Dear Tom,
As you know I was not your first but I was your last. Through the years we grew to know one another and what we lived and felt for each other, others may not have understood but we did. Forgiveness had to be there or we could not have grown and continued on. I think we knew each other better than anyone else knew us.. I miss the things we use to talk about, even the things about each other that drove us crazy. I remember the Christmas Eve the very first one where you said "No one should be crying on Christmas Eve." you sent a friend to pick me up as the roads were to bad for me to drive. I remember telling you I had never seen the ocean, or flew in a plane and you showed me the ocean and you took me flying. You were my first in lots of things, and I was your last kiss,was there with you when you spoke your last words on this earth. I have had a rough time of things but through the years of you teaching me what you thought I needed to learn , I know deep inside that I will survive because there was a you ..... and that you were for me.... I miss your laugh the belly one, I miss your charm and I miss the bickering we did. Others may have thought we were nuts but we loved it and we understood it. Tomorrow that day was not going to be for you , but it was for me and for me to move on without you just seems so empty and useless. I try and imagine your up there looking over me and keeping me safe but if I could have my way, you would be here with me , ,,,, it's not right that you are not here with me but then its also me being selfish wanting you here when I know you are there breathing freely and being with your two sons that went before you. Please know you were loved, are still loved and always will be loved..... memories created for me by you will never die...........