever. It gives me a type of closure. It’s funny to me that so many friends have come and gone during my lifetime that I never remembered but I never forgot you Shae, you left a lasting impression on my heart that will never die. On January 20th 2014 I gave birth to a daughter - I named her Shealyn to honor your memory. I hope you look in on me from time to time and when it’s my time to go I hope we can pick up our friendship in Heaven! I love you!