Sharshoury,

Time passed and it is only now that I can write and share how it felt, how it feels and who you are to me, as a tribute to you on this website. Only now because some time had to pass until I could believe that you are no longer here and even today It is still hard for me to believe it. However time has passed, years have passed and the passing of time and my inability to talk to you or see you has put me on the spot. 
Your departure was the hardest thing I went through so far in life. Not Nouny's illness or any of the other hardships that happened throughout the years , none of these were as hard as your loss. It caused me inner insanity for some time and changed me forever. It also woke me up, brutally yes, but woke me up nonetheless. Woke me up from any delusion, misconceptions of life I still had. It made me see the world in a totally different way. And this Sharshoury has always been our connection. We are sisters and used to tell each other things that we would not tell anyone else. We used to sit on your couch and talk, cry, get angry, laugh hysterically about it all, and express our raw emotions and thoughts. Sometimes be in your room, on your bed when we were younger and needed your advice. Each of these talks always changed us a little bit. Guided us somehow towards a different understanding of things. I miss you. I miss you during my sad times and my happy times but the happy times are always the hardest. I always tell myself that you are in a better place, in a beautiful place, as beautiful as you. Filled with flowers, with purity and with spiritual magic. But no matter how much I repeat this to myself it doesn't take away this painful feeling inside of me...this disbelief and fear to realize that you are gone. I don't know any one like you. Never met anyone like you in this world and I never will. You were so perfectly pure and kind that it was hard for some people to believe that this perfection could be real. They doubted its truth because it is very difficult to believe that people like you could exist. But yes it was real and yes it was true. I never doubted your angelic spirit. I wish that I was not living so far and that I could see and talk to Youssef on a regular basis. I am so sorry that this is not the case. But you are always on my mind and so is he. I Thank you for all the years you gave me with your presence. I love you my Sharshoury and I miss you. Until we reunite again. Jico