It's the day after your birthday you have so many people that love an miss you so much our lives have not been the same since you went away . Yesterday you celebrated your first birthday in Heaven you an grandma both have had your first birthday in Heaven . Grandma has also celebrated here first anniversary in Heaven an no sooner I feel I can make it thru there is another one of you guys anniversary or a holiday that sends the memories flooding back . I know you an Justin are watching down over Jaden he is such a smart an special little boy however he makes it somewhat easier when he does certain things that so remind me of you when you were younger . He is a minuture version of you an Justin . We'll darling I wish you a very happy birthday an that we love you an miss you so much give grandma , uncle fats ,your great grandma an grandpa, uncle Wayne an most of all garland a hug from me an tell them all I love an miss them so very much an that each one took a piece of my heart with them some took a lot . So keep watching over us an at times let me know you are with me love you !!!!

My last time I saw you was Wednesday July 24. I saw you while I was there to pick up the car and the last thing we told each other was I love you and you told me to call when I got home just like always. I talked to your mom Thursday and she said you had gone out with Rebecca but that you wouldn't be late. My next conversation with your mother was her telling me to pay attention carefully that you had been in a car accident and we're hurt. I needed to get to Baltimore Shock Truama as soon as possible because they were flying you there. All I could do was cry and couldn't image that you my favorite would leave me that day. It must have been meant for me to be there that day because when I arrived at the hospital you were flying over. They let me see you and I told you I loved you which I always did tell you this because I did love you and still do you are my heart. I waited for your mom to get there but she took what seemed like forever. They told me they were taking you into surgery and I called your mom then they came in and told us that it was worse than they thought and then later they came in and told us something that I could not believe that my baby was gone. I still today can hear those words and it still breaks my heart to know I will never see my beautiful baby girl because I may not have gave birth to you but you are/ were my baby from the time you came into this world. Now when I go to your moms I wait for you to come through the door and say aunt Gail can I borrow 20 dollars.....or scream just because it is quiet. Shelly there will never be another like you Jaden is so much like you and Justin and will forever know how much his mommy and daddy loved him....I love you to the moon and back and there is not one day that goes by that I don't think of you or miss you.....

That day you were in the kitchen that morning learning how to make sausage gravy for your an Jaden breakfast .. Later that day you took Jaden to get a haircut an did a few other errands that day ... came home an took pictures of Jaden to post to Facebook for everyone to check out his new hair cut ... You got together with your sister Rebecca an had made plans for later in the evening you did a few more things that day an came home we watched TV than you said you were going to lay Jaden down for bed I never in a million year would have thought this would be the very last time you would put him to bed he must have known it wasn't a good idea for you to go because by 9 he was still not asleep you came down an said mom can you keep Jaden while I go out as I always jokingly told her no I will be okay an I told her to go ahead she says mom I won't be late I have to work in the morning I said go have fun but please don't drive home if you drink she says mom I won't I learn my lesson I said just remember that an you walk out the door .... hours later I receive the phone call that no parent wants that you had been a accident ... I rush to the hospital they had you sedated heavily bit you could hear us they said an they they told me you were begin flown out to Shock Trauma an my heart fell only a few hours after begin there you were taken to surgery an after one hour they can out an told us things didn't look good an another team was in trying to save you 40 minutes later they came out an gave us the worse news I had told her several times to be strong she had a little boy that need her ... Well I can say is that I hope you knew how much I really loved an cared for you .....