Hey dad, I wanted to tell you something. For the past 7 and a half years I have gone by the name Zoe. I changed my name when you died. A part of me died with you. In the process I lost Cheyenne. For the past 7 and a half years I have been a different person, and I have been terrified to be the real me, the me you know and love dad. I have hidden Cheyenne deep down somewhere, and I have spent the past two years trying to find her and set her free. Dad, I found her, and I'm ready to be the real me again. I'm not afraid anymore, I just want to be here for you and for me, I want to walk through this world as the brave daughter you knew, Cheyenne. And I will always be Cheyenne, walking in your footsteps for the rest of my life dad. I hope you're proud of me. I miss and love you Crash. Have a good day in heaven my friend.

Happy Birthday in Heaven Dad

 You have missed so much dad, can you believe it’s actually been 7 years. Time has gone by so fast, and today is the 7th birthday that I will blow out the candle's memory of you dad. I will never forget our last night together before you ended everything. You came over to my friend’s house, saw you princess in a beautiful prom dress, in front of the fireplace, and you took the opportunity for one last dance. One that in my future I would never have, I know now you knew that then. And I want to thank you for that dad. Was the last voice you heard and I’m sorry I didn’t say goodbye, but you wanted it that way and I understand that now. Often I feel like I’m dancing with your ghost dad, because I miss you so much. I write letters from you to myself because I wish you were there to give me some advice. I look at pictures of you and me and wish I could go back to that day, because I still need you. I remember holding your hand for the last time while you laid in that cold box and even though I was silent, and I didn’t scream that I still wanted you, I only did because I was waiting for you to tell me “let’s go home princess.” But you never did. How could you after you already drifted to heaven. But I hope you're at peace dad. I hope you can rest easy knowing I made it with only the thought of you getting me through some things. I know you're sorry you can’t hold my hand, hug me, or have another conversation with me again, but dad, I forgive you. In these 7 years that you have been gone, I have only grown stronger, and I know you're proud of me, and I hope you know I’m proud of you, I believe in you like you believe in me. I will keep going, and I’ll keep your memory alive, you live on in me dad. I’m just like you, and you have no idea how true that really is now that I’m much older. I may be an adult now, but you can still call me your princess. Today you turn 47, you're an old fart. Sorry but it’s true. Love you though. I hope you hear me read this and catch that tear in your eye, I can’t promise that I will catch mine. But dad, you're my hero, my loyal friend, and my trusted companion, and today is all about you. Happy 47th Dad. I love and miss you every single day. Thank you for choosing me for that last dance and that last conversation, I will always be so very grateful for that last night even though it brings me pain, thank you Crash. Happy birthday old man.  Love your daughter, Cheyenne.

Hey best friend, I know your reading this today. It's going to be father's day soon, and I wanted to say, You are not just my father, your my hero. I wish you could see all the progress I've made in life, you'd be so proud. Me and shay are all grown up now, and I'm not your little princess so much anymore. I miss our adventures together dad, I miss our late nights and crazy inventions. You have always been so creative and fun, I miss having that in my life and you by my side. You taught me so much dad, and I carry not only your looks but your personality and strengths with me everyday. I hope your stay in heaven is nice, I will continue to miss and love you everyday. I will have your cocoa monkey Alona and Shay bug say hello to your puppy sweetpea. I love you dad.

So many things i had wanted to say, so many things i wish i had the chance to do with you,but what i know now is that i will forever tressure the memories, and he will forever caring on through and with me... Life is never an easy path,but the little moments of joy we keep in our memories forever are about the only thing life is good for. Love yourself,love your family, friends, all the people around, you never know when they have to go so make it worth it. RIP Dad, I miss u. love,Shay bug

Miss you... hugs...

Such a great guy!! Missed by many Crash man!!!

We miss you more than all the stars and beyond, and we love u more than words can ever express. Loving u always your wife eternally, Angel

Love you brother!

so many dirt bike rides camping trip's beach trips and parties were all involved with you. I rode my first dirtbike because of you, I started jumping my bike because of you, I did a lot of camping because of you, I think every beach trip when I was younger was with you.
I remember that one time when we went camping in our backyard, you built a cabin. And you actually slept in it. I remember thinking you were crazy because a monster was going to get you.
In the summer, when you have the pool up, you would always jump over the edge. Me and your daughters would pretend that it was a storm because you made big waves and rocked the pool.
You always came up with great ideas and new ideas to have fun. I'll never count from one when I have to count something. I'll Always count down like you showed us when you played hide and go seek with me and you daughters when we were little.
Love you.

I will always hold in my heart, your thrive for adventure and adrenaline, rock n' roll, and the love in your eyes for your wife and girls. We pray you have found your peace, R sailing the seas and causing havic! Til we all meet again friend ♡

Love u Crash Man!!!