"FATHER GOD: Trust me, as a dad, a father-in-law, and a granddad: God would rather have you messy than not have you at all."
"Go and fight your ideological, philosophical and theological arguments amongst yourselves. I’ve already lived out my worldview. Meanwhile, I’m going to go to the beach and make sandcastles with my grandson" [Sy stated; as an amazing pa pa with his grandkids].
"CONFIDENCE IN HIS CHARACTER: Better to run to God, not from Him! Only the devil would want you to slink away from God in some kind of shame. God, however, wants to convince you that He loves you. It took quite a while for Him to convince me, but I’m glad He did."
"God does not cut corners, nor do less than His redemptive best. He will work it all out, His way and time."
"NOT OVERLOOKED: God says He names the stars, which demonstrates personal ownership over creation. He says He counts the hairs on my head, which indicates intimate, detailed awareness. Best of all, God says He saves my tears. This rather poetically and concisely means He has overlooked nothing in my history. It all matters to Him because I matter to Him. I can only conclude then that when the time is right, and I am ready, He will heal and deal with all that caused those tears."
"PERSPECTIVE: I will never live as if my past never happened – so stop expecting that out of me. However, what you have observed for more than 3 decades is that I’ve learned to build a life beyond it."
"REALITY: The blood of Jesus washes away my guilt, thank God. However, it does not wash away my memory, or my history or my vulnerabilities...that’s the stuff I’ve got to learn to reckon with. And ‘reckon’ I can."
"SOME FOLKS JUST CAN’T HELP BUT SPECULATE if I am, you know, really, REALLY ‘free’ from my past – as if I’m unaware of whisperings behind my back. I don’t quite know what they are expecting from me. Swagger? It matters too, exactly what one means by ‘being free.’ I am free to live for God, on a path that I believe He has for me...but is any Christian free from vulnerabilities, or the risk to sin? I am free from guilt and resulting separation from God, but I still grow old, and will one day die. I am free to make new choices and new history in spite of my history, but I still have a degree of memory. But I am free to submit those memories to God when they bubble up, and then be on about my way."
"Think of me what you will. Your opinion of me doesn’t really matter. However, what you think of God and His Christ very much does."
"IF I WHO AM CORRUPT, can love my daughter more than she will ever know (until she has her own) how much better is God’s love towards us! That truth does not make me relax about sin, BUT it DOES cause me to relax a bit more with my humanity – and God’s heart towards humanity."
"Grandchildren are a wonderful reward in the ‘senior season’ of my life. Everything else is pretty much body betrayal. We are indeed a passing breeze...the grass of the field that sprouts then withers. But a new morning awaits."