my tommy tom

I miss you my friend and brother- it is all moss two year sinse you leve me here on erth and evry day my hearts screems in pain of my loss... I also burss forth smile & glee of fantastic story of joy.. you live on in me evry day.. I am alone so I need the memory of love one fresh or I wood be sooo lonely.. I has no famly- no husband or childs.. I live alone so at begin middle end of day in the silence I get to think abot those I love- sinse I am alone it do not matter if the person be in las vegas- calfornia-or heaven becase no one nexx me in reel life any way.. my pain is that I wish I cood see you.. hear you.. even smell you..  yes I is sell fish and even thow I relies you in paradise and is save me spot.. I miss you and my life was better with you in it … we wood laff and talk endless (you more than me) we was bess bess bess friens- many may think weerd with so many differen things abot us.. we was identical twinsie in things of importan… we both share old fashun value and morals- golly we both conservative in thots & politics- zeal in food - cooking- and eating (except I use a fork & normal stek knife) not the giant hunting knife that was serrated and a hand- you caveman you... gardening- farmers markets- art in the park- music and theatre under the stars.. demonstray and show our famly & friens how we love them- story telling- We was unite in Christ and the love of God.. the hoy spirit took a thred and wove it from you heart threw my heart and tie evry one you love into my soul.. I am so bless of the greatess giff you grant me - Elysia & Cassie.. then super duper graced with Mallory & Kora (then jim & matt) linda do not know me and she has been in my heart & prayer sinse 2010... my promise to you was all way I wood pray and love them as you ask.. I promise you my brother evry day I lift them all to heaven.. I miss you tom... we understood each other battels-struggles-stress and life and to vent yell cry or laff with you help make life more toleray to has a friend that understand & relay.. heck drinking wine alone is not as much fun... I can hear you still with the giant lowd boom voice brek open the good ones... the week before my surgry I open a great bottle and I use the water glass of you and pour two glass for us both... on you birthday 2017 & 2018 I use my cross cake pan and make you mom recipe for stuff cabbage( Yes I boil in pot- then put in pan) we wood debate who make better cabbage roll- I still win - you use lemon pepper -gross... damn lemon pepper & cred pepper flake was you signature spice... do not get me start on you yellow mustard creations... elysia allow me to keep you prize eating knife... yes I use it very safe responsbulls but with a fork... damn you correck it cood cut threw leather or bone- like elk or bison.. no wonder you wood use it for pork loin or pot roast..hell even spred you penut butter on bred with the tool... I sit in you recline chair so offen when I abel transfer out my wheel chair.. I wear you ugly green golf shirt I use tease you abot to cook.. to clen.. to garden.. to bake.. to relax- it is a hug from you.. it make me feel like you is hug me from heaven and no I has no stains on it & I even iron the shirt... you wood be prood... you all way was prood of me.. I cood do no wrong in you eye EVER,, even when I relies I make error-mistake-or be jack ass on purpose you wood defend me or my ackshuns… we was each other cheerleader.. you hold that giff not juss for me but also - elysia.. cassie.. and linda cood do zero wrong in you eye.. it true is the bess giff of cheerleader you cood give... even if you mad.. sad.. upset.. hert.. you wood not say one mean or negative thing abot the girl that fill you heart.. awesome awesome my frien.. rare rare rare- yet you was very very cross on you self- we wood argue abot you spek ill abot you- that is why I was you cheerleader- you do not understand you level of greatness in life- ha ha NOW YOU DO.. it is reveel… I is correck- you is amaze or erth and even more majestic riding on Jonah with you fishing hat & lures- drinking that fire cinnamon whiskey crap (now at leass you is catch fish) lisening to music as you eat nuts... heck Jonah huge- you probabull has Chicago deep dish pizza deliver by angel to you whale...