Who ever thought that You, Daddy & Larry would have left us so quickly without saying Goodbye. 

Life is so short Mommy, it is horrible to think that just a small mistake costed you your life Mommy.  I have realized that there is so much sadness & sorrow in this world, but when you look closely Life does go on and it can be beautiful!

Our lights can be dimmed whenever the good Lord calls and i cannot wait to see you again.  

Our Souls and Hearts are always together Mommy.  I know you are right next to me. 

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I found this note amongst mommys things. It was written possibly before they married in 1969.    I think it is just so beautiful how my father loved her.  Wish they were still here. There is so much I want to ask them.

A Real Love you have for your spouse lasts forever.  Even when they leave this world.   It never dies, I saw this in mommy when he left us.  The love and memories she had for my father was buried in her heart till she joined him.  

I found myself again in the deepest of all thoughts.  It took me back to our family days and how the years have just past by like a voupour in the air.  All we have are memories now.  But.... somehow I still hear your voice next to my ear from time to time, I remember your touch when you take my arm and say "it will be ok".  

I found a picture of us when i was young.  I remember the make-up you wore to work.  I remember your red lipstick.    I remember this red & white ladies top you used to wear and I remember your red nail polish you used to wear. 

But most of all I remember you being MY MOMMY.  

For the first time i ran past your flat Mommy.   The windows and blinds were the same as the last time you left.  But..... as i kept looking through the tears in my eyes i saw a glimpse of you waving back at me.  It felt like the old days when you waved as i walked past.  

How i miss those days.  Maybe oneday. Maybe oneday.
 

I will never ever forget this day.

I had just finished helping Mommy with her haircolour as we normally did and as she towel dried herself and removed the towel from her head.  Well....... we burst our laughing.

She posed for the camera just as super model would.

Mommy, thank you for making me laugh even though you were not well or in pain sometimes.   Always positive in life.  

Today there are no flowers or a nice lunch or a tasty milkshake to spoil you Mommy.  Its another year that passes.  I hope Daddy has taken over?

Remember how we would go on our long drives?  You me & Larry.  Its was always a "magic day".  Remember, Mommy, remember .........

I wish i could have those days back again. But its not up to me. 

Thank you Mommy for everything you have done for Cindy & I.  For bringing us up and surviving the storms through the tough times.  I cannot express how i am feeling but all i want to say is "it hurts to not see your smiling face".  You loved us unconditionally and no matter how bad or sad or naughty we were, you never ever stopped loving us.  

Last night i walked into the bedroom and just for a split moment i was surrounded by your presence.  That familiar smell and i knew you were here.

Mommy, you never saw the bad in people and always looked for the good in their hearts.  Thank you for laying the foundations of a good human being.  I want to be just like you!

Today....... you are with me in spirit.  I cannot touch you or see you or laugh with you.     But you are here.

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY
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What I would do to find out what this "laugh was all about!" I think Uncle Joe's said something very funny and that was very normal. When the family came down and visited Mommy & Larry their visits always ended with a laugh.  

Every time I look at this picture it reminds me of how happy Mommy was.  

"You inspire me Mommy, to laugh a little more in life" .  I see myself more and more being just like you - and thats the way I want it.  Mwah ....

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx 

I guess its safe now to tell you about the day we cooked toffee, hoping you would not catch Pat and I in the act!    Did we ever tell you?  I think we were still too scared!  Well.......hope you know about it now and have a good laugh :-)  Pat still hasnt forgiven me!

Lydxxx

Last weekend, we went for a drive down South Coast.  I had so much wonderful memories of all our visits.  We had to cross a railway line by foot and as we were about to walk over in a distance a train was coming. As the Train Driver approached I waved my hands and as in the past, he blew his hooter and waved back.

Oh how beautiful that day was.  Mommy always had so much fun doing just that. Aunty Patricia and Mommy would always have the laugh of there lives.  Yes, those were the days. 

How I miss seeing her so happy and content.

Mommy always showed us how to LOVE and accept LOVE from others. This picture reminds me of her Love for us and her Husband Larry.  Her Angel personality always showed love & compassion to others. I know deep in my heart she is an Angel delicately flying like a butterfly around me every day. How I miss her smilling face and her fluttering bright brown eyes. Always on my mind Mommy. xxxx

A story that always brings a smile to my face is the one about Theresa and her sibling just younger than her "Marion", when they cut the little girls next door golden locks off, while playing hair dresser!.  Now our precious Theresa is moved on to be an angel in heaven looking down on us.

Mommy had typed the following up on her Olivetti Typing Machine and she had dated it : AUGUST 1989 at 14H00.  I am sure these words touched her in the same way that its touched our hearts. Its a little comforting when we feel the longing for her..... and realize she has just stepped into the next room.

Our Beautiful Butterfly is waiting for us -  just in the next room