TJ everyday it get harder never easier for me. Can't even imagine life without you. I remember when you were born its and instant bond between me and you. I don't know why it was just different its was like we were one person. You were my 1st born son and a joy to have. I never seen someone taste for life the you were. That why I don't understand how this happen to you. I LOVE SON and will never forget the times we had together. Remember when I took to K-State for the summer internship, when I got ready to leave we both wanted to cry but we held it in and just hug each other and kissed on the cheek and said see you in 10 weeks. That seem liked it was forever. Then took you back in the fall. You were so excited about college but u always missed being at home with us and we all missed you. Now that was short times we had to wait to see you, how are we suppose to get over never seeing you again. I can't do it TJ. Arie,Tyrisha,Tre,Talon,Tylen, Dad and of course me we all are having a hard time dealing with this. Its not real I just can't accept it. Why you Son. I remember you running around chewing up all the kids had the whole family in rage with each other about my TJ. Why would they take you away from me I'm lost not knowing what to do next which way to go. I don't know I don't know.

       LOVE YOU SO MUCH MY FIRST BORN SON

                   LOVING MOTHER THERESE SPENCER

How can we move on in our everyday lives? How can i stop myself from crying? How can i say that its okay? How can i make the pain go away? How can i wake each and everyday... knowing that somebody took you away? How can can i laugh when you're not here... when you brought the laughter and all the cheers? How can life ever be the same? ... When i have to say in my heart you will remain! And yes indeed the fact is very true, but i want you here... TJ i misss you! How can it go back, being the same? When you were here... stay forever, i want you too! Now look, you're an angel in the sky. I know you're not supposed to ask why, but sometimes i think, why'd YOU have to die! And yes sometimes it upsets me, seeing you lying there so helplessly. I didn't wannna say goodbye, so i'll never! I promise i'll love you forever! Damn Tj cousin, i miss you...

Your cousin, Netta

straiqht miss yu TJ..even thouqh yu always told me tu cum tu yo brib an i would never cum , an click on me calln me a dumbass qirl cux i a do sumdin stupid or piss yu off...i straoqht miss yo funny ass...yu was always there wen sumbody needd yu...always telln me yu a come qedt me wen i qodt oudta skewl budt i would always say no...or tell yu tu call yae or tell yu tu ask yae tu retwist yo hair...yeh i was jealous cux i wantd idt tu be DEASHA && TYRICE SPENCER not yae && tj spencer now i would never gedt tht chance...yae was always screamn how real she was budt now look adt her...she aint fckn widt yu adt awl...never screamn shidt aboudt  yu...budt me i stay scream rest in paradise my bewh my bby an my quy tjeezy or tj or tyrice lamar spencer jr as yu liked me tu say...i really hated her after tht...i really liked yu TJ...i used tu love idt wen yu wntd me tu say yo full name an i didnt kno idt...yu be like "TYRICE LAMAR SPENCER JR GIRL" lol...well shidt now i kno...i fckn love yu TJ no matter wadt yu qone always be MY BEWH FOREVER like i told yu wen yu was here...aint shidt chanqed yu my straiqht bby for life...BFL...i just look adt the pics of yu on my paqe an err body paqe..shidt i just be wantn tu cry...budt i cnt even do idt...shidt hellah sad...an yeh yu was pulld tu soon...i be holln err time i thnk aboudt tht day ant thru tht water on yo face...lol...chased him awl the way oudtside...im crackn up bhad...lOl..thn yu really came bck in the house an qrabd me...just took me upstairs...how yu kno i wntd tu qo bck up there...yeh we was talkn serious shidt [tu me] doe chunkd...i was really trynauh qedt chu tu be hubby...i was hurt yu sai di was tu younq doe...man...i wish yu woulda said yeh instead doe...i still cnt qedt ovr the fact tht yu straiqht qone..idt dnt feel like idt doe...idt just feel like yu sleep cux wen i saw yu thts wadt idt look like...budt shidt yu  qodta kno yu qone always be thouqht uf ovr these ways...an im still qone keep yo name alive...I LOVE YU TYRICE LAMAR SPENCER JR. PULL ME UP THERE WEN YU NEED ME OR WNT SUMBODY TU ALWAYS BE BY YO SIDE CUX YU KNO IMAUH STAY THERE...I MISS YOU MY DOOD...CHUNKD.!

 Dec.8 you was at my house with anthony, kiara we all was up laughing & playing till 3 in the morning you stayed at my house lol remember my mama said "Tjay you betta stop shittin in my house" & you said sorry ms.ventia; & you ate her cake u was not scared of her; u & ant never want to leave ya'll stayed at my house i remember when we first became best friend 2008; wow we clicked like that; & u said because real recorgnized real; & we two real motha fucka's; lol we always stayed in touch some way so how; dont matta how far u were; but now u far to the point that i cant reach u well naw i take that back i can still reach u; what i thought im slacking; lol- your voice; Dont be trying take nobody down through there; while u up there; Lets get ratchat lets get ratchat;- Boosie you the man best friend like u always said; i believe u now; well u prove me right; all good times none bad; & happy we left it that way; i <3 u best frined; so many other stories but my handd hurting bestie; lol 

Love Your Best Friend Raven