My Dear Toku,
Considering how we turned out after 12+ years, I still think it’s hilarious that you were my school father in Grange. I’ve always seemed like the more responsible, reserved, and uptight one compared to your fun and carefree nature, but I think it works because we have always balanced each other out.
You were such a good friend, a ride or die for real, and so so caring. Even on days when you upset me, you’d come back to listen and understand why I was upset, and then make me laugh as your apology. And your smile could light up a room, so how could I really stay mad? You are literally the only human in the world who I let call me “Tommy”, not even a foreigner could try it.
Thank you for always protecting me, riding for me, being willing to fight weird men who approach me in public spaces, for encouraging me to keep growing my business, letting me hold your hand when I feel anxious, sitting with me when we were out and I was being awkward, and never making me feel out of place.
Thank you for being a security blanket, for not expecting more from me than what you knew I could give in any given moment. For understanding what I perceived to be my limitations, and then convincing me that I could do anything.
I’m grateful for all the time we were able to spend together over the last month. From you and Somto spending the day with me in my office, to us going out last Friday, where you still let me hold your hand in public haha. Your ideas, businesses, hardworking nature, and how focused you were for this second half of your 20s made me so so proud. For some reason, I can’t remember if I said that to you recently, but I want you to know.
I still can’t believe I’m writing this. I cannot believe that I’m not going to be able to see you, or receive random messages from you, or hug you. My heart literally breaks each time I think about it; it is the worst feeling in the world. But I am slightly comforted by the fact that you knew I loved you, for who you are.
Thank you for all the years of friendship, and for letting me be there for you. Thank you so much for loving me exactly as I am for so many years, and allowing me to do the same for you.
The last message you sent me said “Love you Tomi!!! From time”… well, I’ll love and miss you until the end of time.
My giant teddy bear, Rest In Peace.
Love,
Tomi Sodimu