My dad was a very special man, he was such a caring and loving person.  If he had to say something he would say it on your face and not behind you.  He was a very honest and truthful guy who had a heart of gold.  If he disliked someone he just hated them.  If someone treated my dad with respect he was the type of person who would have laid his life for them.

My dad gave us everything in life he worked so hard to get us where we are today and how can i just move on and forget him it is very easy for some to do this but not for me. I have seen the hardship my dad went through, I was the eldest my both parents sacrificed everything for us they always put us kids first.

My dad was my best friend and my hero he was always there for me.  Any problems he would stand up for me and now there is no one to protect me or to stand up for me yes my mum is there but dad had a different touch my poor mum is in pieces herself so how can she fight for me.  Life is such a struggle one year without a father how the hell am i going to live the rest of my life.  

Everytime my dad liked something in a shop he would ring me up and say Pinder i have seen a nice suit, a shirt, a coat, or a jumper and i want you to meet me so i can show it to you and if you like it I will buy it.  He just loved dressing up everything had to match.  I used to get annoyed thinking oh no dad is going to take up my whole day in choosing a suit or shirt but now i wish he would come back and say that and i would not get annoyed i promise you dad i won't get annoyed just come back please dad.

If I became ill even a cold he and mum  would come and see me and bring a bottle of lucozade and bring medication and would tell my mum make her some rice or something.  My dad never accepted gifts of his daughters if we brought him something and he liked it he always paid us for it always said i hate taking off my daughters even if he came to our house and ate he would leave money that was my dad.

Dad always brought all my outfits from India and never took a penny of me and sometimes he if he liked something he would hide it away from my other sisters and say look i really liked these bracelets and i have brought them for you don't tell your other sisters and i would laugh and keep that secret.

If ever dad was upset he would ring me early in the morning and tell me, mum didn't like dad telling me anything as iam a worrier so dad would go out and ring me from there and say don't tell your mum I called you and he would talk to me. He was very hot tempered if he was angry you could never talk to him my mum would always say you talk to dad he listens to you so i used to talk to him first we would get into an argument and then he would say alright alright.

The thing that used to make me laugh was when my dad used to ring and he had to tell them his name he would say T for Tiger (Tarsem Singh Bhogal) i used to really laugh at that.  It had to be pin silent when my dad was on the phone or else he would heat up.

I remember once he wanted me to get a quote for travel insurance and he told me to look online so what i did was i told him to type his details in and he was so angry and I said look dad learn how to use a computer it would be handy for you. I just stood there laughing and he was going mad ahh bless him sorry dad!!!

Every christmas i would go down and tell my dad right dad it is time to sort out your cupboards and he hated that because he knew i would throw away his old clothes so he would hide them so that i can't find them.  All celebrations now don't seem the same i won't be celebrating anything. I just hate it when people tell me you have to move forward it is not that easy for me.

Why did god take my dad?????????  It will be a year tomorrow and there were times when he used to go away for 6 weeks i used to go mad with him and now i haven't seen him for a year and it has been hell. When he used to goto India he would ring from there and ask do you want this suit or saree and say iam really enjoying myself i just love it here.

Iam very anti social i just hate going anywhere or talking to people i just want to be left alone and i know iam depressed. 

My dads clothes are still in his cupboard and everytime i go i go upstairs and smell his clothes and hug them   it feels as if he is around.  I always used to tie rakhi on my dad and he used to be so happy and this time he never took my rakhi off until his last days and i still have that.  Dad used to get so happy when we used to go and see him, i remember when my dad had the op and he was brought into the ward on Friday the first thing he said to me was Pinder i hope you are going to come and see me when i go home and i said of course i will dad but he never came home.

There is so much more special things about my dad he was the best dad ever my best friend i truly miss him.

Here is my lovely grandad

God took the strength of a mountain, the majesty of the tree, the warmth of a summer sun, the calm of a quiet sea, the generous soul of nature, the comforting arm of night, the wisdom of the ages, the power of the eagles flight, the joy of a morning in spring, the faith of a mustard seed, the patience of eternity, the depth of a family need, then God combined these qualities, when there was nothing more to add, he knew his masterpiece was complete, and so he called it..... MY GRANDAD!!! xxx

I remember one day when the geography teachers came in and they kept us till 3:30 and Sunita's Babaji was waiting outside...and it was raining...and he did not look happy.

But the thing i always remember is that even though it was really cold and wet and it was pelting down with fast rain is that even though Babaji had a choice to stand under the shelter he didn't he was right at the front where no one else was. And when we came out he said "tusi aouna ni si, let me talk to your teachers!!"

My grandad was like my dad and meant everything to mee. He was always there for me and taught me what is right and wrong. Me and my grandad have shared many memories together and i have loved every second of sharing them with him. I was his first granddaughter and i love him soo muchh.

My grandad was a very smart and clean person. He sat in his favourite seat on the sofa in one corner. Early in the morning he would sit there till late at night. He would also sit here to watch the tv, he loved watching tv from bbc news to star news to the dramas on star plus and zee tv to wrestling.

Going to the shops with babaji was funny because he would go through every isle to check all the offers. He would make sure nothing is running out at home from foods to drinks and everything else. I remember i went to asda with him and he was gna buy some bananas and he went through all the boxes of bananas to pick out the best quality. He checked the size and the colour of them. He loved tropicana orange juice and would always buy that when it was on offer. Babaji loved going on the bus into town, he would go to the market to buy the fruits and vegetables. He would test taste the fruits there and he would sayy "bhou mitta ya".  

Babaji dressed up very smartly with a matching tie and turban to his suits. He wouldn't care about the price of clothing or anything he brought, he just wanted to look the best. His suits he would buy from Marks and Spencers to Bhs. Any pair of shoes he brought would be from Clarks, he always said they have the best quality shoes and they last longer. His glasses were Jasper Conran make and would take extra care of them. Any occasion we had he would always ask me "Sonia what suit shall i wear, which shirt and tie matches?". He loved the blue tie with red hearts on from when he worked with birmingham city council.

Babaji would make his trip every year to India. Back in 2006 we went to India as a family, and Babaji knew where all the shops were for food, clothing. Babaji would always tell us to make him a list of what we wanted. He would always come back with something for all of us. This is how kindhearted he was. Any new punjabi films out he would tell me to write the names and he would get them.

Babaji i love youu soo muchh and we still feel your presence in the house. You will always be apart of my life.

My Grandad I Love You X

I always used to bite my nails, and Babaji would see me biting my nails and tell me to take my hands out of my mouth, or he'd say if you're hungry theres plenty of things to eat in the kitchen. Then 2 hours later, I would come downstairs and he would be sitting in the corner biting his own nails and then I would say ommm.. Babaji is biting his finger nails and then he would laugh.

Whenever I would be late coming from school because the bus came late for instance then, whenever I arrived home he would always be standing by the traffic lights waiting there for me even if it was raining.

Whenever I accidently forgot my glasses at home or I was ever ill at school, Babaji would come rushing all the way to Sutton Coldfield to come and drop my glasses off or come and pick me up all the way from school if I was ill.

At the shops, whenever we went to get vegetables that we needed, in front of everyone in the shop he would pick every crate of vegetables up until he got to the last crate looking for best vegetable that had no marks and wasn't dirty or a bad vegetable.

when we went on holiday once to Spain, they had no good food that Babaji liked, so everyday he had to have chips and he got really fed up. Then when we went back home, just as a joke we asked him would you like chips or roti and he would say roti of course, I hate chips. Now we had booked another holiday recently just before he went into hospital and we told him, oh God, Babaji we are going to have to have your favourite again, CHIPS!!!, And he couldn't stop laughing, but then because he went into hospital we cancelled the holiday.

Grandad what are these tears rolling down my face? I am looking for you here and there, you are no were to be found. Grandad my heart is hurting, but i know your in a better place. Grandad just send me a sign to let me know your okay. Grandad you was simply the best, i will think of you each day and see that smile upon your face. Grandad i love you soo much, and you mean the world to me. Grandad you are in a special place, deep within my heart and will always remain there. BUT Grandad please be my guardian angel, and watch over me, everytime i close my eyes its you and your smile i want to see.

I love youu Babajii miss youu soo muchh  xxxxx