I put up my first artificial Christmas tree for the first time in I don't know how many years, oh don't get me wrong I always had my tiny 3 and 4 foot rustic Christmas trees out and my house decorated like Christmas should be, but this year I decided to get a six and a half foot artificial tree and was hoping to have my grandsons come decorate it with me and put a special Angel topper on the top of it in memory of their sister but family situations have not allowed this to happen. I want them to know that I am faced with decisions that I can't control. I can't make two parents of my grandchildren understand that life is short and you don't treat your childrens ONLY biological grandparent who has been in their life like dirt. I created this website out or pure love for my grand daughter and I will never have the privelage of knowing her. She is forever in my thoughts and forever in my heart as are my two living grandsons. Life is full of its challenges and decisions are made but once your heart has been broken in a million pieces it is hard to think of the long time it will take if ever for the repairs to it. I may someday try to forgive the hatefulness showed towards me but I will never forget. I will just pray for inner peace. Please know Jayden and Delvese and Tangela I love you. Granny
Today was hopefully the last of many surgeries that my daughter has endured since the passing of my beloved grand daughter. I can't tell you of the pride I have for her after all of the pain and suffering she has gone through. If only she were my little girl again and I could wipe away all of the tears, all of her fears, and make her think this was all a terrible dream. But the reality of this is that she is a grown woman now with two loving boys that need her and a husband who stands beside her and I am sure he deals with his own pain. Although I don't want to wish the years ahead away, I have to be honest and hope that today was the beginning of a peaceful existence for all of them. I have a sense of peace in my heart today and I know my little angel in heaven was with my daughter in heart and spirit today. I pray that Gods love puts a big hug around each of their hearts and that they know that he loves each and every one of them. Sandy LaDage aka Mom or Granny
Today I received some disturbing news regarding the validation of what happened to my baby grandaughter. Will someone please validate that she had a right to life? Just as she was conceived in love she left this world with all the love that was possible, yet I don't feel her passing was important enough to some of those in the medical field. I spent thirteen years working side by side with physicians, patients, the patients families standing beside them when they received some bad news, feeling a great deal of empathy for what was ahead of them. Was i just in a cloud of believing that the medical profession was a gift of educated physicians and staff that ACTUALLY TOOK AN OATH to provide the BEST medical care that was possible? I understand the brotherhood of physicians, but when errors were documented, tests were neglected when needed, and a human life was lost - where is the accountability for the errors made? Please tell me that a life wasn't lost because "they were short staffed" or the physician was on vacation, or the physician doesn't work weekends! These were some of the things we were told leading up to the death of my only grand daughter. Am I bitter? Resentful of their attitudes? YOU BET I AM I hope these physicians sleep well at night knowing that some families will never be the same because they chose not to believe their patients and their symptoms. A little human being was fighting for her life, her mothers life in danger as well and i am suppose to let them just sweep it under the rug? Maybe I don't have the power to hold these physicians accountable, but i do believe the good lord will punish them in his own way for not fighting for the weak and defenseless. I will always fight for the right of my grandaughters life and would gladly have given up my own life to have spared hers but God wanted her with him so until i can see her again in heaven i want everyone here on earth to know i am fighting for her having the right to life and always will until i leave this earth. Tangelas loving Granny.
