Terry you were a wonderful father and Brandy and Ryan misses you so much.
It is so hard to see them dpressed everyday there is not a day goes by that they don't think about you. I can't handle this with them by myself it always seems like i always say the wrong thing. I try to tell Brandy and Ryan stories of our life when they were little of all of the good times they had with you. Brandy will listen and smile but your son really really gets sad you and Ryan were very close. He was always daddy's boy and Brandy was always mommy's girl.
Well when she wasn't with grandma shelby. lol lol I remember what the nurse said to you when i was giving birth to Brandy. She said aww your husband is crying that is so sweet and that you had the most beautiful eyes that she had ever seen. Then when we had Ryan you were so proud and you cried then too!! you said thats my boy!!!!!!!You were such a wonderful father I will keep your memory alive with your grandchildren Ryanne, Ryan jr , Ivionna , Havyn
and Landen Lee i will make sure that landen will know that you were his grandfather and how good you were and how much you loved them all. How proud you were that Brandy named him after you. I promiss that i will make sure that Your children and grandchildren will know how much that you loved them and that you were a wonderful person.
That is my promiss to you!!!!! I am so happy that 2 weeks before you passed that i called you on the phone to talk to you about Ryan we talked on the phone for a long time. We made peace with each other. you then called your son and talked to him and told him that you were going to start spending more time with him. When you told Ryan that you him and lonnie were going to play golf ryan was so excited. But i know that didn't get to happen. Lonnie told me that he would take your son golfing and Ryan was happy about that but they would rather you be with them. But i know that you will be in spirt and smiling down at them on the golf course. I know that later in our marriage that we couldn't get along. I am so happy that we parted as friends thank you for that. I need so much help to help Ryan and Brandy to get over your death it has been a year and it is still as if you just passed to them. I pray everyday that jesus will confort them and heal their hearts. Oh Terry if you just knew how very bad your children hurt everyday. We will always miss you and miss your smile and laughter!!!! I even miss you getting mad at me for something LOL LOL LOL LOL
We will see you again someday in heaven ...if you see my parents and my little granny
Tell them i miss them and love them so much. I am going to post a picture of Ryan's tatoo that he had done for you.
Terry thank for our children and grandchildren and our life we had together.
see you soon!!!!!!
Cheri
