Well it has been awhile since I have spoken to you, I think off U every minute off the day. U are never out off my mind, I see a little boy playing and think U would be doing that now.. I wonder what U would look like now.. I look at my Memory baby off U and start to cry, I just wish that U where with us now. Ur mummy has had another baby it is a little girl.. And ur daddy has had a little boy, he looked just like U when he was born then he changed. I look at him and think off U, then I have a little cry. The rest of ur cousins are going good they are getting bigger as well. I really miss U my little man I wish I was with U right now, it hurts now being able to hold U in my arms. Well till next time my sweet.

While I was at the hospital waiting for ur brother to be born I seen a butterfly it came down close to me then flew off. Every time we went for a walk a buterfly would come down fly around me then fly off. When I saw this I knew it was U telling me that everything would be OK. Your brother was born on the 11th of April at 12-28pm. The next day I was up the street & a butterfly flew around me then left. That has happened for the last 6 days. I didn't see one today as I didn't leave the house. But knowing that U are around watching me has helped me carry on. I want to be with U more then anything but I now have 6 other grandchildren & one on the way that need me as well. I know U are safe & happy where U are & I'll see U one day. I have not been depressed for the last 6 days seeing those butterflies each day has helped me.. Thank You very much for helping me.. Nan loves & misses U very much.

Hi my Angel, how are things going? Well we went up & released Balloons for U on ur Birthday, ur Poppy, Auntie Nicole, Auntie Chrystal & Deklyn where there. Deklyn didn't wont to let his balloon go but he did after awhile. Sorry I haven't been on her for awhile as I have been sick. Things are starting to get beter for me now that  the month is nearly over. I miss U every day, I sill give ur photo a kiss every night before I go to bed & then again when I wake up. I think about U every minute off the day. U will have another little brother soon wont that be good. I was wondering today if U where with us, as Deklyn was trying to talk to someone. Was it U looking out for him? I hope so, I do feel U near me sometimes. Well not much more to say but remember I will love U forever. 

Well my little man it's 4 days till ur Birthday U will be 4 years old. Nan has got the balloons ready to get blown up to release them & I have ur music ready to play. Horses & Heaven I know U like them both. I hope U send me a sign again this year so I know are still around. Ur gunna have another brother soon wont that be great. Well take care & Nan will talk to U again soon. <3 U sweety.

I sit here & think of you
The day is coming close
The day that you left us all
The day my heart was lost

I wish I could hold you close
To hold you in my arms
To see the smile upon your face
To hear your lovely voice

I count the days as they go by
From the time I heard the news
From the time the voice told me
That your little life was gone

That day changed my life
The day they took you away
The day the curtains closed
The day we all said goodbye

I let balloons go every year
I see them fly up high
I know that they reach you
Because they vanish from my view

Love Nan