ForeverMissed

This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Tabitha (Thibeault) Merchant who was born on September 13, 1984 and passed away on March 30, 2007. We will remember her forever.

Posted by Tony Thibeault on September 13, 2020
Its your 36th Birthday Tabitha, Oh how we wish you could celebrate it with us. Our Hearts are full of sadness on this special day even more so than usual. Your in our thoughts daily and it still hurts as much today as the day you left us. We're glad you don't have to deal with this pandemic knowing you as you worry so much about things like this. We are keeping your children happy and safe by providing them with a stable and safe environment to grow like normal kids. There is a hearing coming up soon to decide where the children will be staying until they can establish their own independence. Please help us help your children feel safe and secure. We miss and Love you so very much and will see you again and finally be able to feel your touch. May God hold you in his keeping until we meet again. Until then we will be missing you every single day. Love Mom, Dad Jazmyn and Jayden   
Posted by Samantha Flanders on September 13, 2020
Tab-a-ma-tha!!
Happy birthday babe!!!! 36 years ago you were born an angel and 22 years later you left us to be a real angel ... all these later it still breaks my heart but knowing I’ll see you again makes the pain a little more bearable . Our beautiful baby girls are so grown up! Makaila is 16 now! In a few more months Jaz will be 16 like how? Every time I see her it’s like I’m looking at you!  Your kids are so beautiful and growing so quickly ! Be proud of your family for taking care of them so good! I know they’re trying their best to do good by you ... raising teens is so exhausting mentally and physically but so worth it! I can’t express enough how much I miss you and your dimples . I love you so much Tabitha ❤️
Posted by Tony Thibeault on August 23, 2020
Hello my precious Tabitha, Sure has been awhile since my last entry, but that doesn't mean I don't think about you each and every day. Every time I look at Jazmyn and Jayden I think of you when you were their age. Your Mother and I really Love and miss you so very much.
Posted by Tony Thibeault on March 30, 2020
                   Tabitha Lee (Thibeault) Merchant
                     09/13/1984 to 03/30/2007

            The absent of words do not indicate the absent of thoughts. Our silence is often consumed with mixed emotions and memories within our Hearts. We've come to realize that no matter how much time stands between us, the pain of losing you just doesn't get any easier and as life goes on without you we can't help but think that sometimes the memories are just not enough to get us through the day. Today we reflect upon this 13th Angel Anniversary and realize that our heartaches will always be a reminder of the absent of your presents.
Love and miss you more than words can describe. Mom & Dad
Posted by Tony Thibeault on February 1, 2020
Good morning my O-P-Lay-Lee. It's been awhile since I have written, but we want you to know that your always in our thoughts and of course in our Heart. Jazmyn and Jayden are still with your Mother and I. They have had it pretty rough over the years and are trying to adjust. We really need your help though. We have forgotten how tough it was to raise teenagers. We want to teach them right and have them grow up to be like their Mom. They have been very vocal about wanting to stay with us because we allow them to be the kids they want to be. We are hoping the judge will see this and allow them to stay. Although its rough as we live in a very tight space, we are making it work until we know the extent of their stay. We're hoping for a positive outcome when we go to court on February 5th. The ideal situation would be for their Father to have the ability and desire to raise these kids in a Loving, safe, stable and suitable environment, but we all know that's probably not going to happen until he can admit to himself that he needs to change and actually change. He has had 12 years to get it right. We're sorry these kids had to go through so much trauma before people realized the extent of the issues, but their with us now and we love them so much and want to do what is right. I know that with your guidance from above and your Mothers and my Love we should be able to overcome this situation. As always we Love and miss you so deeply and wish you were here. Until next time We will always keep you near. Love always Mom and Dad
Posted by Tony Thibeault on September 13, 2019
Memories instilled in our untamed Heart, when we hear your name since we had to part. Spoken words will not heal our soul, our silence consumed with memories, we cannot control. As we reflect on your 35th Birthday, we realize that our Heartaches are a reminder of the absent of your presents however we can take comfort in knowing that someday we will be together forever. Happy 35th Birthday Love Mom and Dad
Posted by Tony Thibeault on May 16, 2019
Just dropping by to let you know I'm thinking more and more about you lately. I though this was suppose to get easier over time, but I guess that's just a myth because I miss you just as much today. I Love you so much
Posted by Tony Thibeault on March 29, 2019
Tabitha Lee (Thibeault) Merchant
09/13/84 to 03/30/07
The absent of words do not indicate the absent of thoughts. Our silence is often consumed with mixed emotions and memories within our Hearts. As we reflect upon this 12th Angel Anniversary, we realize that our heartaches are a reminder of the absent of your presents. Love and miss you more than words. Mom & Dad
Posted by Tony Thibeault on January 25, 2019
Today is Jazmyn's 14th Birthday. Oh how she has grown. She needs your help so desperately in overcoming so many obstacles she has endured. Please keep an eye on her and guide her in the right decisions. She misses you so much and wishes you were here to watch her blossom into the beautiful young lady you were. We all miss you and Love you so much.
Posted by Tony Thibeault on September 13, 2018
Another year has past without our precious Tabitha, the pain of losing you is just as heartbreaking today as it was 11 plus years ago. Today is your 34th Birthday and we all wish you the happiest of day. As we reflect on your special day, we remember how much of a loving, caring and special young woman you were. Your children Jazmyn and Jayden are truly a blessing. Jazmyn shares your hardcore no nonsense personality while Jayden possesses your kind, Loving and sensitive personalities. Oh how we all miss you and wish you were here to watch your children grow. You are very missed and Loved by so many. Your Mom and Dad, Brother, Sister, Nieces and Nephews. Aunts and Uncles, Your children Jazmyn and Jayden, although they don't remember very much, they will always have us all to share your legacy. Your husband Terrance, friends and community members. We will keep your memory alive through sharing those memories with your children, each other and in silence. (Forever). Always remember that the absence of words do not indicate the absence of thoughts. Until we meet again Your ever Loving Father and Mother.
Posted by Tiffany Nedeau on September 13, 2018
Tabitha, I had my 3rd baby! September 5th! His name is Weston James, he weighed 8 lbs 12oz and was 21 inches long! He is so perfect you would just eat him up. Anyways I wanted to wish you a very happy birthday! I miss you so much and even afteral these years the pain of losing you feels as fresh as it did 11 years ago! I wish you could meet Taby who started MIDDLE SCHOOL! Dawsen who is now in 2nd grade and baby Weston of course! ♡ I know you would spoil the crap out of them and you would be the cool Aunt lol ♡ I wish you could see your babies and the wonderful people they are turning into. When I am having just a horrible day and am missing you I just look at Jazmyn......omg she looks like you! Acts like you too.....drives me insane lol jk (kinda) ok well that's it for now. Again I miss you so much & I love you!!!!!
Til we meet again ♡
Posted by Natasha Jelley on September 13, 2018
Happy birthday beautiful girl , I miss you sooo much . I look at jazzy and all I see is you. You’re missed by so many everyday . ! Today’s a very special day, I’ll keep you in my mind all day long ! Tomorrow’s zaydens birthday!! You guys almost shared a birthday !!! Lol that would have been cool ! You and zay and tiff and laiken !
Posted by Tony Thibeault on July 16, 2018
My dearest Tabitha, I have come to realize that the pain of losing you will never go away, and although it has been over 11 years since God called you home, the heartache is still very real. When I miss you the most, I just close my eyes and reach into my memories just to be with you, even if only for a short time. I feel your presence and my Heart if filled with happiness. I Love you Tabitha and miss you beyond comprehension.
Posted by Ruthie Warren on March 31, 2018
Tabbyzzz,
  I miss you so much, everyday. Your the only sister I ever had! I still can't believe after all this time that you aren't here. Your the first person I want to call when something amazing happens, your also the first person I want to call when everything is falling apart. It still breaks my heart that my beautiful babies will never get a chance to know and love my very best friend! Luckily for them though I know your watching over them and ME! I forget alot that your there until something happens and then I get this over whelming feeling that I'm not alone and I've made it this far because I have you! Omg! I'm crying so hard I can't even type now but I love you and I miss you so so much I can't not wait to meet again. LOVE always RUTHIE
Posted by Tony Thibeault on March 30, 2018
Sending our thoughts and a whole lot of Love, to our beautiful Angel (Tabitha} from Heaven above, you are safe, you are home and you are free, we are left behind with just our memories. Although at times we feel so alone, we look forward to the day you take our hand to guide us home. Until then you will be forever in our Hearts. May the good Lord bless and keep you while we’re apart. Until we meet again. Love Mom & Dad -- Jazmyn & Jayden
Posted by Nicole Rossi on March 30, 2018
Tabby I wish we would have been closer as we grew older, I think of you often and your always in my heart and mind. I wish our children could be closer and my daughter could have had the pleasure of meeting you! Your babies are as beautiful as you are and in amazing hands. I wish I could be closer with the family and maybe one day we will be.
I love you Tabitha
Posted by Tammy Thibeault on March 30, 2018
I love you my sweet girl Always and 4 ever until we meet agine my heart hurts love you and miss you tons me and dad are taking care of the kids for now please keep an eye on them when they return home and I will also I'll do what everr i need to do love always mom
Posted by Tony Thibeault on December 25, 2017
Missing my O-P-Lay-Lee
Merry Christmas
Posted by Tony Thibeault on September 13, 2017
Our Hearts are aching beyond words. Missing our Angle from above, more than words can describe. We Love you Tabitha and wish you were here. We really need you more than ever.
Posted by Tony Thibeault on September 13, 2017
Happy 33rd Birthday to our Angel up above with heartfelt tears and all of our Love. Love and miss you Tabitha
Posted by Tiffany Nedeau on September 13, 2017
33! You would have been 33 today!? It has been over 10 years and I still fund it hard to believe that we will never again celebrate a birthday together. I miss you so much! I wish you werre here to see Taby and Dj they would have loved you so much.....I love you big sister always and forever ♡♡♡
Posted by Tony Thibeault on May 13, 2017
Wishing you a happy Mothers Day Tabitha. It hurt to know Jazmyn and Jayden have to grow up with out their Mom. I know you would have been a great Mother. I could see it in your eyes the short time you were here with your Children. Although they don't remember you, They will always know you through your Mom and I. Looking forward to the day we can all be together Love always Daddy
Posted by Tony Thibeault on March 30, 2017
Wishing you were here to watch your children grow, teaching them your wisdom and everything you know. I speak to them through my memories and through my love, I make sure they know your watching from heaven above. Its been ten years since we had to part, Always remember that I love you, from the bottom of my Heart. Rest in peace my little girl, we will all meet in Heaven when we leave this world.                                      Love Daddy
Posted by Tony Thibeault on December 25, 2016
It's hard to enjoy the Holidays without you Tabitha (My O-P-Lay-Lee). As I scroll through your picture's today, I get a sense of emptiness within. Some picture's make me happy and some make me sad. I will always remember and cherish the times we had. I see a lot of you in Jazmyn and Jayden. Its like watching you grow over again. I think of you a lot. I Love and miss you beyond words or thoughts. You will never be forgotten. Love your Daddy
Posted by Tony Thibeault on September 13, 2016
So many memories, so many tears, I would give anything to have you here. As long as your in our memories and in our Hearts, we will always Love you and never be far apart. Jazmyn and Jayden helps keep your memories from fading, for we see you in everything they do. May God bless and keep you until the day we can reunite. Happy 32nd Birthday my Angel    Love Daddy
Posted by Tj Thibeault on September 13, 2016
Happy birthday little sis. I love you and miss you everyday.
Posted by Terri Brown on September 13, 2016
Happy Birthday,
Tabitha
I love and miss you so very much
Posted by Samantha Flanders on March 30, 2016
Hello beautiful! 
I can't believe it's been 9 years since I've last seen you... Time goes by too quickly . I wish I spent more time with you... Sometimes I wish I didn't move so far away, but you were always my friend and I'm grateful I got to know you and meet your babies! Jaz looks so much like you! I've seen recent pics and I can't believe how big they are . I just wanted to let you know you'll never be forgotten and you're always missed! I miss your face! I love you tab-a-ma-tha ❤️
Posted by Tiffany Nedeau on March 30, 2016
9 YEARS! :/ It is unbelievable that it has been so long since I have seen your face! :( I miss you so much today and everyday! I wish you were here to see your nieces and nephew! :( I have the pictures of you and Tabitha Dawsen and I often look at them and even tho they didn't meet you they will always know who Auntie Tabitha was! I love you big sister always and forever.
Posted by Tony Thibeault on March 30, 2016
"Angel"
Tear drops, slow and steady, the pain so real and true,
God took another angel, and that angel, dear, was you.

Angel wings, upon the clouds, your body softly sleeps,
Hush now little princess, no more tears you have to weep.

Memories and little prayers, we all are mourning you,
But we will all celebrate the short life you led; we will never forget you.

I know God will look after you, now you are truly alive,
Your spirit soars beyond the moon, your legacy will survive.

You are beautiful, you are endless, now stretch your wings and fly,
We love you so, I love you so, but now we say goodbye.

Close your pretty eyes, no more tears, just go and rest,
Let your soul lie peacefully, we know you did your best.

It was your time, so as we cry, go forward that extra mile,
You did what you were sent to do, you made everybody smile.

By: Christelle Dardagos
Posted by Tony Thibeault on February 9, 2016
Missing my O-P-Lay-Lee
Posted by Natasha Jelley on September 13, 2015
Happy birthday my sweet angel
Posted by Tiffany Nedeau on September 13, 2015
Happy birthday big sister I love you forever and always. Miss you everyday <3
Posted by Tony Thibeault on September 13, 2015
Tears instead of wishes, Flowers instead of cards, You left us precious memories that will stay within our hearts. Thinking of you on your
birthday we speak of you still, We haven't forgotten you and we never will. There's a place in our hearts no one can fill, We love and miss you Tabitha and we always will. Love our O-P-Lay-Lee Mom and dad
Posted by Tony Thibeault on September 12, 2015
In Loving memory of our precious Daughter Tabitha,
           Sept 13th, 1984 thru March 30th, 2007

We have tried so many times to describe the feeling of loss and despair that followed Tabitha's death. We don't think we will ever manage to completely convey our true feelings.

There is nothing worse than caring for a child, loving it and dreaming of its future only to have it ripped away from you. The Pain of losing your child is so incomprehensible to those who have not experienced it.

Tomorrow Tabitha would have turned 31 years old and how we wish we could have seen what a beautiful woman and mother she would have become. We can only imagine where she would be at this point in her life.

    The emptiness we will always have in our hearts, she used to fill with her smiles, laughter, kisses, kindness and her love. As time goes on we miss her more and more and look forward to the day when we will be together again.

       Our lives have to go on with only her memories and pictures. Although it’s not easy, we do take comfort in knowing that she will be with us and until we are together again she will always live in our Hearts

Happy 31st Birthday Tabitha, We love and miss you so much

                                                 Love
                                            Mom and Dad
Posted by Kyliegh Cutter on September 11, 2015
Tab I know tab tiff baby and we both love each

other I hope you know that me and tabby nedeau are like you and tiff my mom says hi.this is beautiful tony
Posted by Samantha Flanders on April 6, 2015
Hey beautiful! It's been a long time! Too long.. I've been thinking about you a lot lately and hanging out with Tamara! I miss those days! I wish we could go back to that time for one day! But it wouldn't be enough. Happy birthday, Mother's Day, merry Christmas , happy thanksgiving , happy Halloween! Every holiday I've missed. I miss your kids! You were an amazing mother and I know you're watching over them! Do you remember the time you came over my house and used Nair for the first time? Lol "is this SUPPOSE to burn?!" ... "Uhhh I think we did this wrong " we had a lot of good times! Best memories of my life are with you! I miss you every day. If you could find a way to come back, please do!!! Your family. Kids and friends miss you and want you here more than anything! You were a good friend and I'll never forget the awesome times we've had! I miss you! And I love you tab -a-ma-tha! <3
Posted by Tony Thibeault on April 2, 2015
A poem written in memory of my daughter Tabitha

As the years have gone by with out you at my side, I still find it hard to find the words to describe, The feelings of despair which I can not share. Its been eight years since you’ve been gone, I think of you every day and sometimes all night long. My Heart has a very big void, Which I have try to fill with the memories of our laughter and Joy, I will always miss you this much is so We will be together soon this much I know. Until we meet again, always remember I will keep you in my heart and Love you for ever.

            Love always and forever your Dad.
Posted by Tammy Thibeault on April 2, 2015
hey hun its been awhile have some health problems but you no me wont let it stop me. I miss you more and more everyday a lot of changes this passed year but not by my choise but ill get threw that too jazmyn and jayden are so big now and we talk about you often wish you could be here to see tiffanys kids and tjs littlest one Olivia and how big mary now is it is so unfair that you have to miss out on all this you should be here with us all any way  I love you and I miss you so very much love mom
Posted by Terri Brown on April 2, 2015
I wanted to stop by today to say I love you so much and how big your little ones are getting so big, love them so much Jazzy looks just like you, Jayden is my angelboy and getting big as well. love you miss you every day HUGS AND BIG KISS'S
TALK AGAIN REAL SOON LOVE YA BEAUTIFUL
Posted by Lillian Thibeault on March 30, 2015
You are so missed by so very many. Does not seem that long ago that you left to live with our Lord. The kids are so great and turning into great young children. I know that you already know that as you are watching all of us. I do miss you a lot and until we
meet again just know we think of you always. Love, hugs from. Gram
Posted by Karina Reed on March 30, 2015
My Tabba,
I miss you like crazy ! I have a beautiful little boy now , he's perfect bright blue eyes and beautiful tan skin with curly hair, you would absouletly fall in love with . It's been a rough four months with him . He has a bad heart condition and before surgery I had a fear of losing him .. Worried he would stop breathing at night. I would think of you long nights without sleep and knew you would want me to stay as strong as possible the seven hour long surgery he had I just sat there looking up hoping you would keep him strong enough to make it through it and he did ! You honestly are my guardian angel ! He's getting stronger each day and I thank you for that ! I will always be thinking of you and as preston gets older I'll have him come with me every year to your grave to wish you a Happy Birthday . You made me who I am today <3 Ill be the best mom ever for preston and also you ! Love you my Tabba wabba
Love your
Blue , purple , pink and yellow
Keep my baby safe please he's my life

Forever and always I will be thinking of you <3
Posted by Natasha Jelley on February 7, 2015
Hey tabby,
  It's been to long.. not a day goes by that I don't think of you ! I miss you so much! Im 19 now, amd am going to have my own little nugget in september ! Im hopeing her or she is gunna wanna come september 13th, everyone thinks that would be so cool. Your little nugget jazzy is getting too big! She looks just like you!! Absolutely beautiful, kills me every time I see her. She reminds us so much of you, from the Big heart to the beautiful person she is. I try to see her as much as I can so she has some one to talk to and feel comfortable with. When I talk to her I feel like I'm talking to you. You were like a big sister to me, i miss you so much tabby <3 

      Xoxo
         Tasha :*
Posted by Tony Thibeault on September 13, 2014
The emptiness we will always have in our hearts, Tabitha used to fill with her smiles, laughter, kisses, kindness and her love. As time goes on we miss her more and more and look forward to the day when we will be together again. Happy 30th Birthday, We love and miss you so much.
Posted by Tony Thibeault on March 30, 2014
7 years ago at this moment was the hardest time in my life. Unable to breath life back into your lifeless body, I find myself feeling a sense of emptiness that could never be filled. My life changed on this day 7 years ago and I don't think I will ever be the same person again. I think of you often and wonder how things would be today if you were still here. I find some comfort in knowing that we will be together again some day. Knowing that you will be there to guide me through the gates of Heaven somehow make me feel a sense of comfort. I have kept your babies in my life all these years and they are growing so fast. I speak of you every chance I get and will never let them forget their Mother. I Love and miss you so much my O-P-Lay-Lee. May God bless and keep you until we are all reunited in the land of eternal life. Love you always Dad.
Posted by Tiffany Nedeau on March 30, 2014
Today marks 7 years that you've been gone! I can't even believe it. It seems like only yesterday we got the news that you were gone not a day gies by that I don't think of you and wish that I could just have one more day to tell you how much I love you! Everything is just going by so fast its ridiculous I miss you so much! Until we meet again I will be thinking if you and all the great memories we share. I love you big sister forever and always <3
Posted by Lillian Thibeault on March 30, 2014
I remember the day as most of us do. I was in Colebrook at my brothers when I got the news. It was the next day when I got back that we hugged and cried. She was and still is a special gal. The kids are growing fast-as you can see!- Jazmyn looke a lot like her gorgeous Mother. Love and miss you. Gram
Posted by Terri Brown on March 30, 2014
7 years today, can't even believe it it still hurts like it was yesterday I don't ever what to get a phone call like that again not a good wake up call. Jazzy & Jayden are getting so big, Kris says he loves you and miss's you like crazy you were and always will be his TA-TA.
I miss you so much, miss seeing your BEAUTIFUL FACE,
miss talking to you, hearing your voice,
LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOR EVER.
LOVE AUNTIE
Posted by Nancy Goodsell-Daneault on March 30, 2014
Love you and miss you so much love you sis
Posted by Tiffany Nedeau on November 20, 2013
Hey Tab,
It has been a while since I last wrote. Have been thinking about you a lot the last few days! How so much has happened since you left us! My kids are so big Tabitha is 6 now and Dawsen just turned 3...I can not believe how fast it has all gone by. Mary is HUGE she is as tall as me and I am not exaggerating at all! Now we have a new beautiful niece Olivia Rose Thibeault born just 5 days before my birthday! She is so darn cute and I love her so much and I know you would too and you would love Katie she is such an awesome person & a great friend! I look up at the collage Jay & I have of you in our living room and think of all those good times we had together. How you always wanted to be pregnant with one of your friends & ended up being pregnant with your sister and you were so excited and so was I. I could not have imagined a better moment for when I told you. I think you might have been more excited than me lol. I just think of all these things and just thank god that even though our time together was short it was always amazing. You were the best big sister I could have asked for and even though we fought (ALOT) I loved you with every ounce of my heart & soul!
I love & miss you! <3
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Posted by Tony Thibeault on September 13, 2020
Its your 36th Birthday Tabitha, Oh how we wish you could celebrate it with us. Our Hearts are full of sadness on this special day even more so than usual. Your in our thoughts daily and it still hurts as much today as the day you left us. We're glad you don't have to deal with this pandemic knowing you as you worry so much about things like this. We are keeping your children happy and safe by providing them with a stable and safe environment to grow like normal kids. There is a hearing coming up soon to decide where the children will be staying until they can establish their own independence. Please help us help your children feel safe and secure. We miss and Love you so very much and will see you again and finally be able to feel your touch. May God hold you in his keeping until we meet again. Until then we will be missing you every single day. Love Mom, Dad Jazmyn and Jayden   
Posted by Samantha Flanders on September 13, 2020
Tab-a-ma-tha!!
Happy birthday babe!!!! 36 years ago you were born an angel and 22 years later you left us to be a real angel ... all these later it still breaks my heart but knowing I’ll see you again makes the pain a little more bearable . Our beautiful baby girls are so grown up! Makaila is 16 now! In a few more months Jaz will be 16 like how? Every time I see her it’s like I’m looking at you!  Your kids are so beautiful and growing so quickly ! Be proud of your family for taking care of them so good! I know they’re trying their best to do good by you ... raising teens is so exhausting mentally and physically but so worth it! I can’t express enough how much I miss you and your dimples . I love you so much Tabitha ❤️
Posted by Tony Thibeault on August 23, 2020
Hello my precious Tabitha, Sure has been awhile since my last entry, but that doesn't mean I don't think about you each and every day. Every time I look at Jazmyn and Jayden I think of you when you were their age. Your Mother and I really Love and miss you so very much.
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Shared by Tony Thibeault on March 30, 2013

My O-P-Lay-Lee
Tabitha Lee (Thibeault) Merchant
9/13/1984 to 3/30/2007

I have tried so many times to describe the feeling of loss and despair that followed the death of Our Daughter Tabitha 6 years ago today , but I don't think I will ever manage to completely convey my true feelings. No Parent should ever have to go through this, there is nothing worst than caring for a child, loving it and dreaming of its future only to have it ripped away from you. The Pain of losing your child is so incomprehensible to those who have not experienced it.

Our daughter Tabitha was born September 13th, 1984 at 6:38 pm at Concord Hospital in Concord New Hampshire. She weighed 5-lbs 14-oz and was 19” long. She was a breached baby and had to be brought into this world by cesarean section. It was such a joy watching her grow from her first steps to potty training, her first day of school to learning to ride a bike and then driving a car and to becoming a wonderful Mother. I was very proud of the young lady she was becoming. Tabitha had a fascination with Butterflies and white tigers. She enjoyed hanging out with her friends and spending time with her best friend whom happens to be her Mom. She enjoyed chats and long drives thru the country side with her Daddy. She was a shy child but had a heart of gold and would always do for others before considering her own needs. She fell in Love with her soul mate Terrance John Merchant in 2002 and Married November 11th, 2005. Her greatest moment of happiness was on January 25th, 2005 when she started a Family of her own with the birth of her little girl Jazmyn Marie Thibeault and again on March 15th, 2007 with the birth of her little man Jayden John Merchant.  

Tabitha passed on March 30st, 2007, at approximately 6 am as she was getting ready to feed her newborn son, Jayden, just 15 days old. The last time I saw her was around 8pm the night before, while brining her home for the evening as she loved spending her days with her Mom whom was also her best friend. I can remember helping her up the 3 flights of stairs to her apartment with her newborn son Jayden and 2 year old daughter Jazmyn. I kissed them all goodnight and told them I would see them the in the morning.

The next morning around 830am Tabitha’s husband Terrance called from work to say he could not get a hold of Tabitha by telephone and wanted us to check on her, My wife Tammy tried to call Tabitha and could not get an answer. I was just getting out of bed. My wife asked me to go and check on Tabitha as she usually called by then to see if her Mom could pick her up and bring her to our house for the day. I remember thinking that Tabitha was probably just sleeping in because after all she was a new Mom and was very tired. I leisurely finished my breakfast and got dressed and proceeded to go to my daughter’s apartment a little down the road.

As I was driving to my daughter’s apartment I remember silently laughing to myself as just a few days prior Tabitha had inadvertently got locked out on her balcony by her 2 year daughter Jazmyn. My silent laughter suddenly turned to concern as I drove up and did not see her on the balcony. I buzzed her apartment and could not get a response, As a tenant was coming out I hurried and got the door and started to run up the 3 flights of stairs as now I was starting to panic that something was wrong. I heard some children crying and was hoping it was not my grandchildren. I got to the door and confirmed that it was Jazmyn and Jayden crying. I proceeded to call for Tabitha to no avail, now being scared I loosened the screws to the plate over the lock and opened the door to find the chain attached. I continued to call for Tabitha and still got no response. I proceeded to push the door in and ran into the apartment.

 I remember seeing Tabitha lying on the floor in the hall with the babies’ bottle in hand as I shook her to see if I could get her to respond. I noticed Jazmyn holding Jayden on Tabitha’s bed as if she was protecting him. They were both crying. I called 911 and started CPR on my own child as I kept telling her she had two children to raise and could not leave them. I remember it seemed like forever for the paramedics to arrive as I so desperately tried to get some kind of response from her and cried for help. The paramedics finally arrived and knocked on the door; I hurried and went to the door. The paramedics took over for me and tried to revive my daughter as I tended to the children. I called my wife Tammy and told her to come over as something was wrong. She came over and the paramedics advised us that Tabitha had passed on. They told us that she had been gone at least three hours. I remember Tammy asking why does’ God hate me so much. I tried to comfort her as I was trying to comprehend the severity of the situation. I remember becoming nauseas and sick to my stomach, I felt as though I must have been dreaming a horrible dream, and all I wanted to do was to wake up, it just didn’t seem real.

 So many emotions consumed my thoughts since this dreadful day, Dealing with guilt that maybe we could have done something to prevent her death. I started to blame myself and others for not being there when she needed us the most. I became angry at Tabitha for leaving her children and all her loved ones too soon. At times I still feel a complete sense of emptiness because she is no longer physically present.

 I cherish her memories, some good and some bad, some make me happy and some make me sad. I am reminded of her through words and through songs, I miss her more and more as the days go on. I do take comfort in knowing that in Gods wisdom he has called Tabitha home and released her from the bonds of sin to welcome her into his presence, so that she may enjoy eternal light and peace. Although Tabitha’s life on earth is done, her journey to eternal life has begun; we love and miss you every single day. May God bless and keep you until we meet again.                                                                                                                                                                                                                             

From the Family of Tabitha Lee (Thibeault) Merchant We would like to thank all our family friends and the community, although there are no words to express the heartfelt gratitude we feel for your overwhelming thoughts, prayers and support for our family during our darkest hour. Our hearts will never forget the things that made it feel so light. It will keep in loving memory your smiles so warm and bright. The words of real encouragement that kept us from despair, the little deeds of thoughtfulness that softly say you care

                                            In Our Hearts

We thought of you today, but that is nothing new, we thought of you yesterday and days before that too. We think of you in silence, we often speak your name. Now all we have are memories, and your picture in a frame. Your memory is our keepsake, with which we’ll never part. God has you in his keeping. We have you in our hearts.

                                                                                      

 

                                                                 Tony & Tammy Thibeault & family

In Loving memory of our precious Daughter Tabitha,

Shared by Tony Thibeault on September 13, 2013

                        Sept 13th, 1984 thru March 30th, 2007

              We have tried so many times to describe the feeling of loss and despair that
followed her death. We don't think we will ever manage to completely convey our true feelings.

              There is nothing worse than caring for a child, loving it and dreaming of its future only to have it ripped away from you. The Pain of losing your child is so incomprehensible to those who have not experienced it.

             Today Tabitha would have turned 29 years old and how we wish we could have seen what a beautiful woman and mother she would have become. We can only imagine where she would be at this point in her life.

             The emptiness we will always have in our hearts, she used to fill with her smiles, laughter, kisses, kindness and her love. As time goes on we miss her more and more and look forward to the day when we will be together again.

              Our lives have to go on with only her memories and pictures. Although it’s not easy, we do take comfort in knowing that she will be with us and until we are together again she will always live in our Hearts.

               Happy 29th Birthday Tabitha, We love and miss you so much

                                                         Mom and Dad