Mama I will forever miss and love you. I will be visiting this page more often. I wish I could have gotten to know you through you. Not everyone else. I again love you so much and will forever miss you and you will always be in my heart. Always and forever and you never leave my heart because I know you would have been the best mama if you were still here. I get all my natural beauty from you and you would have been my light. No… you are my light to do whatever I want in life. Not whatever in a bad way but in a good way and you will never leave my heart and soul. 

Tabitha Lee (Thibeault) Merchant
    09/13/1984 to 03/30/2007

           The absent of words do not indicate the absent of thoughts. Our silence is often consumed with mixed emotions and memories within our Hearts. We've come to realize that no matter how much time stands between us, the pain of losing you just doesn't get any easier and as life goes on without you we can't help but think that sometimes the memories are just not enough to get us through the day. Today we reflect upon this 17th Angel Anniversary and realize that our heartaches will always be a reminder of the absent of your presents. Love and miss you more than words can describe. Mom & Dad Jazmyn & Jayden

Thinking about you so much these days. Wishing you were here because I know things would be so different with Jazmyn and Jayden. Jazmyn is going through so much. Since the weekend with her dad, she has been out of control with her demons and her inner self. She can’t help herself something triggered her actions as of late. Her and Jayden have been through so much and your Mom and Dad have been there for them as much as we could. Jayden has days feeling empty and anxious. Jazmyn is at the county jail waiting to go to the psychiatric unit to get the help she so desperately needs. We just can’t deal with the day to day drama and hope we made the right decision by getting her some help. It is absolutely one of the hardest decisions your Mom had to make. I know Mom, Jazmyn and Jayden all need our Love and support. We all miss and love you so much and hope you can guide Jazmyn through this so she can have a happy and productive life. Love always Mom-Dad-Jazmyn and Jayden

To my O-P-Lay-Lee, I need to vent. I am at my whits end with Jazmyn and could use some of your help. She is going to be 19 years old in a couple weeks and all she can do is think about boys and doing whatever she wants. She has no respect for herself or others. Your Mom and I have been nothing but good to her and she treats us like shit. She will not talk or listen to anyone and does what she wants. I don’t want to throw her to the streets but we can’t deal with this much longer. The stress is haunting us. I only want her to understand that the choices she is making today are going to affect the rest of her life and believe me she is not making good choices. I guess if we didn’t Love her so much we wouldn’t care as much but we do Love her and want the best life possible for her and Jayden. Their Papa and Nana are not going to be around forever and I need to know that they are going to be safe and ok. At times I feel like we failed her but then I realize she is acting just like her father and that is disturbing. I Love you Tabitha and promise to do my best and try not to give up on her. Love your Dad

This will be our 16th Christmas apart. Still no words to express our heartfelt sorrow. Jazmyn and Jayden are growing up so fast. Jazmyn will be 19 next month and Jayden will be 17 in March. Hard to believe. Still wonder how things would have turned out if you were still here. They’ve been through so much in their lives. I feel helpless at times because I can’t undo their past, but I will always be here for them as long as they will allow me to be. At times they seem so distant, just wish there was a way to get them to open up. I love you and your children with all my heart. Until we meet again I will hold you in my Heart and my thoughts. Love Daddy

Today is your 16th Angel Anniversary, Oh how we wish you were here and didn’t have to go, so we can hold you in our arms and for you to watch your children grow. Missing you each and every day. Love you! Dad-Mom-Jazmyn and Jayden

Today is your Daughters 18th Birthday. You would be so proud of her. She reminds me so much of you it’s almost like having you here. We love and miss you each and every day. Love Dad, Mom, Jazmyn and Jayden

Hi auntie tabitha ❤︎︎ i know we’ve never met but i see how important you were to our family members who were lucky to have you in their lives, and even though we’ve never met i miss you a lot and i wish you were still here.
I love you ❤︎︎

Tabitha my precious child, the older we get the closer we get to our everlasting reunion in the Heavens Kingdom. The anticipation of seeing you again fills my Heart with joy. I love you and my thoughts are often consumed with your memories each and every day. The anticipation of the holidays just aren’t as exciting since you’ve been away, although we do find joy in Jazmyns and Jaydens happiness. They are getting so big and independent. They speak of you on occasion and we won’t let them forget you. They seem happy and I’m so grateful that your Mom and I could give that to them. They deserve to be happy. Please know that your Mom and I love you very much and will always have you in our thoughts and our Hearts. Signed with our everlasting Love Mom and Dad

Thinking of you on this Mothers Day and every day. Happy Heavenly Mothers Day. I love you more than words can express.

So many thoughts and emotions going through my mind and soul. It’s been 15 years since you left this world. I just don’t have the words to let you know how much I truly miss and love you.

Thinking about you on this Christmas Eve. Kids just opened their presents and are now chillin. The adoption has been finalized and now Jazmyn Marie Merchant-Thibeault and Jayden John Merchant-Thibeault seem very happy. Jazmyn keeps busy with School, Robotics and is now working at Mcdonalds a few hours a week. She seems to be opening up to people a little more these days. Jayden is having some difficulty in school, reminds me of you in school. He is such a lady's man and always hanging with friends. They are growing up so fast. I know I haven't been writing much lately but Mom and I speak of you a lot to Jazmyn and Jayden. You are always in our Hearts and our thoughts. We Love and miss you so much. Merry Christmas my O-P-Lay-Lee   

So much is happening these days, Terrance has lost his parental rights over the children. This was never our intention however, He was not doing the right thing by keeping them safe. You know they will be safe with us. We are in the process of adoption, It won't be easy but it will all work out in the end. We will allow them to grow as normal teenage kids. We love them as we do you. We are Heartbroken that your not here to help them on their journey through life, but we know your watching from above. We haven't been able to find the words to tell you how much we Love and miss you Tabitha; but we somehow know that you feel what's in our Hearts because we feel what's in yours. We hope your 37th Birthday is Heavenly. May the good Lord keep you in his keeping until we meet again. Love Mom, Dad, Jazmyn and Jayden  

Thinking about you today and everyday, I just wanted to stop by to wish you a Happy Mothers day. Jazmyn and Jayden are doing fine and miss you so much. Your Mom and I speak of you often and let them know how special you are. I know your watching from Heaven and are helping us do the right thing to keep these children happy and safe. I can't wait to see you again and hold you in my arms. Love and miss you always. Love Dad  

"14 years ago at this moment was the hardest time in my life. Unable to breath life back into your lifeless body, I find myself feeling a sense of emptiness that could never be filled. My life changed on this day 14 years ago and I don't think I will ever be the same person again. I think of you often and wonder how things would be today if you were still here. I find some comfort in knowing that we will be together again some day. Knowing that you will be there to guide me through the gates of Heaven somehow make me feel a sense of comfort. I have kept your children in my life all these years and they are growing so fast. I speak of you every chance I get and will never let them forget their Mother. I Love and miss you so much my O-P-Lay-Lee. May God bless and keep you until we are all reunited in the land of eternal life. Love you always Dad."

Another Christmas with out you, It doesn't get any easier. Jazmyn and Jayden are growing so fast, Hard to believe their teenagers. Jazmyn is a tipical teenage girl who wishes she had a boy friend, Plenty of time for that we tell her. She is very emotional and misses her Mom from time to time. Jayden is a normal teenage boy who is always right. He seems to struggle from time to time. Sometimes it seems very overwhelmimng trying to do the right thing, but at least their happy and safe. We are keeping your memory alive through videos and pictures and keeping you in our Hearts. We Love and miss you every single day. Keep watching over us and help guide us through this life until we meet again. Mom, Dad, Jazmyn and Jayden 

 

Its your 36th Birthday Tabitha, Oh how we wish you could celebrate it with us. Our Hearts are full of sadness on this special day even more so than usual. Your in our thoughts daily and it still hurts as much today as the day you left us. We're glad you don't have to deal with this pandemic knowing you as you worry so much about things like this. We are keeping your children happy and safe by providing them with a stable and safe environment to grow like normal kids. There is a hearing coming up soon to decide where the children will be staying until they can establish their own independence. Please help us help your children feel safe and secure. We miss and Love you so very much and will see you again and finally be able to feel your touch. May God hold you in his keeping until we meet again. Until then we will be missing you every single day. Love Mom, Dad Jazmyn and Jayden   

Tab-a-ma-tha!!
Happy birthday babe!!!! 36 years ago you were born an angel and 22 years later you left us to be a real angel ... all these later it still breaks my heart but knowing I’ll see you again makes the pain a little more bearable . Our beautiful baby girls are so grown up! Makaila is 16 now! In a few more months Jaz will be 16 like how? Every time I see her it’s like I’m looking at you!  Your kids are so beautiful and growing so quickly ! Be proud of your family for taking care of them so good! I know they’re trying their best to do good by you ... raising teens is so exhausting mentally and physically but so worth it! I can’t express enough how much I miss you and your dimples . I love you so much Tabitha ❤️

Hello my precious Tabitha, Sure has been awhile since my last entry, but that doesn't mean I don't think about you each and every day. Every time I look at Jazmyn and Jayden I think of you when you were their age. Your Mother and I really Love and miss you so very much.

                   Tabitha Lee (Thibeault) Merchant
                     09/13/1984 to 03/30/2007

            The absent of words do not indicate the absent of thoughts. Our silence is often consumed with mixed emotions and memories within our Hearts. We've come to realize that no matter how much time stands between us, the pain of losing you just doesn't get any easier and as life goes on without you we can't help but think that sometimes the memories are just not enough to get us through the day. Today we reflect upon this 13th Angel Anniversary and realize that our heartaches will always be a reminder of the absent of your presents.
Love and miss you more than words can describe. Mom & Dad

Good morning my O-P-Lay-Lee. It's been awhile since I have written, but we want you to know that your always in our thoughts and of course in our Heart. Jazmyn and Jayden are still with your Mother and I. They have had it pretty rough over the years and are trying to adjust. We really need your help though. We have forgotten how tough it was to raise teenagers. We want to teach them right and have them grow up to be like their Mom. They have been very vocal about wanting to stay with us because we allow them to be the kids they want to be. We are hoping the judge will see this and allow them to stay. Although its rough as we live in a very tight space, we are making it work until we know the extent of their stay. We're hoping for a positive outcome when we go to court on February 5th. The ideal situation would be for their Father to have the ability and desire to raise these kids in a Loving, safe, stable and suitable environment, but we all know that's probably not going to happen until he can admit to himself that he needs to change and actually change. He has had 12 years to get it right. We're sorry these kids had to go through so much trauma before people realized the extent of the issues, but their with us now and we love them so much and want to do what is right. I know that with your guidance from above and your Mothers and my Love we should be able to overcome this situation. As always we Love and miss you so deeply and wish you were here. Until next time We will always keep you near. Love always Mom and Dad

Memories instilled in our untamed Heart, when we hear your name since we had to part. Spoken words will not heal our soul, our silence consumed with memories, we cannot control. As we reflect on your 35th Birthday, we realize that our Heartaches are a reminder of the absent of your presents however we can take comfort in knowing that someday we will be together forever. Happy 35th Birthday Love Mom and Dad

Just dropping by to let you know I'm thinking more and more about you lately. I though this was suppose to get easier over time, but I guess that's just a myth because I miss you just as much today. I Love you so much

Tabitha Lee (Thibeault) Merchant
09/13/84 to 03/30/07
The absent of words do not indicate the absent of thoughts. Our silence is often consumed with mixed emotions and memories within our Hearts. As we reflect upon this 12th Angel Anniversary, we realize that our heartaches are a reminder of the absent of your presents. Love and miss you more than words. Mom & Dad

Today is Jazmyn's 14th Birthday. Oh how she has grown. She needs your help so desperately in overcoming so many obstacles she has endured. Please keep an eye on her and guide her in the right decisions. She misses you so much and wishes you were here to watch her blossom into the beautiful young lady you were. We all miss you and Love you so much.

Another year has past without our precious Tabitha, the pain of losing you is just as heartbreaking today as it was 11 plus years ago. Today is your 34th Birthday and we all wish you the happiest of day. As we reflect on your special day, we remember how much of a loving, caring and special young woman you were. Your children Jazmyn and Jayden are truly a blessing. Jazmyn shares your hardcore no nonsense personality while Jayden possesses your kind, Loving and sensitive personalities. Oh how we all miss you and wish you were here to watch your children grow. You are very missed and Loved by so many. Your Mom and Dad, Brother, Sister, Nieces and Nephews. Aunts and Uncles, Your children Jazmyn and Jayden, although they don't remember very much, they will always have us all to share your legacy. Your husband Terrance, friends and community members. We will keep your memory alive through sharing those memories with your children, each other and in silence. (Forever). Always remember that the absence of words do not indicate the absence of thoughts. Until we meet again Your ever Loving Father and Mother.

Tabitha, I had my 3rd baby! September 5th! His name is Weston James, he weighed 8 lbs 12oz and was 21 inches long! He is so perfect you would just eat him up. Anyways I wanted to wish you a very happy birthday! I miss you so much and even afteral these years the pain of losing you feels as fresh as it did 11 years ago! I wish you could meet Taby who started MIDDLE SCHOOL! Dawsen who is now in 2nd grade and baby Weston of course! ♡ I know you would spoil the crap out of them and you would be the cool Aunt lol ♡ I wish you could see your babies and the wonderful people they are turning into. When I am having just a horrible day and am missing you I just look at Jazmyn......omg she looks like you! Acts like you too.....drives me insane lol jk (kinda) ok well that's it for now. Again I miss you so much & I love you!!!!!
Til we meet again ♡

Happy birthday beautiful girl , I miss you sooo much . I look at jazzy and all I see is you. You’re missed by so many everyday . ! Today’s a very special day, I’ll keep you in my mind all day long ! Tomorrow’s zaydens birthday!! You guys almost shared a birthday !!! Lol that would have been cool ! You and zay and tiff and laiken !

My dearest Tabitha, I have come to realize that the pain of losing you will never go away, and although it has been over 11 years since God called you home, the heartache is still very real. When I miss you the most, I just close my eyes and reach into my memories just to be with you, even if only for a short time. I feel your presence and my Heart if filled with happiness. I Love you Tabitha and miss you beyond comprehension.

Tabbyzzz,
  I miss you so much, everyday. Your the only sister I ever had! I still can't believe after all this time that you aren't here. Your the first person I want to call when something amazing happens, your also the first person I want to call when everything is falling apart. It still breaks my heart that my beautiful babies will never get a chance to know and love my very best friend! Luckily for them though I know your watching over them and ME! I forget alot that your there until something happens and then I get this over whelming feeling that I'm not alone and I've made it this far because I have you! Omg! I'm crying so hard I can't even type now but I love you and I miss you so so much I can't not wait to meet again. LOVE always RUTHIE

I love you my sweet girl Always and 4 ever until we meet agine my heart hurts love you and miss you tons me and dad are taking care of the kids for now please keep an eye on them when they return home and I will also I'll do what everr i need to do love always mom

Tabby I wish we would have been closer as we grew older, I think of you often and your always in my heart and mind. I wish our children could be closer and my daughter could have had the pleasure of meeting you! Your babies are as beautiful as you are and in amazing hands. I wish I could be closer with the family and maybe one day we will be.
I love you Tabitha

Sending our thoughts and a whole lot of Love, to our beautiful Angel (Tabitha} from Heaven above, you are safe, you are home and you are free, we are left behind with just our memories. Although at times we feel so alone, we look forward to the day you take our hand to guide us home. Until then you will be forever in our Hearts. May the good Lord bless and keep you while we’re apart. Until we meet again. Love Mom & Dad -- Jazmyn & Jayden

Missing my O-P-Lay-Lee
Merry Christmas

33! You would have been 33 today!? It has been over 10 years and I still fund it hard to believe that we will never again celebrate a birthday together. I miss you so much! I wish you werre here to see Taby and Dj they would have loved you so much.....I love you big sister always and forever ♡♡♡

Our Hearts are aching beyond words. Missing our Angle from above, more than words can describe. We Love you Tabitha and wish you were here. We really need you more than ever.

Happy 33rd Birthday to our Angel up above with heartfelt tears and all of our Love. Love and miss you Tabitha

Wishing you a happy Mothers Day Tabitha. It hurt to know Jazmyn and Jayden have to grow up with out their Mom. I know you would have been a great Mother. I could see it in your eyes the short time you were here with your Children. Although they don't remember you, They will always know you through your Mom and I. Looking forward to the day we can all be together Love always Daddy

Wishing you were here to watch your children grow, teaching them your wisdom and everything you know. I speak to them through my memories and through my love, I make sure they know your watching from heaven above. Its been ten years since we had to part, Always remember that I love you, from the bottom of my Heart. Rest in peace my little girl, we will all meet in Heaven when we leave this world.                                      Love Daddy

It's hard to enjoy the Holidays without you Tabitha (My O-P-Lay-Lee). As I scroll through your picture's today, I get a sense of emptiness within. Some picture's make me happy and some make me sad. I will always remember and cherish the times we had. I see a lot of you in Jazmyn and Jayden. Its like watching you grow over again. I think of you a lot. I Love and miss you beyond words or thoughts. You will never be forgotten. Love your Daddy

Happy Birthday,
Tabitha
I love and miss you so very much

Happy birthday little sis. I love you and miss you everyday.

So many memories, so many tears, I would give anything to have you here. As long as your in our memories and in our Hearts, we will always Love you and never be far apart. Jazmyn and Jayden helps keep your memories from fading, for we see you in everything they do. May God bless and keep you until the day we can reunite. Happy 32nd Birthday my Angel    Love Daddy

"Angel"
Tear drops, slow and steady, the pain so real and true,
God took another angel, and that angel, dear, was you.

Angel wings, upon the clouds, your body softly sleeps,
Hush now little princess, no more tears you have to weep.

Memories and little prayers, we all are mourning you,
But we will all celebrate the short life you led; we will never forget you.

I know God will look after you, now you are truly alive,
Your spirit soars beyond the moon, your legacy will survive.

You are beautiful, you are endless, now stretch your wings and fly,
We love you so, I love you so, but now we say goodbye.

Close your pretty eyes, no more tears, just go and rest,
Let your soul lie peacefully, we know you did your best.

It was your time, so as we cry, go forward that extra mile,
You did what you were sent to do, you made everybody smile.

By: Christelle Dardagos

9 YEARS! :/ It is unbelievable that it has been so long since I have seen your face! :( I miss you so much today and everyday! I wish you were here to see your nieces and nephew! :( I have the pictures of you and Tabitha Dawsen and I often look at them and even tho they didn't meet you they will always know who Auntie Tabitha was! I love you big sister always and forever.

Hello beautiful! 
I can't believe it's been 9 years since I've last seen you... Time goes by too quickly . I wish I spent more time with you... Sometimes I wish I didn't move so far away, but you were always my friend and I'm grateful I got to know you and meet your babies! Jaz looks so much like you! I've seen recent pics and I can't believe how big they are . I just wanted to let you know you'll never be forgotten and you're always missed! I miss your face! I love you tab-a-ma-tha ❤️

Missing my O-P-Lay-Lee

Tears instead of wishes, Flowers instead of cards, You left us precious memories that will stay within our hearts. Thinking of you on your
birthday we speak of you still, We haven't forgotten you and we never will. There's a place in our hearts no one can fill, We love and miss you Tabitha and we always will. Love our O-P-Lay-Lee Mom and dad

Happy birthday big sister I love you forever and always. Miss you everyday <3

Happy birthday my sweet angel