I have been sad.... Getting your results from the medical examiner on what would be our 4 year wedding anniversary, getting our marriage certificate, looking and caring for your car, getting your death certificates in the mail, making a home for your dragon Stella, and it's just been a lot. I know in my heart that you know I am strong enough to take it and I will but it's hard. You should still be here!!! Your insanely wonderful personality and unconditional love for people should not have been taken from this world. I am sure you have already made it to the rainbow bridge but if you haven't or you go again will you give a kiss to Gizmos little apple head for me and please watch over all of your family and friends and me if you get a chance.

Today I spent time with your family talking about what your wishes were and the things that were important for the family and friends. The time with them was very precious to me. I know what to say now..... There were signs of your presence every place today, there is a peace I feel starting to make me feel less angry, scared and confused. We talked about your daughter, the things you loved to do, Gizmo, Jasper, Stella and the depth of love you had for your family and friends. How much you sought out acceptance and love in return. I feel today that the pain you felt and had been dealing with for so long is now just filled with warmth, sun shining on you while you care for your palms, catch up with family that has passed and please kiss Gizmo right on that apple head of his, I bet he was so happy to see you!!! I pray that you are feeling the peace and comfort that in my heart I know you have now. Please look over all of your family and friends as we prepare to say good bye for now...... Till we meet again.

Tom was one of best friends growing up. I met him at circuit city when I was 16 and he was 22 and he came up to me with his buddy and asked if I wanted to hang out. At first I did not know what to think of him but then realized he was the funniest, kindest person I have ever met. He used to pick me up in the morning when I was in high school and one time he called the attendance office pretending he was my father saying she will not be in school, needless to say they found out it was not my dad but it was worth it we had such a fun day watching scary movies and driving around listening to rap music laughing at it. You were the best guy I ever knew.I hope you are happy with your loved ones and say hi to my little guy caleb for me, I prayed he welcomes you. I will never forget you my sweet funny friend.

....... I don't know yet what to say. I know it will come in time. I can't wait to hear all of the wonderful memories people have of you.

What do I say about my little brother-there are too many things. None of this seems real, he should be here. I'd do anything to have him here. He was a sweet, kind, funny and sensitive soul-he would give you the shirt off his back without thinking twice. I will miss him so much, he was so loved-I wish he would have realized that. My life will never be the same without him. I know he's finally with the loved ones he has longed for and missed for so long, but I wish he was still here with us. The only comfort I have now, is knowing he's pain free and in peace. Until we meet again little brother, rest well. I love you.

Tom was the best man in my wedding. He got to share a special day with us and we were very happy to have him apart of. We have many other memories with Tom that we will never forget. He loved scary movies and hauntings we always talked about the latest scary movie. The last time we got to spend with him we went to pizza ranch he'd never been there before and it was fun.it still doesn't seem right yet that you're gone. I will miss you very much Tom,you'll never be forgotten! I hope you rest in peace.

It is funny how when you hear of something like this how over time your mind starts running through all of the fun times and good times you had with that person like I rember when Tom got me into palm trees and we picked out a few. He was so envious of my yucca palm and how it has grown. He would always come over and make sure I was taking proper care of it and help me when we had to put it in a new bigger pot three times. Or the time he helped me put in the sound system in my truck or my old Malibu. Those were the fun times , the good times, the times I will never forget. Or when he was my best man in my wedding and with Tom and shelleys help I knew things were going to go as smoothly as they could. He was always willing to help to the best of his abilitys or find a way to make it work. He was a good man. We will miss you Tom. We will miss the smile that you had the one that you would put on people's faces just by being your fun self.