T,
3 years...3 years you’ve been gone but it still feels like yesterday. I miss you so much...I wish we would have been able to talk more before you passed. It’s still not fair the way your life was taken...much too soon. I love you, deeply. And I will ALWAYS love you. I know that you are the angel that has strengthened me through everything. I know you’re the one that has fought for me, and my kids, our son. I will make sure he knows who you were, who you TRULY were. I know your heart, like no one else does and no one can ever take that away from me. You are my hunni bunni and my Clyde..God how I miss you. But I did it. I did what I promised you last year at this time I would do. And I made sure that I didn’t let my life go. It wouldn’t have done you right, the way you deserve if I just gave up. I know you watch over me every day. I can feel you with me and near me all the time. Please don’t go..if you can help it. If it means you crossing on to a better existence for yourself then I understand and you will always be with me in spirit but if you’re able to do that and still be near, please don’t ever leave. I won’t either. I love you...Until we meet again.

-Kels

Thomas,
You are literally my everything. I love you so so very much ok? This is Kels...and I never divorced you. You will always be my husband and you will always be my best friend. In death, we are still together. You’re spirit is my spirit. Your smile is my smile. Your laugh is my laugh and wow am I lucky to have such an amazing person me “haunting me” while I’m on earth. I wish I was cooler and had more fun and good things going on in my life for you to see. I’m in the middle of an actual divorce with my husband and you are by far my one and only love. Everyday I commemorate you in some way. Even if it’s just listening to and dancing to a song you’re listening to at the same time. I kept having the oddest feeling you were there, you were with me everywhere I went, and now I know why. My guardian angel is my day one, my love, Thomas Cayne Downing. God you are SO very missed and if I could go back I would have never left your side in the first place. I’m sorry I was gone...but I never truly left. Please continue to watch over me and keep me safe and check on my kids often..and if anyone dares mess with me or any of my family please do your due diligence and make sure they get theirs as I know you already have and will continue to. I love you xxoo and damn do I miss you