5 Years

Shared by Feather Fenwick on June 1, 2016

So yesterday was your five year mark of passing. You are missed and loved more each day. I wrote this for you, a bit ago. I hope you like this. I know you are happy, with your mom and your son by your side, love you forever 

Dad

Within every waking hour

In every aching step

I am painfully reminded of you

I wait restlessly for a sign

A calling that would rest my fingers

Something I suppress still

I am searching at every turn

Where are the bright lights they spoke of?

When will I know you've come back?

You're in such a euphoria

You wouldn't be able to recognize my name

My face has morphed into the unfamiliar

I find myself unafraid of your embrace

To hear of all the magic you've created

To smile in your awaited wake

I've loved you, missed my teacher

No soul has yet managed to hold position

Why should they even try?

You are where my soul belongs

In debt to your kindness and thought

In every bird of every bird

In every minute on my swing

You are always with me 

Dad

Shared by Feather Fenwick on May 24, 2013

The two year anniversary is steadily approaching and it all seems quite crazy to me. I still cannot believe you died, you, of all of the people. (tbc)

MY FRIEND SUPREENIA

Shared by BEKAH STEINH0UR on September 6, 2011

WHEN SUPREENIA TOLD ME HAD MARRIED  A GUY SHE HAD ONLY KNOWN THREE MONTHS, I THOUGHT SHE WAS CRAZY.  I HAD TO SEE FOR MYSELF.  I WENT TO SEE HER AND WOW!  I HAD ALWAYS WANTED HER TO FIND SOMEONE WHO LOVED HER FOR WHO SHE WAS.  SOMEONE THAT COULD LOOK BEYOND HER BEAUTIFUL FACE AND SMOKIN BODY (:-)) AND SEE THE REAL PERSON INSIDE.  ALLEN DID.  I SAW HIM....I SAW HIM LOOKING AT HER WHEN SHE WASN'T LOOKING.  I COULD SEE THE LOVE AND AMAZEMENT IN HIS EYES.  THAT'S WHAT I WANTED.  HE LOVED SUPREENIA, THE GOOD AND THE BAD.  HE LOVED HER IN THE WAY WE ALL HOPE AND DREAM TO BE LOVED. 

SOON AFTER MEETING ALLEN, I MET MY HUSBAND.  IF IT HADN'T BEEN FOR MY DEAR FRIEND, AND ALLEN, I MAY HAVE WAITED TOO LONG AND MISSED OUT ON THE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO ME.  WE TOO ONLY KNEW EACH OTHER THREE MONTHS BEFORE WE GOT MARRIED.  MY HEART BREAKS WHEN I THINK OF ALLEN AND SUPREENIA APART.  I KNOW, HOWEVER, THAT THEIR HEARTS ARE MELDED TOGETHER FOREVER.  EVEN THOUGH WE CAN'T SEE HIM, I KNOW HE'S THERE WATCHING OVER HER AND THE KIDS.

I LOVE YOU SUPREENIA.  I ALWAYS WILL.  EVEN THOUGH WE NEVER SEE EACH OTHER, AND RARELY TALK, I CONSIDER YOU ONE OF MY DEAREST FRIENDS.  I WISH I COULD HAVE KNOWN ALLEN BETTER, BUT I KNEW ALL I NEEDED TO KNOW.  IT WAS WRITTEN ALL OVER HIS FACE WHEN HE LOOKED AT YOU.

HE WAS A WONDERFUL MAN INDEED.

Shared by Carla Monroe on June 21, 2011

Supreenia, Jerry, Ann and family,  I have a few fond memories of Allen as kids.  We didn't see each other often as we were extended family but I do remember him from church and at some of the reunions.  We had a great time riding motorcycles together when I turned 16 and got my license.  I hadn't seen him in years but will always remember him.  God bless you all and my prayers are with you during this time.

Carla Monroe

Tarzan!!!

Shared by Supreenia Fenwick on June 21, 2011

The first six months we were married, we lived in Fordland, MO in a camper on five acres. The land was full of trees. The plan was to clear part of the land to make room for a double wide or build a home. Allen was partial to the double wide. Anyway, one day while we were clearing the land, Allen grabbed a hold of a tree vine. He was being all cocky and said, “Woman me Tarzan!” As he proceeded to show off his Tarzan like abilities, the vine broke in mid swing and he fell flat on his ass, on a rock. I laughed so hard and I yelled, “Yeah you Tarzan, Tarzan the falling man!”. There would be many times throughout our marriage I would call him Tarzan the Falling Man. He would always  just smile and shake his head. 

 

I miss that smile, he had so many different smiles each with their own meaning. My favorite and most annoying smile, was his biggest. The smile was filled with a laugh and the dimples in his cheeks would deepen and there was a sparkle in his eyes! When I saw this smile I knew he was getting ready to do something ornery, which was often! Yes, I miss that smile. I miss hearing his laughter and his annoying practical jokes and the ornery comments. 

 

His Character

Shared by Supreenia Fenwick on June 21, 2011

Allen was an amazing man who cared about people. He was always there to lend a helping hand. While Allen was always there for others, he had high expectations and standards for those he helped. He wanted to see them become more and to help themselves. He worked hard all of his life and he never complained. I believe this is due to the soldier heart and spirit Allen had. He loved his country and the Army. 

 

In Allen’s life, no matter how busy he was, he always put family above all else. While he was a strong man, he had a soft spot for his family. He came home ever night and he was always there to see his children cheer, dance, act, or play sports. He loved to ride his motorcycle, often with his daughter Elena and he loved to go to MacArthur High School football games, not only to watch the game, but mostly to watch his daughter Feather dance. He also loved going to the range with his friends. 

 

Allen was and is my heart, my soul, and my life.  He would always say he was my savior and I would always get mad, but honestly, he was. It was him who got me to let our daughters go to church and it was him who brought me to God and allowed my soul to be saved. He brought me out of my hell and gave me more than I could have ever wanted. He spoiled me and always forgave me. He loved me more than any man could love a woman and more than I deserved. 

 

I have no idea how to live without him, I feel dead inside and incomplete. However, I will continue to live, for it is through me, our children, our friends, and family that Allen will live on. I will hope and long for the day, Allen and I will again be reunited and that I will see his sweet smile, feel his soft breath, and feel the safety and security of his arms. No man could ever replace him or even come close to his greatness. 

 

Our Beginning

Shared by Supreenia Fenwick on June 19, 2011

 

The first time I met Allen, was in 1998, when I began real estate school. He was a real estate agent and a construction worker. Before I knew his name, I saw him across the room and I knew that I was going to marry him. I went home and told my mom. Not to long after that, I was so sure I was going to marry him, that I bought a wedding dress before he and I were even a couple.
I had asked about Allen and soon the broker of the real estate school and company came over to talk to me about Allen. He told me that Allen was not married, how unhappy Allen was, how Allen deserved to be happy, and what an amazing man Allen was. I told the broker that I liked him and would like to get to know him better. With that, the broker paired us up so that I could learn from “the best” on how to be a real estate agent. Allen always drove a truck and often the broker would go with us and I would have to sit in the middle. I loved being so close to Allen and I would always brush my leg and arm against him. I had caught him staring at me many times and he flirted a lot when we were out of the office. I remember that I would wear appropriate but short skirts and high heels to work and I would come and sit on top of his desk and cross my legs while he was sitting there doing paperwork.
 One vivid memory I will never forget is when Allen and I went to check on a house that was listed for sale. I guess since I had been teasing Allen, he was going to get revenge. As we were walking through the home, he would get very close to me and made a point of getting so close I could feel his breath on my face. He pretended to trip and we just happened to land on the bed of this home, where he acted like he was going to kiss me but did not. I thought my heart was going to explode.
Soon after Allen left real estate, as his construction company took off. He would be traveling most of the week around Missouri and Kansas building, fences, decks, and swimming pools. He asked me to go with him and be one of his workers. Which of course I did, I impressed him because I worked harder and better than most of the men he hired.
I do not know exactly when we kissed, but not too long after we did and eventually we became a couple. At the time, I had blonde hair, not a good look for my ethnic features. So, I dyed my hair back dark. I showed up at his house to go on a construction job, when I stepped out of my car, I will never forget the look on his face. I knew at that moment he was mine and that he loved me. He could not move or breath, he was entranced by me. In fact, on this particular construction job, we went to Popular Bluff, MO. After work we went to a small bar for a couple of drinks and Allen and I danced and he told me he loved me for the first time. I will never forget how I felt when he said those words. It was as the world had stopped and all noise went silent.
Not too long after, I asked Allen to marry me. I had this Native American ring I always wore and I tossed it to him and said lets go to Vegas and get married. He said all right, lets go and so we did. We only had $300, barely enough for gas, but we did not care. We drove all night from Missouri to Vegas and stopped only to sleep a couple of hours in the truck. When we arrived at Vegas, we stopped at a hotel/casino, The San Remo (now the Hooters Hotel, OMG). We went in and asked the guy at the front desk how much a room was for the night. The guy asked Allen, “What price do you think is fair?” Allen being his normal ornery self said $10, and guess what that is what we paid. We had a cup of change we always kept during our trips and so we used it for gambling, it was fun. We also found an all you can eat prime rib buffet for $4.99 per person. We went out walking around and came upon a timeshare tour. Of course, they asked why were in Vegas and we told them to get married. They told us if we went on the time share tour, they would pay for everything for our wedding, send a limp to pick us up and everything. So we did and we got married for free July 13, 1999. The only negative was we had no money for pictures and so we had a couple take pictures while we were outside the chapel, but the film was stolen. I have no pictures, but I have plenty of images and memories in my mind. On the way home we stopped along the desert and made love on a blanket next to some cactus. We also stopped at the Grand Canyon and took pictures.
We were so in love and so married. We had only known each other for three months when we got married. We had twelve years together, before God took him May 31, 2011. Through all the pain and tears, even if I had known my husband would be taken from me early, I would not change marrying him. In fact, marrying Allen is the best decision I ever made.

Guest Book Entries

Shared by Supreenia Fenwick on June 19, 2011

June 04, 2011
Mrs. Fenwick, children, Jerry & Ann, and family of Allen. I would like to extend my deepest sympathy in the loss of your husband, father, and son. May the Lord Bless you and comfort you and keep you close as you go through the feelings of loss. God Bless you all.
Jeannie King,
Hutchinson, Kansas
 
June 04, 2011
May the peace which comes from the memories of love shared, comfort you now and in the days ahead, Although no words can really help to ease the loss you bear, just know that you are very close in every thought and prayer.
Melissa Simons,
Greeley, Iowa
 
June 04, 2011
To the family and friends of Allen, I have thought of Allen and his family for several years and never got the chance to tell him thank you for the kind words and encouragement he gave me during our school years together. I am truly sorry for your loss and may God keep you in his loving arms during this tearful time.
Sincerely,
Lyndee Kilgore Bastow
Lyndee Bastow,
Valley Center, Kansas
 
June 04, 2011
Our heartfelt condolences to Mrs Fenwick and other family. Met your husband while my husband and I were signing papers, so our son Jason could join up and then again, when he took my son to Fort Sam to be sworn in. Mrs Fenwick, we met earlier this morning at the station. Please, if I can assist you in any way, please let me know. My email is: mary_homrighaus@yahoo.com

May the lord bless you and help you thru this diffucult time.
Mary Homrighaus,
San Antonio, Texas
 
June 04, 2011
You are all in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time. Allen was a wonderful person and made things fun when he was around. I will never forget all the memories of the pranks and jokes that he would pull when we were kids. 

May the Lord bless you and be with you during this difficult time.
Brenda Sydow,
Salina, Kansas
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
June 04, 2011
Staff sergeant fenwick was my recruiter. He did so much for me. I was blessed enough to meet him and have him as a recruiter. My heart goes out to his wife and daughters. He will be missed very much.
gloria
 
June 04, 2011
To Jerry, Ann, and all of Allen's family, please know that our thoughts and prayers are with you at this time. I have such fond memories of Allen when I did my student teaching in his 1st grade class nearly 40 years ago. God bless.
Dick & Laura Renollet,
Myrtle Beach, South Carolina
 
June 04, 2011
Jerry, Ann, Teresa, Jerry Ann, and Supreenia and kids. My heart breaks for you all. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I have so many fond memories from my childhood of being at Allen's childhood home and playing many games with Teresa, Jerry Ann, and Allen. Those are some of the many times I cherish. May God provide to you all the peace that passes all understanding in this time in your lives. Much love to you all!
Mary Norris,
Hutchinson, Kansas
 
June 04, 2011
Allen and i have been friends for over 20 years ,yet we never saw each other as much as we like we always stayed intouch over the phone.We had some great times together, I will deeply miss my good friend.My prayers are with all his family.Wish I could be there for all Uncle Sam Trumps all.
Roger Burbank,
Stafford, Kansas
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
June 05, 2011
Jerry, Ann & Family....Please know that you all are in our thoughts and prayers in this difficult time. I remember riding the "Church Bus" with Allen on Sunday mornings!!
Todd Renollet,
Lyons, Kansas
 
June 05, 2011
You are all in my thoughts and prayers. I have such great memories of Allen as a baby, toddler, young man, and an adult. He was a wonderful cousin and loved by many, many people including me.
Cherry Donley,
Sterling, Kansas
 
June 05, 2011
To all of Allen's family, my deepest sympathy in your loss. I had the privelage of knowing Allen for many years in the Kansas National Guard. He will be greatly missed.
Dinah Johnson
 
June 05, 2011
Allen, I know you are in Heaven looking down on us and I may be calling on you from time to time when I need an Angel to hold my hand. Every time I think of you I do so with a smile on my face. I was telling a friend about the time we had a running feud on one of my visits to Sterling and you hung all my undies on the shrubs at your parents house, which really embarrassed your mother but the rest of us thought it was a great prank. I didn't see you very often but I will miss you so very much.

I met your lovely wife when you came to Mother and Dad's 50th anniversary and I know she is a great lady because you choose her for your wife and partner and she said, "Yes."

Uncle Gerald and Aunt Ann, you did a wonderful job raising Allen. I know how proud you are of him and it was obvious how much you love him. I'm so sorry for your loss but I know you have comfort knowing that he is in Heaven waiting for us to join him.

Teresa and Jeri Ann, I know that Allen was a typical older brother but that he was special to you and hearing him talk about you, you were also special to him.

My heart goes out to all of you and I am praying for peace and comfort for all of you.

My Love to you all
Taffy Haulmark,
Clarksville, Arkansas
 
June 05, 2011
So sorry for your loss.....your family has been in our thoughts and prayers and will continue to be. May God give you the strength to get throuh this difficult time......
Elsie Critchfield,
Sterling, Kansas
 

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