Mom, I've been trying to put the words together to say how I feel but I'm still so hurt to think I really had to let you go..
Thinking about all the time I got to spend with you and wishing I could have even more. Missing us singing in the kitchen to every single Usher song when I made dinner. Everytime you seemed to be getting better and you went back to your home again, I was happy but also sad because I just liked you being here with me. I keep thinking about when you couldn't walk anymore and I brought you and Matthew into my bed super early in the morning when Ely left for work and you said "I love this, I feel so close" and now everytime I lay in bed I think of you saying that because I'm wrapped in your robe just trying to hold on to you.. I'm trying to be strong because I know that's what you wanted but I don't know how you were that strong, strongest woman I know without a doubt.. last night we put up Matthews trampoline, the one you got him for his birthday, really wish you could've seen his face when it was done, he was so happy and jumped until it got dark.. I'm so grateful I got every moment I did with you but I really really want to keep making more with you...I feel like I just started getting my life together to be able to give back to you and vacation, relax...We were so excited about going to Virgina Beach in August and it doesn't feel right you won't be going with us. I know I'll find a way to get some peace from this but I wish there was a way I could scream loud enough to bring you back here. Love you forever mom..xoxo