Brownie,
Happy Mother’s Day to you. Grace and Kennedy are hanging out with me. They are so much fun. Grace absolutely adores and respects Kennedy and Kennedy acts just like a big sister. We are missing you so much. Went to church this morning, brunch and then visited the cemetery. Our Grace is so much like you, mannerisms just like like yours. You did an amazing job Keisha. Love you with all of my heart. Mom continues to be wonderful and just perfect. God blessed me with her indeed. Thank God for Ebony as well; she’s just simply amazing. Love you Brownie.

Happy heavenly Mother’s Day, Daughter

Daughter another Mother’s Day is coming soon , I would love to hear your voice calling me an saying ma what do you want for Mother’s Day, money or what gadget you want lol , yall know that Mothers Day is the only holiday I like, cause on that day we all went to my church together, that made me feel so special. I’ m at work today , thinking about you,Boo, Dreka, Eric my heart is heavy this morning, I’m bless to still have them , love you more today daughter then I did yesterday day

I’m missing you so much today daughter. I just want to hear your voice, I think about you everyday all day

Daughter, can’t sleep, I’m thinking about you, just wanted you to know that , Eric is doing a great job raising Grace. Grace is growing so fast . She is so smart an beautiful like her mom, But you already know that. I Love you more today then I did yesterday daughter

Missing you daughter,

Daughter, I’m missing you so much today

Hey Baby Girl,

You’re always so heavy on my heart. I know that you are running around heaven like the busy little Angel you were here with us. I can just see GOD using you as HIS own to help pour out Blessings and Protection for your loved ones. I just miss you so much!

Sage, remember that time I got that second audition for the game show Deal or No Deal and you went with me as my Family Support Team! Lol, I just knew we were on our way to Hollywood, all the way up to that moment we were winning and was so hype, Hi-Fiving each other until I said “yeah, we came here to be Millionaires, not Thousandaires”, and then Looked straight into the camera. Shaken My Head, whyyyyy… did I have to look into the camera! Freaking hilarious, it was all over then, we just bust out laughing because we knew it was over. Thank you for going and supporting me. You knew just how much I loved Howie and that dumb show, lol!

We had so many good times and laughs over the years. Not a day goes by that I’m not looking back and wishing we’d spent more time together. Missing you and not being apart of Gracie’s life was one of the hard parts about moving so far away.

I keep bugging your Mom about helping me find Grace’s “Hello From The Other Side” video. I can’t believe I didn’t save it in my cloud somewhere, I watched it a thousand times. I will never forget that embarrassing day I opened that video up in Walmart. It took everything in me not to roll around on that store’s floor between the pineapples and women’s shorts! I wonder if you ever knew then how much that video meant to me.

You will forever be a part of me Little Mama, love you!

Brownie,
A blessing you continue to be to Grace and I. This day always seems to come too fast and my emotions never seem to be prepared for it. Nevertheless, today was a little different. I went to Grace’s school to read to her class. Your kid was beaming when she saw me. Lol. Thank you for always making sure that we are involved parents. I did get bounced from the earlier time slot by Echo the dog. No worries; I came at the later time with my A+ reading game and mini cupcakes from one of those gourmet bakeries in Ann Arbor. The kids loved the book and Grace was happy. Love Our Grace. Didn’t want to write anything sad, that defines itself. Sending mucho love to you always and missing you forever. Lastly, your daughter is an extraordinary dancer. Won best overall at the last competition along with several first place finishes.

Love you always.

Daughter I miss with every fiber of a mom being an love , people say the grief I’m hold in my heart will get better, they don’t know what they are talking about cause everyday this pain gets worst an the days get harder. An the years break me down to my knees , Peoples just don’t know what they talking about cause the days are getting harder then the last day I kissed your forehead or even the last year I heard your voice . I know I can’t bring you back, how I know cause I have tried I’m mine . my tear can’t bring you back cause I cry a lot for days sometimes , losing a child is so painful so unreal, I know you are at rest, I know you are free of pain you are always in my thoughts everyday an you will always be in my heart, your are my first born , my baby , my daughter forever cause I love you so . I read your text you sent me stating that mom I ask to you to come see me everyday cause I just want you with me an I was with you everyday all the time , if not faith I can’t ask you that today . But losing you an Gladys left me lonely ,that god you bless me with Grace , When Grace laugh I hear your laugh. An that help me . I’m truly bless to have her . You left me on the 16th of March 2020 . I just wish I can turn back the time to just talk to you just for 5mins . I thinking about Ebony calling me couple day bfor you left an Ebony say Kei want to talk to you . You got on the phone an said hey mom . I said you ok , you said I just want to here you voice, I said I love you I’m on my was back to hospital, kei baby I love you an I’m just just just just . 

Kei, your daughter is a dancer just like you . She love to dance. I’m thinking about when we use go to a bar of function , you would say come on mom let dance an we dance alnight, Today in the solo hip hop dance competition Grace won first place . she also won a medal in several other dance categories today. Ebony came up to me crying I’m like what’s wrong, we was just emotional watch Grace dance, I guess you didn’t tell Ebony what you told me , Don’t be crying lol , well I’m still crying almost everyday cause I miss you , but know you already know this, an I know you are smiling about Grace winning today , I Love you daughter , I miss you more today then I did yesterday . You are our guardian Angel

Omg , Daughter I miss a lot today

I love you daughter, I’m missing you so much today , some days are harder then other an today is one of them

Brownie,
Happy anniversary to you. It’s amazing how this day continues to feel each passing year. I am lost in thought of memories and future plans about us. I miss you with all of my heart. Thank you for loving me and showing me what it means to love another with all of your heart and unconditionally. God was surely looking out for me when He blessed me with you. And I have to believe that He has more planned for us. To love you was effortless. To have been loved by you was God’s Grace, a blessing for a boy like me to be loved by a wonderful, kind, and an amazing girl like you. Loving you always.

Forever,
Eric

Hi daughter, missing you, your Grace is so like you , when you was her age. She is so high maintenance, an very smart, she enjoys dancing just like you did , an is a good dancer , she is funny , when she laughs she sounds like you. I’m so bless to have Grace, Gab, Ken , Greg an lil boo . I Love more today then I did yesterday

Miss you daughter

Brownie,
Just sitting here missing you. Grace is preparing for her competition this season; mandatory rehearsals and chauffeur service by her Daddy. Lol. I am sure that you are so proud of her. She’s doing awesome Brownie. She’s smart just like you and starting to look more like you every day. Keep watch over us always. Mom is my angel here on earth. She’s so supportive, kind and loving; I am blessed to have her. I love you always.

Keisha, you’re so heavy on my mind this morning! I’m struggling getting it together. Your Grace reminds me so much of you.I picked her up yesterday from school and she said I want my dad. I told her Auntie Ebony will get you to him. When I dropped her off she smiled and I told her I got you!! We love and miss you so much! ❤️

Baby Girl,

You are terribly missed! I always felt blessed to have you in my world, you were chucked full of life and laughter. I knew that whenever you were around, we were guaranteed to have fun.

I miss you Sage and the beautiful person you were inside and out. I don’t like to say “were” because I know that you’re this perfect Angel watching over Grace and Eric and your Mom and your Sisters and Gregory and your beautiful nieces (this list goes on for sure…).

I just want you to know that I love you and that you are always a part of who I am, so many beautiful memories. I was just sitting here thinking about you, as always, remembering how you used to eat, lol. So dainty, you would take your little bites and close your eyes and chew so slow, looking as if you just enjoyed every single morsel. I would always laugh to myself, wondering if that’s how you stayed so small. SMH!!!

You were the best SHAWANA Doeh, aka Sage, aka Brown! You definitely changed my world and shared with me a lifetime of memories, through the good and the bad and through thick and thin you were my true friend.

Forever loving the memory of you!!!

Miss you daughter

Shawna Doeh,

I wanna tell that I love you and that I miss you so much. You stay on my heart, I just wish I could talk to you.

Until we meet again!

Daughter, your baby boo is getting married, yes I’m surprise to. Omg I feel your spirit doing these times . It happy times . But your mom miss you so much , Eric have truly fill- in , maybe that not the right word cause Eric is my son , my very own son, He is there for the family just like you would have been. Omg you would enjoyed lil boo . She is a happy baby. Daughter watch over us. Stay with us. An Ebony she is a blessing also. You knew I was going to need all this help an support if you left me. You said mom I don’t want you crying but I’m crying , I told I was going be crying, Daughter my heart is heavy . That Grace she is Alittle you, when ppl say they miss you , all they have to do is spend time with Grace she is you. High maintenance an all she like the finest things. Love you more today then yesterday day

I miss you daughter

Daughter, I would love to talk you, I had go Beaumont Hospital today, All I did was think of you an your last days which broke my heart today ,they have build up around that hospital, it’s so many restaurants around there now, we use to have a hard time finding place for food because you was so picky, guess what they have all your favorite eating places , remember we had to eat the same stuff everyday cause it was a ghost town when it came to restaurants in that area, I miss you daughter, my holidays are so sad. The holidays will never be the same . Thank God for Eric, he makes sure that you have a Xmas blanket on your grave every holiday, thats comforts my heart . Eric is a wonderful Son , thank you daughter for adding him our family, I remember you told me , mom Eric an Grace is going be ok , you was right. Eric an Grace is ok , but we all miss you. Keep watching over us , my Angel , I love you more today then yesterday

Merry Christmas sister!!

Merry Christmas Keesh!! ❤️

Brownie,
Merry Christmas to you. Grace and I are spending the holidays at Disney; so many memories of us being here. It is so different without you being here. This thing is difficult but My Grace makes it less difficult. We love you so much. Give our grandmoms kisses. Love you guys bunches.

Merry Christmas, Daughter this day is getting harder an harder

Hey auntie Keisha, it’s been a while. I’ve been thinking about you a lot.I really miss you . Cassidy is so growing fast. She is learning how to hold her own bottle and to talk and sit up on her own and I really wish you were here to see it . Grace is growing so fast and she’s so intelligent. I'm now in high school and I like it so far. I’m making new friends and making it through the challenging work, but it’s a new experience. Even though I feel like a piece of me is gone without you here, I know you are at peace and also safe. Love you auntie Keisha.

Love you daughter

Unit We Meet Again
Those special memories of you
will always bring a smile
if only I could have you back
for just a little while
Then we could sit and talk again
just like we used to
The fact that you're no longer here
will always cause me pain
but you re forever in my heart
until we meet again sister love

Brownie,
I was just sitting here thinking about you as usual but today just seemed a little different. I miss you. God picked you for me and blessed I am to know that He thought that much of me. I love you always. Thank you for sharing your life with me and for God blessing us with our Grace.

Keisha you've been heavy on my mind. I think about you daily! I am often comforted from being around your family but I have my moments that I wish that I could call you. You are truly missed and loved by many.

Daughter, these holidays are so painful for me, I’m missing your silly laugh . You would not believe that Grace laugh an talk just like you , she so high maintenance just like her mom . She told her dad she wants a Gucci purse, she want to go to the Dubai for a vacation, where is she getting this stuff , I tell family an friends if missing Kei all you got to is get an enjoy Grace. Daughter good night for now. I love more today then I did yesterday

Daughter, I miss you,

Baby Girl,

I always imagine you and Money being together. I miss you so much Sage. I know that you are looking at all the mess that’s going on everywhere. I can just picture you shaking your head and laughing out loud. You always had the funniest laugh. There’s so much that I wish I could share with you. I wish I could hear your voice.

Thank you Sage for being such a great friend, through and through. I love you!

My Brownie,
Happy Thanksgiving to you. Grace and I love you so much. We spent yesterday decorating the Christmas tree. Grace actually helped this time. Lol. The deal was that she would help me cook, but instead, she stayed on her phone; doesn’t matter, she’s still My Grace. The holidays never get easier, I am just learning to be steady in the storm. All the kids are growing up alone with our newest niece, Cassidy (aka Lil Boo); she is too cute. Love you always.

Happy Thanksgiving Keesh!!! You were heavy on my mind today! Miss you friend! ❤️

Heavenly Thanksgiving daughter, I miss you more an more everyday Daughter, these holidays are not nice to me. They make me sad an bring tears to my eyes . I love you more today then I did yesterday, your MOM

I miss you daughter more today then I did yesterday

Daughter, your mom miss an loves you

Daughter, I wish you was here with me .

Missing you daughter,can’t seems to sleep at night, I wish you was here, I’m still trying to make it though life without you, an it’s not easy,it gets harder every day, the family needs you, rite at this moment. I know you looking down on us an saying my family needs me. I love you daughter.

Keisha, I’m sitting at my desk thinking about you. I miss you so much!!

Daughter, you are so missed, an you are very much needed by everyone , I know I probably say this to much but I miss you an I think about you every day all day. I love an miss you more today then I did yesterday

Miss you daughter , another holiday without

Hi Pretty Girl,

I love you so much and I miss you like Crazy! Thank You little Mama for being such a Beautiful Presence in my World!

Trying to navigate through this mess has been the hardest, I literally depended on your words, such an old soul!

I got you!!!

Miss you so much daughter

Daughter, your mom miss you so much, your Grace is a joy, Grace still talks about you, I can’t imagine how it is for her not to have you in her life. She ask me to make her a baby photo book an a photo book about you. I just want to thank you for Grace . She is a special an smart little girl. You already know what’s going with me. Love you daughter.

Love you my beautiful daughter