Dear 
I had to sit down and write and let you know what is on my heart,

I last told you about robin I was mistaken but i love her just the same. I thank God for her and her conviction on Marriage Vows and I am proud of her on her stand. but she is still my daughter and I will always need her

Dear I am hurting really bad by being hurt by Peggy I have never been hurt this bad in my whole life The hurt goes very deep and I at one point thought about taken my life (and the thought is still in my mind) I can't go on like I am going I hurt to bad I can't take my mind off of her everywhere I look she is always there wheather it on the computer, The phone, or just staring out into space I see her face, even in my dreams.

People will tell me i am crazy and maybe so. That I should go on a dating service and find someone else, I don't even have a heart to do that. It brings back to much memories of her, I hurt to the point that I stay in my bedroom in bed and just cry my heart out and just stare out into space and my mind on Peggy when Renee or the others come around I put on a good face and try not to let them know how hurt I am. I don't eat much or drink enough fluids, I am so hurt I don't want to.

Dear this is going to sound crazy even to you, I don't care how much I was hurt or what Dear I am still in love with Peggy I love her so much and I wish that God could work a miracle and bring her back, she probily doesn't  even no how much that I am hurt even to the point that I had to be place in the hospital for 2 weeks. I love her and it hurts right now talking about her I want to cry and cry till there is no more tears. Since she has block me out I wish someone could convey to her just how much I love her and care for her.

I wish people could understand what I am feeling down deep in my heart and why I am hurting so bad? I am not happy and not enjoying life as I should I hear songs and that brings back memories. She is probly having fun and not thinking about me or the love we had together, and wished I was dead, that is alright, I will go on loving her and wishing we were together again

I will go on living a life of lonelyness and crying for you to come back. PEGGY I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL ONLY YOU CAN MAKE ME HAPPY AGAIN. Until then I will go on hurting with pains and being Heartbroken and crying No body understands what I am going through and the pain that I am having lnside. I tell people that I am alright when I am not

Dear if you happen to see a woman wondering around and needs love send her my way, I want to be happy again and have fun, but right now I don't for see it. Dear if you can will you tell Peggy I am still in love with her.

I am praying for a miracle that I find some one to love, Please Help me Dear God to find that special woman that I can love and give my heart to.

I love you dear. I'll talk to you again

Ps; I told Robin she could read this. 

My Darling Syble I want to talk to you cause you are the only one I can talk to and you will listen and not think that I am crazy.


It is so lonely without you. Here goes I have found another person she is like you in so many ways and I fell in love with her. She is so very Beautiful on the outside and inside and she is gorgious, wonderful, precious and she is everything I would want in a wife. Plus she would make a Beautiful wife, someone I could adore and appreicate someone I would sat up on a pedestal and worship the ground she walks on, and would want to take care for the rest of my life.Dear she is so wonderful and I love her with all my heart,

 Dear you would love her. Dear there is so much I would like to tell her about what is really in my heart and how I really feel about her but I am afraid she would reject me and not want to talk to me again. But dear i want her so bad I don't care about our age diffrence. I want her for my wife, to hold and to cherish in sickness and in health for better or worse Dear I love her so much that tears began to flow and my heart is broken cause we can't be together where I can hold her in my arms. My heart aches for her and I want to be with her to see her lovely face and to kiss it. I want to feel her hands in mine. I want to tell her all of this but Im afraid she doesn't feel the same about me and i just lay in bed and cry, i love her, want her and need her to make my life complete, and have the woman of my dreams.


Dear I wish you could speak a few words to Robin and tell her how I really feel about  her. SHE IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE and i will wait for her for as long as it takes I want her as my wife. Please Robin want you married me and let me take care of you. You could make me the happiest man on this earth when you say " I Do " Oh Darling I love you so much and I think God for you. God works in mysterious way to bring two people together that loves each other


Dear she is so precious and beautful both outside and inside as I said you would love her to death and make great friendsn, she is so much like you and I know if we were to get married you would bless the marriage.  My heart belongs to her. Dear I pray that one day she will make me very happy 

 

On Nov 28 we went to view my Wife body, my Daughter Renee, her husband , my other daughter Tammy, April Brown and her daughter Laci. Grand daughter Crystal and Grand son Daniel, Myself and two Minister.


I sat in front of my wife holding her hand and tears running down my face the others were talking. As the tears ran down my face I thought about the good times we had together traveling to the Carribbean Island, Taking Cuises through the Carribbean, going to Barbados, the Bahamas and a trip that meant the best to us both and that was a 10 day trip to The Holy Land were it made the Bible come alive.


We had our ups and down but we would always would work through our prolems and would never go to bed mad at each other we were always consderate  of each other and we done for each other, I never call her by her name, I always would call her "DEAR" We look after one another adwe would never complain about anything other that she was cold and I was hot wanna guess who won?


We got marry on April 5, 1962, in six months we had only dated 3 times cause of the way we work, She was a Nurse and I drove a ambulance, when she was going to work I was getting off and when I went to work she was getting off, we might have one day together each week.


On may 3rd of 1963 She gave me a sweet 5.4 oz beautiful baby daughter and if you wasn't careful you could lose her. I did several times in the crib. we had to use doll dresses to dess her, handifrice for diapers. On October 3rd 1964  God bless us with our 2nd daughter who turn out to be our smartest daghter and later in life would take care of her mother and me .  and on August 28, 1968 we were bless with our 3rd daughter, she was a wonderful daughter and would do anything to help anybody, today she helps look after me


On November 26, 2012 My wife passed away from Breast Cancer and I miss her dearly, She meant the world to me and was so      beautiful. I will miss her


I LOVE YOU DARLING