A Note to My Daughter:

Today, I celebrate you! You were a gift from God, on this day forty-nine years ago.    I was in labor twenty - seven hours, before you finally arrived .  You were the world to me. I worked day and night to comfort you. I wanted your life to be better than mines. I remember the good and the hard times we had. Many tears were shed during those growing pains.  You were so smart and had the most beautiful handwriting, I had ever seen. I remember when you were selected as a participant to be in the News for your 5th grade class. I was so proud!  I also remember how you convinced me to get you a Saxophone that you promised to play because you wanted to be in the band.  You did learn how to play it, but  “Momma, I don’t want to do that anymore,” you said.  Did I not have a fit!  And let’s not forget all of those things you wanted for prom night and graduation day.  God provided everything you needed and wanted. I remember you telling me  how much you loved and missed your Daddy. The times he would come and take you riding on his motorcycle was a precious memory for you. We became the best of friends after I decided to let you go away to start your own life. I thought I would just die without you being in my protection. I prayed everyday and night for God to keep you safe. He did that.  Now, I don’t have you physically here and it has been the hardest thing, I have ever had to do, is to let you go. I’m broken, but God is slowly healing my broken heart back together again. Thank you for giving me a beautiful, kind and loving granddaughter. I’m coming back this way. I’m not sure what’s next for me to do, being the dreamer I was.  I could always share my goals and dreams with you and you would always be right there to cheer me on and help me to succeed.  No one will ever love me like you did, baby.  Besides God, you’ll forever be my  one and only true love.  I miss you so much. I hope you’re enjoying your rest and peace from all the hurtful and painful things you endured alone on this earth.  I wish I had known, what I know now.  God will avenge!

May God give you a big kiss and hug from your Dad and me.  We we will always love you.

 Happy Birthday TLC ! 

                  Tara Lanise Carter England 

Love you forever,

Momma