Happy Heavenly Birthday! I still miss you so so much, but I choose to focus on my gratitude for all the years I had you in my life. I was so blessed to have you as a cousin. You were so dedicated to loving me, teaching me and lifting me up. And I took it all in and hopefully, gave you a portion of all that love back. Thank you for everything. We miss you and we love you and know that you’re forever with us, in our hearts. Love you.

Always missing my little big sister.

Sunday Jan 20th marks the 1st year anniversary of my wife's Shirwana's Homegoing. It's been difficult for all of our family and friends as we still don't fully understand this part of life's journey.
I am confident that she is where we all want to be and that we will all have that great reunion in the future. I The grief, depression, hurt and pain are very real and they don’t just go away.
But God has not left me. He's
been here all the time. I trust him even while I hurt, even through tears, even when everything in me and around me is failing! I now realize there is healing through hurting and healing through tears. So I lift my head and lift my heart … because I know I am in good hands. God is Good!!!

A letter to my dearest Wife,
This time last year we were together. As 2017 was ending and 2018 was beginning, I clearly remember us toasting together and given thanks to God for guiding us through another year. As we did for the past 25 years, we will sit down and evaluated the good and bad of the previous year and drew up a plan of improvement for the New Year coming. Of course, that was your idea, since you were the smart and organize one in our relationship. You always wanted it done before midnight. I remember there were many times you would get angry with me because I wanted to watch the football bowl games that were on that night, you use to yell at me “Cut that TV off “. I always gave in, and we will sit down and talk about what we can do better in the upcoming year in relations to our marriage, family finances and our parenting skills with our daughter. WE HAD A PLAN. But God had a different plan for 2018. A few weeks into the new year, God decided it was time for you to come home. And just like that you were gone. So now today as 2018 leaves and the 2019 approaches, I find myself alone sitting on the couch watching the football games. But in the mist of watching the games, I felt your spirit telling me to get up “Cut that TV off” and start putting together a new plan for our daughter and myself for 2019. So, I did just that. Despite that fact that I had to do it alone this year, I completed that plan (before midnight) using the same blue print you put together for our family all these years. You would be so proud of me. I am writing this letter to thank you for teaching me the lessons of preparation, and organizing a family plan each year. Happy New Year to you my wife. You are truly loved and missed.
I share this letter with my family and friends not to create a sad moment, but to honor the women I learned so much from the 25 years we were together. I am better man today because of her. Listen and learn from your spouse. Thank you for reading. Happy New Year to you all…

Happy Birthday to my dear sister. I miss you so much. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about you. The tears don't fall as much but the pain is still very real and present. Forever in my heart. Your sister, eternally.

My Wife Shirwana,
Today is another first without you. Today we celebrate your birthday.
This day will be a emotional day, just thinking back on all the birthdays memories we created over the years will bring joyful tears to my eyes. My heart continues to hurt each day you are not here. But I take comfort knowing you are with the Lord on this day and every day. Our daughter, family and friends will stop for a moment today and reflect back on a happy birthday memory they shared with you.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE. YOU ARE TRULY MISSED

Glenn, after reading your tribute, I was so lost for words because I miss my sister so much. As I'm organizing things at the house and finding so many pictures that brought back great memories...OMG! I find myself smiling and crying at the same time. Thank you for taking care of my sister and loving her as much as you did. You've posted so many pics, I was wondering if there was any space for me to post.. LOL
I love you Wana and miss you, but you left me too soon.

The smile and the laugh will forever be in my heart.

My Dearest Wife,
Twenty-three years ago, today, God has blessed me with the most wonderful women a man can ask for. We were married on this day and I can remember it like it was yesterday. October 7th 1995. It was the most beautiful day for a wedding. I can clearly recall that smile you had on your face as you walk down the aisle in that beautiful dress. I also remember when you arrived to take my hand before the Pastor. You asked me why I was sweating. As you knew I was nervous as a man can be that day. Surrounded by many family and friends, that day turn out to be the perfect day to marry my best friend. I have been so blessed that God put a woman like you in my life to be my partner. Yes, a partner you were. Being my wife was not a easy task. You had plenty of roles you had to play. Somedays you had to play nurse, teacher, cook, maid, advisor, supporter and Mother (for my immature days acting like a child, which I did a lot!!) But regardless of what you had to do, you were ready to put on any hat to take care of your husband. I loved you so much for that.
Our partnership was our partnership, we didn’t compare our marriage to any other marriage. you were good at things I was bad at, and in turn I was good were you was not.  People use to wonder how our marriage lasted so long when we didn’t have any thing in common when it came to hobbies and things we like to do. I love sports, and watching sports, you disliked sports (except the FALCONS, YOU LOVED). You like to shop and watch home shopping and house flipping channels. Which I disliked. But we both knew without saying anything to each other, when it was time for me to spend a day and go shopping with you and you would go to a game with me or sit down and watch sports with me. That was our marriage and it worked for us.
So today, our first anniversary apart, I want to say thank you for the best 23 years and the memories I will never forget. I am thankful for your support, caring and loving over those years. I am missing every bit of that every day. God placed you in my life and now he has taken you home and put you in a place where you will continue to watch over me. I feel your spirit every day.
I will continue to visit our favorite restaurant SIRINS, and sit down and have our anniversary dinner as we did every year, and make that same toast, “ THANK YOU LORD, WE ARE STILL TOGETHER”
Happy Anniversary my Love.

I received an email message today from Glenn Tuitt and immediately opened it on my iPhone because that’s what you do when family and friends reach out to you no matter what time it is or what the need may be. I was relieved to see you’re OK after I read the message it took me back to so many (great) memories.
Your message posted today is an excellent reminder to enjoy each other and embrace the moments we have together with enthusiasm and selflessness.
It will be the little things that you will remember, the tranquil moments, the smiles, the belly laughter. And although it will be difficult today, it will be the memories of these little things that help to push away the pain and bring the smiles back again.
This tribute for Shirwana is wayyyy overdue my brother! Your anniversary message to your best friend is beautiful wow! I can’t recall how many years ago it was when our doorbell rang, and you were standing with a beautiful woman on our front patio. I’ll say it was close to 19 or 20 years. I’m still searching for those pictures (Kodak days) and I came across a few pics of your wedding day, enjoy them.
Our entire family will always speak of our friendship and memories we have made and will continue to make. I wish we could wave a magic wand to change certain outcomes, but one thing for sure that will never change is our love and friendship to you and your family.

Shirwana,
You were one of the strongest women and moms that I have had the pleasure to work with. Your legacy will be carried on by all who remember you. I believe the crown you now wear is even more stunning than any of us can imagine. Thank you for loving Glenn and Shianne so well!

Shirwana you were truly an Angel. A beautiful warm spirit gone too soon. You are truly missed. Love you my friend, til we meet again.

My dearest Wana,
Today twenty two years ago we purchase our first home. I can remember that day like it was yesterday. I can still see the joy in your eyes when we first walk through the door as new homeowners. I remember the first night we slept in the home and all we had was a mattress laid out in the den. You sat up all night putting together the layout of every piece of future that was going into the house. I can remember how excited you was to get started decorating the house, and decorate you did. I remember shortly after we moved in, both of our moms came by and prayed and blessed our home, and we have been blessed all these years, God has protected our home and family. Today there is a huge void in this house, a emptiness at I can't explain. As I sit here and reflect on how much you loved to host family gathering and crab boils with your girlfriends. I can remember our first gathering here, We had a fight party, "Holyfield/Tyson Fight" your entire family was here. What a fun night that was. I can still here you screaming at me to pick up my shoes from the den as you were cleaning up to prepare for company coming over.. What I would give today to here you scream that to me just one more time. I still remember the days when I will come home from a long road trip, I would be able to smell what you were cooking all through the house when I walk through the door. That was your way of telling me "Welcome Home." Over the years you have create such a loving and family environment to our home. A place where many our friends and family have personal memories. Some days I will just sit and look around the house, admiring all the decorations and décor you have bought to the home. Although you are not here in flesh, I still feel your spirit all through the house. This will always be our home, Shianne and I are truly blessed and thankful to you for leaving us this beautiful home.
So today , As we did every year, I want to say HAPPY FIRST HOME ANNIVERSITY to you my love! Your Husband " Fatboy"

I really miss my friend and partner in crime. I really miss the funny stories about life experiences. No one could tell a story like her. No matter what was going on, we would talk and I would feel a lot better about the situation. And I truly miss her telling me I was HTL, hard to learn. Miss you everyday my friend.

Glen brought Shirwana to NYC and we went out to dinner in a restaurant in Brooklyn and he pulled me to the side and he said she's the one.

Missing my sister in law who made me feel like her real birth brother everyday we talked or saw each other. She will be missed forever!!

Oh Wannie, I miss you so much I don't even know what to say. But as sad as I am that you are no longer with us, I'm even more grateful for the full life you lived and all the lessons you taught me and memories we shared. As I prepare to host our family for the upcoming holiday, I'm painfully reminded that you won't be here to help me plan, set up, clean up, eat and laugh. So, I shed a few tears. But for every tear there's a happy memory and I just pray that you're resting well in heaven and watching out for us down here that love and miss you dearly!

You will always remain in my heart. Oh how i miss you. You left ever lasting memories with me. Heaven is a wonderful place and i know you are there. We will meet again in That home on high. Love you much my sister, my bestfriend.

I am missing you everyday my love..