ForeverMissed
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His Life

August 28, 2012 - 29weeks exactly (7mths)

July 26, 2014
Mommy got dropped off at 6:50pm. I had doubts for staying, didn't like hospital. They called me & brought me up to l&d to get checked. I apologize as you seemed ok. Monitors hooked up- nice & loud hearing your heart beating away. Nurse turns it down, & I play & rest not paying attention to monitors---- at 8pm everything turned for the worse. We had been in distress for 45mins- & they couldn't figure out why. They rushed us in for delivery. & put mommy to sleep- as they were prepping, you began moving like crazy. I literally thought u were trying to kick out of me. & that you were telling me you were ok.... Nobody ever warns you about too much movement :( At 8:34pm you were born by crash emergency c section. You cried. You kicked. You looked at dr stone. There was soooooo much blood. They kicked daddy out of room. They worked on you for several minutes. At 9:07pm you passed away. You weighted 2.2lbs & 14.5"long You looked just like daddy. You are perfect. At 9:15 mommy came out of surgery to hear what no mother ever wants to hear "I'm sorry he's gone" No No No he's fine. Everything's ok. They brought you in & I tried doing skin to skin, I tried nursing, I placed you over my heart.... I sang. I cried. I begged God for a miracle. Mommy & you suffered from a complete silent placenta abruption. You lost a lot of air the few minutes prior to delivery. Enough, to cause brain to begin shutting down. Shayne you fought so hard to be here, you are such a fighter. I am forever sorry that you are not here.

August 2012

July 26, 2014
Crazy weather! Went to Scarlett's birthday. On daddy's birthday we went & bought your bedding and car seat. Eeeekkk were getting so close to meeting you, I no you're going to come early mommy has been in so much pain. 8-28-2012 Tuesday, was a typical day for us. Daddy came home from expo late Monday, and all of us were getting over a cold. We went & ate at toms farms I ate breakfast burrito which made me very sick. I went home & rested. Later we went grocery shopping & when we got home brothers & I are cookies & watched cartoons. Mommy started having chest pain, more then ever before. I made dinner (mayo crusted chicken) I didn't eat because I felt horrible. I gave brothers a bath & debated laying down or going to hospital. Daddy was getting ready to go to work & grandma just got here- so I decided to go get seen, I felt miserable.

July 2012

July 26, 2014
This month has been pretty busy with family visiting from out of state. Everyone loved rubbing my belly & saying hello to you. We went to knots & papa got us a wheelchair, mommy could hardly walk. We also got approved to see a physical therapist because of mommy's hip displasia. We celebrated Ry's 4th birthday with all our loved ones at jerseys. Mommy was told by a few how much weight I lost :( I looked as horrible as I have been feeling. Wearing 1 size pants smaller then pre-pregnancy We saw you in 3d you were sleeping entire time but looked just like your brothers. Heart rate was perfect. In fact, Buffy kept letting us hear it because Ry loved it.

So sick...

July 26, 2014
For the last few weeks I have been violently sick with morning sickness. I keep telling the doctor, but because I haven't lost to much weight & Shayne looks healthy they tell me everything is ok. I don't see how it's ok- I can't keep food down at all, I'm weak, I had to teach Rylan how to call for help, I am learning to multitask with a bucket. Keep on moving little man, or mommy will freak out. I just pray you are getting all the nutrients you need, take it all my love. They prescribed me meds to help with nausea- it's prescribed to cancer patients - I don't feel comfortable taking it :( I'm going to try ratting as healthy as ever & see what she says at my next dr apt-

It's a boy!!!!

July 26, 2014
Kenny & I are happy to announce we are expecting another BOY! Rylan & Hunter are thrilled they're having another brother. Shayne Reed Morris we cannot wait to see you- we love you so much already. 12.5wks pregnant

March 12,2012

July 26, 2014
Today we found out you were growing inside me! We are beyond excited & just pray everything goes good. Cannot wait til November