It took me a long while to find anything about Steph online, and that broke my heart. I spent a few months crying for the loss. Alone in my grief because I don't like social media and try not to live in my past, so I had no one to share my hurt with. [I know I wasn't 'alone' alone, just physically alone in it, because I am no longer connected to our mutual friends from then.] For Steph, I tried hard to find anything about him just so I could see him once more, for him, making an exception to my silly rule was a must. I knew him through high school and university. I loved him very much because he made me feel very loved, he was just like that, he had a talent for making people feel beautiful. He saw things differently and interpreted that with his art. His patience in friendship and creating was beautiful. I felt comforted by him, just being around him. He was always welcoming to me, even though I was a dark moody person in my youth. I was so glad when he was dating Michelle (I don't know if she's alive anymore but if she is; I'm sorry if she reads this and feels sad). While he was with her I was able to be closer to him because well, because then things were just simpler.
I wish I'd known things were so bad for him, I wish I could have done something to help. Because of him I'm going to make more effort in helping the homeless than I have in the past, at least, that's my hope.
Last night I dreamt of being with him again and so I told a friend about it and they found this site for me. :)
I didn't really ever get to know his siblings, I was quite selfish in those teen years, I'd like to thank them for creating this site, I feel it was a gift from God Himself. That 10 minute video was more than I ever hoped to find! To see his face, hear his voice, see the brightness of his smile again was almost too much to bear. I still hope more of his friends contribute to this site and add more photos and video. Greedy huh?
I will pray for those who have felt his loss as I have, or deeper. I hope you find comfort in knowing his life and kindness left a life long impact on my heart and I'm sure, the hearts of many others. I truly hope he found Jesus and came to a saving faith in finding the peace of God before he died. I always wanted him to find peace and contentment, he had such brilliant potential. Did I say he ways loved? He was, by me and still is. I hope you don't mind my anonymity I thought it would be easier to share openly if I did it anonymously. :)
I will probably visit again if I remember a cheerful story from our past. Right now all I can remember was a demented thing he'd do when he was bored and I think that might not go over well...though it's making me laugh pretty hard as I think on it.
Beautiful genius, gone too soon. <3
...anyone remember hide and seek in his huge front yard?