Dear Tina Jane, my love for you will never die big girl. You brought so much joy into my life. You gave me the most pure and unwavering love...love I've never felt from a human being. I wish people were like dogs. This world would be a much better place.

...hello welcomed guest. Thank you for taking the time out of your day to stop by and visit my beautiful girl who I miss more than any words I could ever say.

This is a very slow and painful journey, in progress. I've never in my life felt this kind of grief, never. I can only do a bit of Tina's memorial at a time. Please stop back by one day and check in on us. I'll be adding many more memories in between my heart-break and tears. It is truly amazing how "they" affect our lives. Amazing!

This picture was taken three days before her malignant cancer was confirmed. I've tried to write the story of her cancer, but it seemed like it was diagnosed...and then, my precious angel was gone.

WHY? Why so fast? Why at all? Why couldn't someone stop the cancer? I'm sobbing as I write this. We weren't done yet! Why? There was such a thick haze in the final months of our journey...so much grief...so much heartache.

Tina Jane, THANK YOU. You were always smiling or grinning. You are so beautiful my darling angel Pucky, Puck-Puck, Chicky-Puck, Munna, Muck Muck, Chena), and you responded all your silly nicknames. Us dog lovers are goofy sometimes aren't we? It takes a "special breed" to understand my pain. Even then, they cannot feel what I feel about you or the loss of you. Look at me girl...ramblin' on and on again.

 Deep conversation

I love you and miss you so very...very much pretty girl, and I am so lost without you. I just don't know how to handle this kind of pain...the deepest I have ever felt in my entire life. Only a few people really understand; I mean really.

You were always smiling, grinning or laughing. I've never met a pooch like you. I've had many throughout my life, and you were the frosting on all my cakes.

Tina Jane Turner is a Pitt/Lab mix. She came into my life in September of 2002. She was an abused eight week old puppy who now weighs in at a healthy 89.7 pounds. I had just pulled up in front of my house after work one day. There were four teenage boys that were throwing something black into my front shrubs, which I thought was a black plastic bag. I found out "it" was a puppy when she fell out of the shrubs onto the sidewalk. The boys (punks) were all laughing about it when I got out of my car. There was also a little girl and her brother that were standing a ways away, and were both crying. They told me that they had followed the boys begging them to give the puppy to them. The little girl said that they were throwing her against the fences in the alley, and she also saw them swinging her around by her tail. I ran over and grabbed Tina while I was screaming at them to get away from my property, and then I ran into my house with her in my arms.

A man came to my house four days later and told me I had his nephews dog. I explained what happened and told him I didn't feel comfortable giving her back. He was not concerned that she was being abused, as he said, "boys will be boys", as he chuckled. I told him I did not find the humor in it. He then said he would call the police, if I didn't give her back, and I told him to go right ahead so I could also call animal control and make the "abuse" report. I asked him if I could be her from him, and he immediately told me (without hesitation) that he would have to have at least $20. I told him he was disgusting, and to get off my property, and that I would go inside and get his money. I rolled "two" twenty dollar bills up into balls, opened my door and threw them at him. He picked them up off the ground, took off and I never heard from him again. Tina still has scars on her face and stomach from being abused when she was a baby. She's been a vey happy girl since I rescued her. I was so happy the day I was blessed with her. Tina was named by the San Diego Department of Animal Control. I sent her dog license in as Tina, and it came back as Tina Turner. I never thought of using this as her licensed name, but I loved it.

June 19, 2019, 11:02am. My beautiful girl, I miss you so much. Your picture sets on the end table by the couch. I need to be able to see you. My heart still aches girl. I miss all of you so much. Remember when it was you, Ebony, Shabba Lou, Princess, Tisha and Tommy, Maggie Mae and Buster? I will hold our precious memories in my heart, and I will think about you every single day until I die. I miss you with all my heart girl. Love, mom.

04/25/2019, 7:30pm. My pretty girl, I miss you so much. Cancer! It was so quick girl. I still hurt so much. I still cry from the hurt of missing you. I cherish our memories. I will never forget how you and Nova got along so well when I rescued him. Little did I know that five months later you would be gone. He still uses your (his) green dish, and he still brings it to me when it is empty just like you did. I see you in a lot of the things that Nova does. He just turned six on April 14th. I will keep you in my heart forever. Love Mom.

11/13/2015, 7:51pm, Friday night, sitting here at home with your precious sister Dezzy Dee and brother Boxer boy Nova at my feet. Tina, my heart is breaking tonight. I miss you so much girl. I haven't been by like ZI should, but it hurts too much, and even right now I am crying. I want you back with me so bad girl. I will never feel any other way, not until after I take my last breath, and I hope there is a place we meet again. That is my one and only wish; that I would get to see all of you again. Tina Jane, our friend Charle's precious girl CupCake ran away, and is still missing. Please girl, if there is any way you can send your energy through the Universe, please help us now girl. I love you more than I could ever say in words. The love I have for you is way beyond words, so how could I ever explain the pain I feel without you?

06/18/2015, 11:39am. Dear Tina, It is now one year and five months that I've had to learn to be without you. It feels like just yersterday I was nuzzled in your neck, with you grinning, as usual. I miss our time together. Thank you for loving me girl. Thank you for the life you gace to me. I love you so much. Your sissy Dessy is in the hospital today so Doctor Guajardo can biopsy a mass on her hind leg. She is the last of my "group of eight" precious pets. I will keep moving forward, and if there is a God, a compassionate God, I know he will allow us to see each other, somehow, someday. Lovingly, your mom.

05/10/2015, 12:10pm. Hi sweet big girl. I miss you so very much. You know I am your mom and my heart aches again to not have you here with me. You will be in my mind, heart and soul forever girl. You will always be a part of my life whether you are here or not. It's just not fair that you got sick. I'm so sorry precious angel. Luv, momma.

04/15/2015, 9:36pm. Tina, I miss you so very much girl. It's so touching to look at you and listen to the music that I picked for "us". I really hope somehow in this mysterious universe that we see each other again. I believe that you do have a soul. Tina Jane, things will never be the same. Losing you so close after losing Princess hurt me FOREVER. Life can never be the same, and I guess I wouldn't want it to be. I was in such deep grief that I lost my way for a few months. That's the way I like to say it. I crashed emotionally. Even now my heart physically aches.

I sleep in your spot now. Nova sleeps in my old place.

I still haven't fixed the chip marks on the wall that you did when with your "toenails" you'd roll over on your back.

My right rear window still has your nose marks...and, I just can't wash it.

Time is flying by so fast. It seems like it speeds up more every day; but, it also seems like it's been an eternity "in my heart and soul" that you've been gone. You are always on my mind sweet girl. I love you and miss you with every grain of my soul. G'night girl. I'll drift off to sleep thinking about you.

01/10/2015, 2:04pm. Almost a year without you. I miss every single thing about you. My heart is still broken, and the gap in my heart is wide open. The moment I log in and look at you I break down and cry. You being gone is still too much for me to face. I think I keep my feelings at bay, and try to stay busy. Although it does not keep the pain away, it helps a little. Tina I just want you back. I don't like it with out you here. I love you girl with every grain of my soul. Thank you for the life you gave to me. THANK YOU!

11/01/2014, 7:25pm. My dear Tina, I miss you so much. I cannot believe it's been almost 10 months since you left. I hurt so bad. I know one day it will get better, but for now it is still agony in my heart. Your pictures are everywhere. You are so very beautiful girl. I just can't shake the grief. The holidays are always tough to get through. There really is no celebration anymore. I try, but always end up crying. You have no idea how much you affected my life, my soul and everything about me. I hope one day they figure out a cure for Cancer.

I really hope I see you someday again. I have to believe I will or I could not handle this. I will miss you until the day I take my last breath. Love from the depths of my heart and soul, momma.

Here one day...gone the next.....thrown..into deep icy waters...a world shaken...forever different. This pain, known before and now known again, differently, deeper...soul-wrenching. My constant companion...now...my grief...I wake with you...I breathe with you...I end my day....with you...I sleep...tossed into the deep, deep ocean of my own grief.<p><b>09.05.2014</b> - It seems like you've been gone an eternity pretty girl. I miss you so much. I love you girl. Your very proud and lonely mom.

Dear Tina Jane, my love for you will never die big girl. You brought so much joy into my life. You gave me the most pure and unwavering love...love I've never felt from a human being. I wish people were like dogs. This world would be a much better place.

...hello welcomed and honored guest.

Thank you for taking the time out of your day to stop by and visit my beautiful girl who I miss more than any words I could say.

This is a very slow and painful journey, in progress. I've never in my life felt this kind of grief, never. I can only do a bit of Tina's memorial at a time. Please stop back by one day and check in on us. I'll be adding many more memories in between my heart-break and tears. It is truly amazing how "they" affect our lives. Amazing!

This picture was taken three days before her malignant cancer was confirmed. I've tried to write the story of her cancer, but it seemed like it was diagnosed...and then, my precious angel was gone.

WHY? Why so fast? Why at all? Why couldn't someone stop the cancer? I'm sobbing as I write this. We weren't done yet! Why? There was such a thick haze in the final months of our journey...so much grief...so much heartache.

Tina Jane, THANK YOU. You were always smiling or grinning. You are so beautiful my darling angel Pucky, Puck-Puck, Chicky-Puck, Munna, Muck Muck, Chena), and you responded all your silly nicknames. Us dog lovers are goofy sometimes aren't we? It takes a "special breed" to understand my pain. Even then, they cannot feel what I feel about you or the loss of you. Look at me girl...ramblin' on and on again.

 Deep conversation



I love you and miss you so very...very much pretty girl, and I am so lost without you. I just don't know how to handle this kind of pain...the deepest I have ever felt in my entire life. Only a few people really understand; I mean really.

You were always smiling, grinning or laughing. I've never met a pooch like you. I've had many throughout my life, and you were the frosting on all my cakes.

Tina Jane Turner is a Pitt/Lab mix. She came into my life in September of 2002. She was an abused eight week old puppy who now weighs in at a healthy 89.7 pounds. I had just pulled up in front of my house after work one day. There were four teenage boys that were throwing something black into my front shrubs, which I thought was a black plastic bag. I found out "it" was a puppy when she fell out of the shrubs onto the sidewalk. The boys (punks) were all laughing about it when I got out of my car. There was also a little girl and her brother that were standing a ways away, and were both crying. They told me that they had followed the boys begging them to give the puppy to them. The little girl said that they were throwing her against the fences in the alley, and she also saw them swinging her around by her tail. I ran over and grabbed Tina while I was screaming at them to get away from my property, and then I ran into my house with her in my arms.

A man came to my house four days later and told me I had his nephews dog. I explained what happened and told him I didn't feel comfortable giving her back. He was not concerned that she was being abused, as he said, "boys will be boys", as he chuckled. I told him I did not find the humor in it. He then said he would call the police, if I didn't give her back, and I told him to go right ahead so I could also call animal control and make the "abuse" report. I asked him if I could be her from him, and he immediately told me (without hesitation) that he would have to have at least $20. I told him he was disgusting, and to get off my property, and that I would go inside and get his money. I rolled "two" twenty dollar bills up into balls, opened my door and threw them at him. He picked them up off the ground, took off and I never heard from him again. Tina still has scars on her face and stomach from being abused when she was a baby. She's been a vey happy girl since I rescued her. I was so happy the day I was blessed with her. Tina was named by the San Diego Department of Animal Control. I sent her dog license in as Tina, and it came back as Tina Turner. I never thought of using this as her licensed name, but I loved it.

 With sis Dezzy DeeSmooches from momma With sis Dezzy againBeautiful! Watching over her sick sis KrystalStill watching over Such cute expressionsFunny big girl She loved her babyI love you Tina Jane RelaxingThere's the baby again More play time with her babyOh how I miss you Tina Jane Amazing girl! 


 

Tina Jane, you were the most loving, magnificent, intelligent and devoted being I have ever known. We had a connection like none other. My heart is aching, and I suppose it will always carry sadness for having to live the rest of my life without you. Although I celebrate all those precious years we spent together, I will never be the same without you by my side. I will be thankful until I take my last breath. Thank you girl.

 

 Whispering sweetness in her earI love you! With 'lil sis Princess (rest in peace)Looking back at momma

Tina (always smiling) and Dezzy.Gorgeous...  

...In loving memory of Tina Jane.

Grief is not a problem to be resolved...not and obstacle to overcome...but it is a sacred expression of Love, a sacred sorry...a sacred journey. I love you Tina Jane.

 



I am an Animal Rescuer, and my purpose is to assist God's creatures.

*I am truly blessed to "have shared" and "currently share" my life with so many precious angels.

I was born with the need to fulfill their needs.

I take in new family members without plan, thought, or selection.

I have bought dog food with my last dime.

I have gone without to ensure my companions are happy.

*I have very little social life "by choice", and I am actually much happier this way.

*I have truly patted a mangy head with my bare hands. I have hugged someone vicious and afraid.

*I have held a dying German Shepard angel who was hit by a car in front of my house, while she was bleeding all over me as I cradled her in my arms, when no one else would help her.

*I have fallen in love a thousand times, and I have cried into the fur of several lifeless bodies.

*I buy large bags of dog biscuits and go to our local Humane Society where I visit and pass the biscuits out to all the lonely "angels in prison." One day I counted seventy five lonely babies that I visited in a three hour period.

*I've rescued and found homes for approximately 20 - 25 pups, in the past ten years.

*I've paid other people's debts at the veterinary clinic I go to, when the family did not have the money, so their pet could live.

*I notice those lost or injured, at the road side, and my heart aches. I either save them or assist in their care, if they are already gone. I have NEVER passed one by.

I know of no precious creature unworthy of my time, love or money.

I want to live forever if there aren't animals in Heaven, but I believe there are. Why would God make something so perfect and leave it behind? We may be named master of the animals, but the animals have mastered themselves...something people still haven't learned how to do.

War and abuse makes me hurt for the world, but a rescue that makes the news gives me hope for mankind. We are a quiet but determined army...making a difference every day.

There is nothing more necessary than warming an orphan...nothing more rewarding than saving a life...no higher recognition than watching them thrive. There is no greater joy than seeing a baby play who only days ago, was too weak to even drink or eat.

I am an Animal Rescuer, My work is never done, My home is never quiet.

My wallet is always empty, but "my heart is always full."

*In the game of life, have already won. I love my "children" more than I can say in words. They are my reason for loving...my reason for living...my reason for giving. I will continue in this journey until the day I take my last breathe. There's nothing like the feeling of looking into the beautiful loving eyes of a "happy" rescued angel.