THIS IS VERY BEAUTIFUL :)

Well honey this day has arrived. The day all of us have wished in the blank spot of our mind would somehow pass by without having to live it. Its just not fair baby girl. You were the most happiest beautiful baby Nic Nic has ever seen. I always find myself thinking of the day we spent together at WalMart:). I just am still in shock thinking all the time everyday of why?Why? I know we will be together again baby and I dream of this day of you standing with Uncle Chuck waiting for me.I  just miss you baby so damn much!! You should be here running around yelling fighting over balloons getting cake all over Nic Nic's back porch dumping juice on the table crying because the kids wont give you your way and you comming to Nic Nic because you know she would say "GIVE THAT TO TALIA RIGHT NOW!" You should have presents of pretty little pink outfits and toys but instead we have just memories of you today. I will forever love you Sweetpea I will always think of you right up to my last breath I take. Happy 1st Birthday Sweetpea Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday Dear Talia Happy Birthday To YOU!!!

My sweet baby girl...how much i miss you i can't ever truly say. to this day i break down until it hurts...you left me too soon. i was supposed to see you take your first steps hear your first words and feel you give me a real tight hug because you're happy to see mommy...i guess God knew what He was doing. I still wonder why. I think about it all the time. I still blame me for you being gone...even your daddy does...he told me today...maybe hes right. Maybe I brought this on you without even doing anything. Sometimes I wonder. I still love you more than the whole world tho no matter the reason you had to leave me it was still the hardest thing I've ever had to face. The world will never be the same without you to brighten my day and make me smile like you did. Even when you were having a bad day I still could make you smile. I loved it. I would give up the whole world to bring you back to me...my angel life isn't the same anymore with you gone!

YOU WOULD BE 10 MONTHS OLD TODAY MY SUNSHINE. I WANT YOU BACK HERE WITH ME WHERE YOU BELONG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO GIVE YOU THE BIGGEST HUGS AND KISSES IN THE WORLD !!!! I WANT PLAN THE BIGGEST 1ST BIRTHDAY PARTY AND WATCH YOU EAT YOUR  BIRTHDAY CAKE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO WATCH YOU GROW UP, WATCH YOU LAUGH, RUN, SEE YOU SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MISS YOU SO MUCH BABY AND I AM SO FREAKING MAD THAT GOD TOOK YOU AWAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO SORRY I LET YOU LEAVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU WILL FOREVER BE IN MY HEART ,IN MY SOUL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY HEART  ACHES SO VERY MUCH EVERYDAY!! TIME WILL NEVER HEAL MY HEART ACHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY 10 MONTH BIRTHDAY MY ANGEL IN HEAVEN. I LOVE YOU TALIA ROSALY. YOU ARE MISSED AND LOVED BEYOND THIS WORLD !!!!!!! TILL WE ARE TOGETHER AGAIN MY BABY ,I WILL SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOUR BIG SISTER MISSES YOU SO MUCH TALIA ,SHE WILL NEVER GET OVER YOU LEAVING. YOU WERE HER WORLD, HER FRIEND ,HER EVERYTHING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                            ALL MY LOVE FOREVER,

                                YOUR NANA & YOUR BIG SISSY KIRSTYN SKYLER

I cant believe it has been 6 months already that you have been gone.My heart aches everyday,I dont think it will ever mend.At this very minute 6 months ago you and mommy stopped by my house to pick up your crip mattress.Mommy asked me if i wanted to come out to the truck and say hello to you,i said no i would just see you in the morning becauseit was raining.Just about 5 hours later i received the most horrific phone call i have ever gotten.I wish i had come out to see you baby to kiss you to tell you how very much i love you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just asumed i would be seeing you the next day.4 hours from this this time i was at home telling pop pop and mit mit i kept hearing you cry, i wish i had called your mommy when i was hearing you cry !!! if i had called and asked if you were ok she could have checked on you and you would still be here !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love you and miss you talia !!!!!!!!!! my heart crys everyday to have you here !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant get past this !!!!!!!!!!!! i dont know how to get past this !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SO SORRY !!!!!!!!! NANA LOVES YOU BABY GIRL AND I ALWAYS WILL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HAD A DREAM ABOUT YOU LAST NIGHT MY PRECIOUS ANGEL,I WAS PLAYING WITH YOU AND LAUGHING WITH YOU AND JUST HOLDING YOU AND HUGGING YOU, ALL THE THINGS I USED TO DO WITH YOU BUT, IN MY DREAM YOU WERE OLDER ABOUT 3 OR 4 AND SO SO BEAUTIFUL.I WOKE MYSELF FROM A SOUND SLEEP LAUGHING ,THEN I REALIZED IT WAS JUST A DREAM AND THAT YOU WERE NOT HERE.AND ALL THE SORROW FLOODED BACK INTO MY HEART SORROW THAT HURTS BEYOND ANY WORDS.I MISS YOU TALIA SO SO MUCH. I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN SOME DAY BABY AND WE WILL LAUGH AND PLAY AND NANA WILL HOLD YOU CLOSE AND HUG YOU LIKE I USED TO. I LOVE YOU BABY R.I.P MY LIL BUBBLES NANA IS ALWAYS WITH YOU !!!!

I cant believe it has been 3 months without you baby girl. i miss you beyond words, i wonder if the pain will ever ease.i didnt know i had so many tears inside me. you are so beautiful and i will forever love you bubbles. nana cant believe your gone. i miss you sooooooooooooooo muc!!! R-I-P MY SWEET SWEET PRINCESS !!!!!!

It is said that there are angels in Heaven up above and they shine with the light of an inner love

Of these things I had not a clue but that was before I had found you

For in you I've found a love that is so right it shines all around with the brightest of light

It comes from somewhere so deep within that it has no beginning and knows no end

Your love is a light that brightens each new day of all the people you saw along the way

Where ever you go or whatever you do all see the love you have inside you

That God sent you here to a place where you'd be sharing such love with someone like me

Is proof for me that angels exist and are filled with a love that no man could resist

I thank God each day for finding the time for looking down on me and making you mine

So yes there are angels in Heaven above and I know because God sent me one of my very own to love!

Talia you are my angel up above and I do thank God for giving me you to love.

I thank Him for each day I had with you and no one else will ever compare to you

Everyone loves you and you will always be missed

Talia my love you will forever be my greatest gift!

Hi my angel I am thinking of you as I always do. I love you and I miss you baby girl. How I wish you had never left! Why you got called home I may never know but know you are always on my mind Talia! Everyday without you is so painful. You will always be baby in this life or the next!

It has been 2 months that you have been gone my little sweet heart.I cry for you so much my heart hurts. I wish i could have you back!!!!!!!!!!!!!I CANT STAND WAKING UP AND KNOWING I WILL NEVER BEABLE TO HOLD YOU HUG YOU KISS YOU TELL YOU OW SO VERY MUCH I LOVE YOU !!!! IT MAKES ME SO ANGRY ! IT IS SO WRONG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YO TALIA ROSALY AND NANA WILL FOREVER LONG TO HOLD YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I never in my wildest dreams thought i would have to go through life without one of my babies.Everyday is so hard to grasp that you are not here ,I didnt get to really know you .You had just started to get your own little personality and i was loving every minute of watching you grow and become YOU that happy ,when you got your way, baby with a smile the size of the world !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nana is having such a hard time with your being gone and not knowing what or why this had to happen.You were so full of life, you brought smiles and happiness to everyone.I loved your morning rounds to my computer desk and the night time ones also. I miss that baby girl, so much i miss that and you ,its so unfair.i wish i knew why!!!! MY HEART ACHES FOR YOU TO BE HERE WITH ME MY LIL BUBBLES !!! YOU WILL FOREVER BE NANA'S LIL ANGEL !!!!!!!! MISS YOU BEYOND WORDS NOW AND ALWAYS !!!

hello angel baby, i am sitting here thinking of you as i so often do.my heart aches to see you ,to hold you ,to just be with you. i look at your picture and the the hurt overwelmes me. 3 1/2 months was not enough time with you ,i wanted years ans years. i miss you so much talia, nana loves you so much and will miss you forever.

My baby Talia you passed just over a month ago now and it hurts just as bad now as it did then to lose you. There was so many things we never got to do together-do our hair, paint your nails, dress you up in an easter dress...so many things. I'll never get to hear you talk or see how smart you would have been or play with all your cousins or walk or run. I'll never hear you tell me "I love you" or "good night" or hear you call me mommy for the first time. It breaks my heart to think of all these things we'll never do. Even now I'm crying because of it. I miss you baby girl. You brought so much love into everyone's lives and none of us we'll ever forget you or how you were or how when you'd smile you'd always stick your toungue out at me and nana. I miss having you in my arms and feeling your warmth and all the love you gave and hearing all your sounds. You were going to be a super smart little girl. You already were. I can see you doing great things in the future.

God called you home. I don't know why but he needed you with all the other angels in heaven. You are the most beautiful angel ever! I bet you're giving them a run for their money up there like you always did down here.

Be good up in heaven Talia so one day when I go up to join you you can be the one to greet me. You better be smiling for mommy cause she has always loved your beautiful smile and always will. I love you my sweet baby and I miss you more than words can ever tell.Daddy loves you too sweetheart. Even thoough he never met you he always said you are so beautiful and he couldn't wait to see you hold you and play with you. He heard you on the phone and said you have the most beautiful voice and he loves you so much-he never got to tell you any of this...but somehow I think you already know don't you? I love you bubbles!

 You are my air

The sun in my day

The moon in my night

The spring in my step

You are  my everything.

You are the stars in the sky

The birds in the  trees

The shimmer, the sparkle, the shine.

Without the light you put into my life

I would be nothing

A single leaf on the ground in autumn

Lost, fgorgotten, alone.

Before I knew you I was nothing.

Now I am everything,

With you at my side,

I am invincible!

Feel the same way my Talia,

For you are loved so much,

I will love you forever

You are my darling, my baby, my love

You are my everything

I love you so much

it has been just over a month that you have been gone my little sweetness, the heart ach is so overpowering. i sometimes think i hear you. i miss you beyond any words.i have your picture beside my bed so you are the first face i look at every morning and the last face i see everynight.your big sister misses you so so much.she cries for you ,she knows your with the angels but she herself is to young to understand why you have not come back home yet,that rips my heart out to see her heart break everyday, she loves you so much, you two had so much fun together in the short time we were blessed to have with you in our lives.i wish i could see you ,hold you ,kiss you.sissy loves you baby sister and i know you love her that was so clear on both of your faces,she is only 3 and you 3 months but the love was amazing in both of your eyes.and the smiles on your faces and the laughter between you was beautiful, there was nothing she wouldnt do for you,watching her change your diaper was so funny,im glad i was able to get pictures of that it is priceless!!! i love you talia and i  will forever my sweet baby ,we will be together again someday till then i have my memories and my dreams. nana loves you bubbles !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sissy loves you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sweet dreams angel baby!!!

Oh what Nic Nic would do to have this day back!! I miss your kisses!

Talia this is Nic Nic's favorite picture of you. This will forever sit on my table for when I look at it I feel you are looking into my eyes, my soul saying"Nic Nic I love you"   I love you Sweetpea oh how I miss you soooo. 

My sweet baby girl-there is so much I never got to say. Now that you are in Heaven I think you know all of it already. You wait for me up there for the day that I come to see you again. I think of you everyday and I will always because you changed my life in ways that will never go back again. You truly opened my heart in ways that no one did before. You are perfect. From the day I took you home to the night that you left me. My life had meaning from the minute I woke up in the morning to feed you until the the time I fell asleep at night and even in my dreams you are the reason for everything I did. Without you I feel lost I have no one to care for-no one who needed me like you do. I'm missing you every second of every day that goes by and I am sad but deep down I know that you didn't really leave me. You've been here all along. Your daddy misses you and even though he never got to hold you or kiss you or play with you and hear your beautiful laugh he loves you more than you'll ever know. We miss you and love you forever my sweet angel, my baby girl. Soar with the angels Talia!

She was so very, very special
And was so from the start
You held her in your arms
But mainly in your heart

And like a single drop of rain
That on still waters fall,
Her life did ripples make
And touched the lives of all.

She's gone to play with angels
In heaven up above
So keep your special memories
And treasure. them with love

                                        Although your darling daughter
                                       Was with you just a while
                                        She'll live on in your heart                                                                            With a sweet remembered smile

Death of a Child

Sorry I didn't get to stay.
To laugh and run and play.
To be there by your side.
I'm sorry that I had to die.

God sent me down to be with you,
to make your loving heart anew.
To help you look up and see
Both God and little me.

Mommy & Daddy, I wish I could stay.
Just like I heard you pray.
But, all the angels did cry
when they told little me goodbye.

God didn't take me cause He's mad.
He didn't send me to make you sad.
But to give us both a chance to be
a love so precious .. don't you see?

Up here no trouble do I see
and the pretty angels sing to me.
The streets of gold is where I play
you'll come here too, Mommy & Daddy, someday.

Until the day you join me here,
I'll love you Mommy &Daddy, dear.
Each breeze you feel and see,
brings love and a kiss from me.

Love

Talia Rosaly

There was never a more perfect baby. The way you laughed and played with me, even how you looked up at me when I was nursing you you always had a happy look on your face. You always wanted to be near me no matter what I was doing. If you couldn't see me you'd get so upset and start to cry so I always ran right to you. Nana said I was spoiling you but I didn't care. I was always going to run to my little girl whenever she cried-even if it was over nothing. You were always in my arms wherever I went and I loved it. Its so funny when I was sleeping you would scoot right next to me and not move away. If I moved you you'd just scoot next to me again. If I was having a bad day one look at you and everything else dissapeared but you. You were my entire world and still are. I remember when you were just born you came out with your eyes wide open and I was the first thing you saw. You'd just stare at me as I held you and talked to you. Its like my voice captivated you.  As you got a little older you actually smiled at me when I'd talk to you. In the morning when you'd wake up I'd tell you goodmorning and you'd crack the biggest smile for me. It made me so happy to wake up next to you everyday. I miss you so much. Now when I wake up I look for you and realize that I'll never wake up next to you ever again and it makes me cry. Now you're sleeping up in Heaven where the beds are comfortable and you have all the toys you could ever want and Uncle Chuck and Grandpa Dean are keeping you company while you wait for me to be with you again.

 
"WHEN GOD CALLS LITTLE CHILDREN"

When God calls little children
to dwell with him above,
We mortals sometime question
the wisdom of his love
For no heartache compares with
the death of one small child
Who does so much to make our world,
seem wonderful and mild
Perhaps God tires of calling
the aged to his fold,
So He picks a rosebud,
before she can grow old.
God knows how much we need them,
and so he takes but a few
To make the land of Heaven
more beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult still
somehow we must try,
The saddest word mankind knows will always be "Goodbye."
So when a little child departs
we who are left behind
Must realize God loves children,
Angels are hard to find.

-Author Unknown

Even @ 3months Talia knew how to play her mommy.She would have the fakest cry you could think of,mommy didn't realize this and would run right to her,what Talia wasn't exspecting was Nana teaching mommy about nothing being wrong, so whenever she did this to mommy nana would come get in front of her and say.. besides nothing whats wrong with you? oh ya thats what i thought not a dang thing !!! she would frown at me and i would tell her ya thats right nana knows ALL the SECRETS  & im gonna tell mommy what they are and she will know when your being a wisenhiemer.this made her mad at first but then it became a game she loved to play with nana. she would try mommy and nana would come and say ..... theres nothing wrong with you and she would laugh lol .you had to be there to really understand how much she understood everything i was saying to her. so that is the story of SECRETS . I LOVE YOU TALIA AND WILL MISS YOU FOREVER !!!!!!!!!!!