well this year was super tough i was tested i tried to come join you i slept for two days and then by some merical i woke up to see your two beautiful sisters you see baby girl mommy feels guilty that i couldent save you i feel like i should have known what was goimg to happen it was my job to protect you as your mommy i am so sorry some day he will have to face what he did but please know you were a perfect blessing to me i am so thankful i was blessed to be your mommy i love you sierra rayne bennett now & forever till my very last breath leaves my body and then i will be with you always

IN LATE SEPTEMBER I WAS GOING TO ENROLL BACK IN HIGH SCHOOL TO HAVE A BETTER FUTURE FOR YOU AND CHRISTIAN I MADE A CRUTIAL MISTAKE I TRUSTED THE WRONG PERSON A TERRIBLE TERRIBLE THING HAPPENED THAT NIGHT ALL I HADE TO LIVE FOR CAME CRASHING DOWN AROUND ME I WENT BACK TO THE WILLIAMSPORT HOSPITAL EMERGANCY ROOM THIS TIME MY TEARS WERE NOT TEARS OF JOY BUT OF SORROW HURT AND PAIN I WAS BROKEN I WENT HOME WITH A HEAVY HEART KNOWING WHAT WAS TO COME EVERY DAY I SUNK A LITTLE LOWER THEN ON SEPTEMBER 16TH I STARTED TO DROWN THE DAY HAD CAME I COULD NOT BREATHE I COULD NOT EAT I COULD NOT SLEEP ALL I COULD DO IS WISH I HAD NEVER LET HIM IN MY DOOR I WAS A KIND LOVING PERSON TO THE WRONG PERSON AND YOU WERE TAKEN FROM ME FOR IT NOT A DAY GOES BY THAT THAT DAY IS NOT PLAYING IN THE BACK OF MY HEAD . PONDERING WHAT COULD HAVE GONE DIFFRENTLY .

ON THE WEEKEND OF JULY 4TH I CAME HOME TO JERSEY SHORE FROM TEXAS AFTER A FEW DAYS I WAS SICK IT LASTED LIKE TWO WEEKS SO I WENT TO THE WILLIAMSPORT HOSPITAL EMERGANCY ROOM I THOUGHT I HAD THE FLU WHEN THE DOCTER CAME IN AND MUTCH TO MY SURPRIZE BOOM I WAS PREGNANT I WAS SO EXCITED I BOUGHT EVERY THING YOU WOULD NEED WITHIN THE FIRST FEW MOUNTHS I WAS ALREADY IN TOTAL LOVE ME AND YOUR BROTHER CHRISTIAN COULDENT WAIT FOR YOUR ARIVAL