This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Shan Hu 胡珊, 30, born on January 4, 1986 and passed away on March 7, 2016. We will remember her forever.
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Thank you all for your kind words, memories and donations; they are much appreciated. With your help, a beautiful ceremony remembering our friend took place on Saturday, March 12, 2016. Thanks to all of you who were able to come to the ceremony as well as those there in spirit.
With the memorial service behind, Shan Hu Memorial Fund at GoFundMe is no longer accepting donations. If you would like to make additional donations, Alex's 529 Plan is now available; or feel free to contact shanworkcomm20160307 at gmail if you would like to make direct donation to Shan's family.
Shan has been buried in China on March 21st, 2016. Please feel free to continue sharing your memories and photos on this memorial site.
珊的挚友们,让我们借此网站表达对她的无尽思念和深切缅怀。我们将永远记得她。
感谢捐款、出席追悼会、帮助胡珊家人共度难关和在这里与大家分享胡珊生平点滴的亲朋好友。谨代表筹备方谢谢你们为胡珊和她的家人带来如此庄重得体的致意及体贴周到的关怀。胡珊的追悼会于2016年3月12日在永福殡仪馆举行;她的骨灰已被父母带回中国与2016年3月21日埋葬在老家。
胡珊的GoFundMe已经停止捐款了,所得款项除去丧葬的相关开支,已按捐款人要求全部转交至胡珊的家人。如果您想继续捐款,胡珊儿子Alex的529计划已经建好;如果您想直接捐款给胡珊的家人,请直接联系他们或由我们代劳(shanworkcomm20160307 AT Gmail DOT com).
Tributes
Leave a tribute康州今天下起了大雪,漫天飞舞着悲怆的大片白色雪花,是你吗?眼前仿佛出现你撒娇的样子: 你你你,不许把我忘了啊!
每次想起你,心就像被撕成碎片。不能忘。不敢忘。忘不了。
想你,珊珊。
一年过去了,3年前送你的竹子在宋睿那还挣扎的生长着,你却不在了。。。你过得好吗?
然后,我家老二就开始嚎了... 就没有然后了...
珊,我好想你,你在那边过得怎样,需要什么吗?瓜瓜给你准备。
追悼会上,我坐在很靠前的位置。反复端详着不远处珊珊安静的遗容,再看看旁边笑靥如花的遗像,心中还是觉得充满了一种不真实感。我实在无法把静静躺在那里的珊珊,和印象中跟那个开朗爱笑的姑娘联系起来。
最后的最后,要将珊珊的遗体送入火化炉的时候,原本大家只是各自抽泣,不知是谁在人群中大喊了一声:“再见了,珊珊!”顿时,大家的情绪彻底失控,恸哭一片。
下午,我们从波士顿往回开。一路上,两旁的草木虽还没有抽芽,但毕竟阳光明媚,已是春意融融。可是,春天刚来,珊珊却走了。
沿途路牌上那几个寻常的地名挑动起我脆弱的神经。开出没多远,就看到珊珊住的小镇Natick;再开一会儿,看到了她与死神最后搏斗的地方Worcester;再远一些,到了康州小镇Willington,我又一眼看到那个熟悉的路牌:
Exit 71
320
Ruby Road
从这个出口下去没多远,便是珊珊曾经住过的公寓。在那里,她由恋爱、订婚到结婚,从怀孕、生子到毕业。我们数不清多少次去拜访,去聚餐,去给她送我们钓上来的鱼,去看她的孩子……一一回想起来,教人怎能不悲伤。
这一段几十英里的高速公路串起了珊珊生命中最后几个重要的落脚点。可恨汽车能在这路上来来往往,时间却无法选择前进的方向。
正如我之前在朋友圈里说的,珊珊的离去让我听懂了那首《生如夏花》。开车行驶在这段路上,我又忍不住听了起来。儿子问:“这是什么歌?”我说,这是一首伤心的歌。结果他听了以后不停地说:“爸爸,我想听‘伤心的歌’。”这话正合我意。于是我便单曲循环,一路上不知听了多少遍,跟着唱了多少遍,眼眶湿了多少遍。
车子一路前行,太阳渐渐西斜。只听朴树唱道:
“我从远方赶来
恰巧你们也在
执迷流连人间
我为它而狂野”
不论是读大学还是念研究生,珊珊几乎总是同一级的同学里年纪最小的一个。我猜想一定是我们这些人幸运地和她有着命中注定的缘分,所以她才一定要赶上我们,来赴这一生的约会。
于是她来了,用她对生命的热忱与活力感染了我们每一个人。她是一个去游乐场要把所有过山车都坐个遍的姑娘;一个跟我妻子约好去图书馆看书,结果看着看着就开始得意地传授奶昔做法的姑娘;一个嚷嚷着要跟我们去钓鱼,结果到了湖边就把鱼竿扔给她丈夫,自己掇把椅子坐下等鱼吃的姑娘;一个生完小孩想着要自己做点桂圆煮鸡蛋补一补,结果把新鲜桂圆放进锅里煮的姑娘;一个一时心血来潮就会跟遇到的每一个人说自己突然喜欢上了蠢萌的斗牛犬,一说就笑得合不拢嘴,还把网上搞笑的斗牛犬视频都看了个遍的姑娘……
然而,在人生真正的挑战面前,这个从小备受宠爱的姑娘又永远是那么地坚韧而不服输。好几次,面对生活的不如意,她来我家找我妻子哭诉心事。但每次擦干眼泪之后,她又总是坚强到近乎执拗地继续前行。
“我是这耀眼的瞬间
是划过天边的刹那火焰”
这不就是珊珊的真实写照么?她16岁就上了大学,20岁只身赴美,25岁当上母亲,26岁成为博士,30岁匆匆而别。这么优秀的姑娘,来到这世上那么努力地生活,似乎就是为了要急着完成这些任务。风风火火,做完就走,片刻也不多留。
昨天,珊珊一定会很开心,因为那么多好久没见的同学朋友都赶来送她,那么多大男人都哭肿了双眼。毕业以后,大家各奔东西,好多人借此机会又重新取得了联系。大家见面的第一句话,都是好久不见。紧接着便是同样的感慨:谁知道重聚竟是在这样的场合!冥冥中,似乎是珊珊太留恋那些年的相聚时光,不舍得大家渐行渐远,联络日疏,于是竟用这种最残酷的方式把大家重新找回来。这不也正像歌里唱的那样么:
“我为你来看我不顾一切
我将熄灭永不能再回来”
朴树莫不是因为也有过和我们失去珊珊类似的经历,才能写出这样的歌词?
逝者已矣,时间前行。从初闻噩耗到最后送别,震惊和悲痛终将渐渐沉淀。这不是遗忘,而是在内心深处将我们对珊珊的怀念酝酿成一壶香醇的美酒。那酒的芬芳,是珊珊定格在我们脑海中的一幕幕美好记忆;入口时的酸涩,是她在最美的年华骤然逝去给我们带来的长久痛惜;余韵悠远,则是我们关于人生,关于命运始终无法参透的淡淡无奈与忧伤。珊珊,下次回国,我们一定会到你长眠的地方去看你,将这壶酒洒在你的碑前。
车离开康州的时候,晚霞染红了天空。耳边依然是朴树的吟唱:
“这是一个多美丽又遗憾的世界
……
一路春光啊
一路荆棘啊
惊鸿一般短暂
如夏花一样绚烂”
珊珊,这世界,正是因为有像你这样充满热情、努力绽放的生命而美丽;也正是因为你这样的好姑娘偏要被命运无情捉弄而遗憾。
哦,对了。珊珊,刚才看到新闻,你最爱看的日本搞笑节目《猩猩和斗牛犬》里的那只蠢萌的斗牛犬去世了。就在日本时间3月8日上午8点,也就是美东时间3月7日下午6点,跟你的离开几乎同时。我终于相信了,你肯定是上天派到人间的天使,把美好与欢乐送给我们这些幸运的人,然后你就带着最喜欢的宠物回去了。
珊珊,能在人生路上与你结识,是我们这些人的幸运。你的生命虽然短暂,但却明媚得胜似这三月的阳光。我们自己的人生道路,也因为有了你这片阳光,而变得更加不虚此行。
珊珊,若我们有幸活到白发苍苍、耳聋眼花的年纪,在我们的记忆里,你还会是三十岁上如夏花般绚烂的模样。
多好呀!
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by UConn 校友 Jenny
认识珊是07年刚转学到UCon的时候,那时跟老公在学校Dorm住了一阵子,中国同学们总一起聚餐,在Dorm的地下厨房做菜。后来搬出去住了,联系也少了,但是活泼的小妹妹珊给我留下了很深的印象。看到珊,Leshui, Shaozhen, Dong一起的照片,又回想起那段短暂而快乐的时光。
今天无意中发现这条消息,多期望是同名同姓的另一人。和老公说起来也是唏嘘不已。愿珊在天堂一切安好,也愿珊的父母爱人小孩能够尽快走出失去珊的痛苦,坚强地生活下去!
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Shan, I still remember the day you picked me up in the airport when I first stepped on America 8 years ago. 5 years together in Connecticut, you offered so much help to us and we had so much fun with you, Wei and Alex day in and day out. What impressed me the most is your unconditional love to Alex no matter how difficult it is. You are our role model. It's been really a pleasure to know you. We really miss you, but we also rest assured knowing that you are in heaven now. -Tony (with Chenchen)
I still cannot accept this sad news and refuse to even think about it. Love your smile and positive attitude. Spending three years together in Connecticut will always be in my heart. RIP in heaven, Shan, my dear friend. - Lei and Weihua
Have met you only for a few times but our family are really impressed on your positive attitude. Not long ago I took a photo for your happy family at Alex's birthday party. I still remember you played a joke on me when Emma hugged Alex. Your smile will stay in our hearts for ever and inspire our lives for ever. Rest in peace. - TianYu & ZuDi
Cannot stop crying after receiving this saddest news this morning. She was one of my best friends when I was at UConn. We took stats classes, discussed homework, prepared exams together..we also explored the restaurants around Storrs, had BBQ at hollow-dam, went sightseeing in the cities around...we had wonderful time with lots of laughter. We were still connected after I left. Things were busy for both us with the kids, but we still talked to each other from time to time. She is very young, but she is one of the strongest and most loving person I have known. May her rest in peace. Best wishes to her family especially her son. - JIA Fan
"Shaozhen and I are shocked and feel so sad by the news. I've cried several times till now. She is a very sweet and caring girl. I can always remember her big and warm smile like sunshine. I cannot imagine how her family will go through this. Rest in peace, Shan. Bless Shan's parents, Wei, and little Alex. - hongyu & shaozhen"
Shan, I refuse to let some stupid little detail, like the fact that I will never see your pretty face or hear your beautiful voice again keep me from being your BFF. You promised me. And I will hold you to it! And just to show you how stubborn I am, I am giving you 20,000 nickels. So there! -Brien Aronov
Shan, I couldn't make it to Boston today to see you one last time, but I've been thinking of you everyday this past week...how we studied for qualify exams together, how lively and beautiful you were...I wish your family the best, I hope that they could be strong get through this. You will always be in my heart. -Weimiao Guo
追悼会细节
胡珊于2016年3月7日离开了我们,享年30岁。她的追悼会于3月12日周六在波士顿永福殡仪馆举行。捐款请至 https://www.gofundme.com/shanhu。我们真诚期待您的到场。注册请至https://goo.gl/E4eDZg
Shan Hu., 30, passed away on Monday, March 7th 2016. A memorial service will be held Saturday, March 12, at 9:30 a.m., at the Wing Fook Funeral Home, 13 Gerard St, Boston, MA 02119. In lieu of flowers, donations may be made to https://www.gofundme.com/shanhu. Please complete following registration if you decide to attend the funeral. We greatly appreciate your help. For registration, please go to https://goo.gl/E4eDZg
追悼会流程
9:30 追悼会开始。殡仪馆有停车场,到达后如果您愿意参加之后的火葬场道别请倒趴入停车位,工作人员为您的车顶插上小旗作标志。进门请至二楼,在门口签字,会有工作人员带入追悼厅。
进入追悼厅后,可以向遗体鞠躬,上香。然后绕棺材走一圈,向遗体告别。接下来会走到亲属就坐的地方,慰问亲属。然后就坐。殡仪馆还会提供纸钱,如果有需要的话,就坐后可以叠纸钱,放到燃烧炉里烧掉。
我们请了观音来念经,大屏幕会滚动播放胡珊生照片。门外我们会提供少量点心,但请勿带入追悼厅。
11:00 介绍胡珊生平,家属及朋友致辞。
11:15 工作人员提醒大家要出发去火葬场。由6-8名男士(非亲属)护送遗体上灵车。
11:30 开车前往火葬场(火葬场Forest Hills Crematory,171 Walk Hill St, Roslindale, MA 02131)。大家自行驱车前往,有警车护送车队。
12:00 到火葬场后,进入chapel,每个人和遗体最后告别,由工作人员推入火葬间。整个追悼仪式结束。
2:00 吃饭。Lotus Flower Chinese Cuisine荷花苑,地址是:341 Cochituate Road, Framingham, MA, 01710
Funeral schedule
9:30am Funeral starts at Wing Fook Funeral Home.
Parking: for those who plan to drive to the crematory at Forest Fills Crematory afterwards in procession after the service at funeral home, please follow the direction of the staff members at the funaral home and park your cars in certain area in the parking lot. They will also place small flags onto your cars. If you will not be driving to the crematory in procession, the funeral home staff will direct you to park in another area.
After entering the building door, please proceed to the second floor and sign the register at the chapel door.
After being ushered into the chapel, You might bow to the casket and place the incense sticks which will be provided as a tradition in Chinese funeral. You might then circle around the casket once as the farewell to deceased. After that, you will proceed to the family seating area, offer your condelense to the family members of deceased. The funeral home will provide offerings which are made from paper, such as "afterlife money", for the traditional Chinese ritual of incineration of these afterlife money. After being seated, you can choose to help folding these afterlife money for later incineration.
There will be chanting of Buddhist scripture in the Chapel, and Shan's photos will be displayed on the projector screen. Light refreshment will be provided outside the chapel, which cannot be taken inside the chapel.
11:00am Eulogy and Tribute to Shan by family and friend
11:15am Funarel home staff will notify those who will attend the cremation service. The casket will be carried by 6-8 pallbearers (male nonfamily members) to the hearse.
11:30am Departure from Funeral Home to Forest Hills Crematory at 171 Walk Hill St, Roslindale, MA 02131. For those who will drive in funeral procession, please following the hearse. The procession will be escorted by police cars.
12:00pm Arriving at the crematory. Please enter the chapel and offer the last farewell to the deceased. The whole funeral will conclude here and the casket will then enter the cremation chamber.
2:00pm Lunch at Lotus Flower Chinese Cuisine, 341 Cochituate Road, Framingham, MA, 01710.