Baby, I got to go see you, and I had a lot of trouble as you well know. I had heart surgery you came to see me. It all went good but then I had more surgery and lost the use of my legs. I had to go to rehab to learn to waalk again. It was 3 months of hell. Im home walking real slow but im going to do this. Just remember that Ilove and miss you so much. xoxoxo

Baby, I just wanted you to know I was able to sav our safe haven. Please tell our hevenly father thank you. Your life goes on. I Love and miss you so much.
 

It's been 44 yrs. today we got married and I would do it all again. I Miss and Love you so much. I just wish I could of been Blessed with more time. I try so hard to do as you have wanted me to do Justknow you are the best part of my life. I love you so much xoxoxoxo

Baby, It's been 3 long hard years today. I miss and love you the same. I so wish you was here with me. I will try to stay strong. So some day I will get to come home. I love you  XOXOXO

All is clear

So very dear

Forever  near

Miss you dear Brother. 

Love, Jamey

Well I had another Birthday 67 now. They our friends gave me a birthday dinner. Nadine and the kids came over, Ruth, and Jason called me. Tyler was the first he even woke me up. It's not the same anymore.I missed the love of my life. I love you and miss you so. xoxoxox 

Baby, It's been 2 1/2 yrs. and I still miss you like it was today. I have kept our love alive the best I could.It's sad that no one really knew you and me. We gave truely from the heart. We never wasnted anything in return. I will keep going as long as I'm able. It's sad to think all those years we should of been to busy, I've lost Family, Our CSon and it's ok. Nadine and I have grown close and she does come see me. Bobby stops by sometimes if he's in the area. But threw all this I've learned that I can and will do anything. I will never ask. I just want you to be happy where you are now, and I know your here with me. I love and miss you so much. xoxoxox   

Vance, It;s been a year and a half today, and all I can say is I miss you just as much as the day you had to leave. Baby your biggest worriy was about me. I have not had it easy but I've done it. I've lost so much Family and that's ok now cause they never really knew us. I haven't asked and I won't cause of our safe haven, and I guess I hurt some people well they won/t say they hurt me. Sad thing is if somrone comes over I put up the dogs, and all I've ever asked for is a cup of coffee sad huh. I miss our life sp much but I will keep it going as long as I can, I love and miss you so much,

Vance, I want you to know your little Tyler is in the Army now, and he passed basic training. He said he wants you to be proud, and I told him you alway's was. He's on his way to AIT school. We got a laugh today, I told him the apple didn't fall far from your tree. He asked me if I ever lost a toe nail, and I had to laugh cause you lost one in the service too. Grandson like his Grandpa. Vance I want you to stay beside and watch over him for us. We  miss you and love you so much xoxoox

Well Baby we have been Married 43 years today, and I love you just much today as I did back then. The only thing I would change is see if there was a way I could bring you home again,but someday I'll walk back into your arms I just have to wait. Ilve you so much. xoxxoxoxox 

Happy fathers Day Vance, I want to tell you that you was the best. I took you some new flowers and  gotto visit. I miss you so much, and I know I alway's will. I love you. xoxoxoxox 

It's been 2yrs' today baby since you had to leave, and it hurt just as bad as then' I 'm doing better and I will stay strong. Your Brother called me today, and some friends called to check on me. some of your kiddo's wrote on facebook on their love for you. I know someday I'll be with you again and for now I just have to wait' Just know that I love and miss you so very much and always will .xoxxoxoxoxo

Happy Easter Baby, I love and miss you so much. My hearf is so broken I've never felt the hurt while you was here. I so wish it could of been me. I lost it all and it was as you was worried about. My Family omly loved us when we did for them and that was our whole married life. They moved on and you and I fixed it, I still did it after I lost you, but when your niot needed your nothing. Every Holiday I haven't been invited except for one time and that was the night befro so I said I was with some friends. Today it was a sandwiich peanute butter and jelly. I don't care anymore. I could die out here and no one would even know, If that's love I don't want any. I can start to talk and they will just walk away. I should just change my number cause it's not like I get any calls. Everyone acts like I have something that they can catch all I do is cry cause of hoq they treat me. I don't even care if I see or hear from any of them again. They have Mom and so I lost her too. I can say one thing since you left they all talk and send love like it has alway'sbeen there. Oh well baby I'm not doing any more animals and it;s not because of them it's cause of what would happen to them if something happens to me. I did fix it so No family could come on the property if that happens. I love and miss our life I love you so much 

Baby, it's another Easter I believe this is my hardest Holiday. I can still see you clororing you eggs. Kids or no kids you did it and smiled with your colors. If they ever came out with something new you had to try it. Then you would put them in pickle juice only you. Things are and never will be the same cause now Holiday's  I have no one. I love you and miss you so much oxoxoxoxo    

Baby, it's been 1yr. and 11 Months. I miss you and I love you. It's been a hard month. Heather had to go back, and her bye was hard she is and was my rock. When I asked you to go and be with her. She is ok and thank you she also loved you so much. I made her the same promise I made you I will stay strong. Thank you for watching over me. I love you my big oxoxoxox

Well Baby, I lost my brother Tom yesterday and this one is really hard you knew how much I loved him. I don't know how much more I can do. I just wish I could have you here with me baby I'm so tired. I wish I could find someone who would just hold me and let me cry in their arms I miss that.But I know some day I'll see you again and you will. I Love you and Miss you so much. xoxoxo

It's been a year and 10 mons now and it's not getting better.I can tell you Thank you for our safe haven cause It's these silly animals that keep me going. It's not Family or Friends it's the silly animals. They sure miss you. Heather had to go back home she was also my life line, I need you to go be with her. I've never been so alone I lost everyone it's just like you said and worried about. When you left so did everyone. I love and miss you so much. I don't even really get any phone calls. come see me when you can again. I Love You Baby xoxoxo
   

Vance, I wish everyone could of really knew you and me. I learned so much from you on how to love and except. I learned threw you to put stones down, you never had a bad word about anyone. I learned it from you now I have to learn how to fight and that's not us. I just wish everyone would stop. I don't get phone calls to see if I need anything or if I just need to talk how sad huh. Baby I can count on my 2 hands who has been here and who has called. I so wish it could of been me. When I lost you was hard but I lost everyone at the same time. Please help me to remain strong. I know that what you did was right I just wish someone would of learned. It's sad that everyone is busy with their jobs, and to busy but Baby what did we do we stoped or world to help even when we didn't like it or agree. I love and miss you and our life so badly.

Baby it's been a year and 9 mon, and I love and miss you just like yesterday. I have had some reak rough days here lately. Cherry is here and Heather has desided to move home. I totaly agree but God knows I'm going to miss her so much, and not seeing Cherry and the family anymore. I'm going to miss our evening calls she has and alway's will be our rock. I'm so glad you never got to feel these heart eches. I love you both so much and missing but I will stay strong for you and Heather. We got the dog pens done today Karen and Bobby did it and another Thank you. They are doing the new cat house so life will better for me cause they know how much we love our Heathers safe haven. I love you Baby.

Well Baby another Birthday, Christmas and a New Year. I missed you more this year then last year. I have such a big hole in my heart anymore, and it's not really understood. This year I'm not asking anymore and what is sad is all I asked for is someone to have a cup of coffee with me. I know it's cause of the animals but they are what has kept me here, and for that I thank you my love. I do know that you and I are different then everyone else. I'm now glad it was you and not me that had to leave I wouldn't want you to feel this pain that no one gets. I'malone now and know it after all the years of being there. I will do what I have to but I know that your not far away from me. I now just want everyone to loose my name and number cause I'll never get it right unless I close our safe haven down, and that won't happen here. I love and miss you so much. Baby I lost it all when I lost you our son was one of them. Good nite baby. Thank you for loveing me. 

Baby this was my second Thanksgiving and this one was real hard. I miss our Holidays and I will always remember what we did, and what Family met but I;m going to learn to do it alone. The girls came home to check on me and spent the night so I was blessed. I love and miss you so much. xoxxoxoxo 

Well Sweetheart it's been a year and seven months and tonight feel like it just happened. I miss you so much and trying to be so strong, but I'm not. I guess the time I was the clown in Playas I guess I'm a good clown cause bo one knows. I have the best the word had is not and never will be there. Just know I love you as much now as the day you lrft. I love you xoxoxo  

Vance i've been strong but i'm myssing you so much life is so hard now. It might be the Holiday's and your Birthday is going to be here soon. I've been so alone since you had to go I miss not being able to talk and I miss your smile and how you could make me laugh now I'm on guard all the time. I love you Baby xoxoxox

Just wanted to say its been a year and a half but to me it feels like it was just yesterday! Still love and missing you so much!
xoxoxo
Your wife
Sandy

My second Fathers Day and it was hard, but I did like you alway's did. I cut the grass and worked outside. Kelly and Less came over and fixed your truck for me. Less gave up his morning what a great friend you have there. I miss you and love you so very much. You Vance was the best Dad, Grandpa, and Uncle this world has ever known xoxoxox

Baby, It's been a year and one month since you had to leave. But Baby we was so right when you got sick at who came and who helped. It was all about the cats in our house not about me and you. I can count on one hand who has been over and who has been there for me. I just wish it could of been me and not you cause none of this would of happened. Everyone has hurtmy heart so bad. I wish we would of knowen how everyone really got us maybe our life as well as their lives would of been different. I can't even enjoy our home cause I'm so busy cleaning and doing just in case I can't relax. I'm getting real hard and that's not us or the way we are. Baby you wouldn't be one bit happy with any of them. I'm so sorry I had to write this. When people came over we raspected themby putting up the dogs, that isn't good enough. All I'veasked for is someone to have coffee outside and torespect our home like we did everyone's home. I wish everyone would quite talking it's crazy. I miss you so much I now have no one. I love you and I loved our life.xoxxoxo 

It's been a year today that you had to leave, but your still all around me making me smile, laugh, and sometimes you see me cry.This life is hard now that your gone, but I'll keep you and me here as lomg as I can. Everyone called, text, or put a message on facebook to check on me. Kelly, and I did lunch taco bell, and at the park watching the kids play like you did. Then we went and seen you. We put a wreath and Kelly brought you some yellow roses from Tyler, and a pink one from her to you. The truck kept messing up and one time Kelly started to walk over to help and it started she just smiled up at you. Then I had a tire blow 4 miles from home and again you got blamed it keeps me going I just smiled. I miss you more then words could ever say, but one day it will be you and me again till then I just have to wait. I will tell you I know what true love is all about because I have it. I love you so much my big oxoxoxo
    

Well Baby, It's my first Easter without I miss you coloring easter eggs kids or no kids it was something you loved to do. Then I would make you your pickled egg those I learned to like. Today is also our sons first Birthday and his Dad being gone so today is hard. It will be one year in five day's I love and miss you my big oxoxox

Vance, it's been Eleven months since you had to leave me, and It hurts just as bad today as the day. I don't believe it will ever get better. I miss hearing your voice, your smile, and everything about you. But I can still see your face. Someday I'll be with you again I do know that. Please keep  watching over me. Remember I Love You my big oxoxoxox. 

Vance, on the 22nd. of this month they are honoring at the Deming Shelter fund raiser. This one is going to be a hard one just because you won't be with me. I do have to give a small talk about you, me and our safe haven. I'm going to give it a try. Vance you was so loved here, and made a good name for self. I miss our life so badly but I'm trying to keep us alive. I thank you for starting our haven it's what keeps me going. I just pray that I get to finish what we started. I love you so much  

Vance, Our friend Ralph came over again and helped me around the house. We was blessed when he came into our life. It was all because we believed in what he stood for, and he also believed in what we do. Ralph all I can say is Thank you for being such a good friend, and believing in us you are a true friend.  

 People who love so deeply the way Sandy and Vance did will always love eachother no matter the clouds and heaven that is set between them. I love you both very much.

 When someone leaves us from this mortal world, they may not be with us in the Physical sense, but you can bet they are with us in spirit...they are forever in our hearts and that never goes away.

It's been 10 Months today since you had to leave, and it still feels like yesterday. I went to see you like I a;ways do. It was a little harder today because our kitty little Vance got real sick, but you saved him today just like you did when he was trying to die, I believe you hear me cry because it was to soon after loosing you. Vancie got some meds. and I have to watch him, but he's acting better tonight. Thank you Baby. I miss you so much and love you even more. I'll see you again my love.  

Vance this is a day we stoped the the chocolate. We learned a nice dinner and a quite night. I'm ok I love you more today then yesterday. I would give you my heart a thousand times over. I know you would too. I love and miss you'

It is nine months today you left Vance, and their will be a new baby Vance born today what a blessing. I love you so much, and everyday I miss you more. 

Well Baby, It will be nine month's in a few day's and it still fells like the night you had to leave me. I would pay for one more kiss goodnight, one more hug. I miss you arm around me when we t to sleep. I would give anything for one more cup of coffee. No one really know's my walk. I got the house put back to the way we had it, and got the new cat house done. I lost yogie to cancer. I adopted out a bunch of cat's. I'll see you in a few day's. I just wanted to write a note to say I Love and Miss you so much.

This was Vance's last trip to the hospital befor our Good bye. I miss him so.

Vance and his Ginger in class. Vance really enjoyed what he did.

This should make anyone smile, you can see his love.

Oh God I loved him so much.

Building our pond this is true love look at the eyes and smile

This was the true Vance, I Love you

Vance, Today I went to Carlie's and Richard's Baby Shower. They are nameing their baby after you..I asked why and they both said because you was the only Gentle Giant they have ever knew. Your love for us, and everyone we knew. It was also your love for the animal's. So tonight I'm on top of the world what a blessing. I even got to feel your little Vance move. Thank you Baby for making such memory's for me to have. I love you    . 

This is one of our picture's of working at the Smelter, and yes what a pretty couple. Yes this is true love. 

Well it's New Years Eve and no one will ever know how much I miss you. I'll do my best to get threw 2014. Happy New Year my love. I have a picture of you right beside your computer and you have your big smile and your eyes say I Love you and I Love you too. xoxoxo

Well it's Christmas Eve and our first one apart. Tomorrow it will be nine months I'll write more tomorrow. I miss you and I love you more then life it's self. I would give anything just to see and be with you. I want you to play Santa toall the kid's up in Heaven with you. I did as we did all the years past in honor of you and our life. I miss and love you so much, and alway's will.

Well Baby it will be nine months Christmas day, and I got a good present our son is going to be here with me. We will go and visit you Christmas day it will be the first time Jason got to come home he doesn't want me to be alone. This will be a hard one. I made your Mom's applesauce cake like I alway's did after your Mom passed. I love you so much. xoxoxox

This is the poem that was read at Ambercare Memorial today. "You Meant so Much"    You meant so much to all of us. You were specila and that's no lie. You brightened up the darkest day.  And the cloudiest sky.  Your smile alone warmed hearts.  Your laugh was like music to hear.  I would give absolutely anything.  To have you well and standing near.  Not a second passes.  When your not on our minds.  Your love we will never forget.  The hurt will ease in time.  Many tears I have seen and cried.  They have all poured out like rain.  I know that you are happy now and no longer in any pain. I love you Vance  

Grandpa, your Grandson got his GED today. He did what he wanted and that was to make you proud. I told him you always have been. Tyler say's this one is for you. He really does miss you, and Vance he is so much like you. We was Blessed. He said to tell you he loves you, and he also said he already did.

Baby, this was my first Thanksgiving with you gone, and I learned how blessed I was. Our Friends invited me over and I was not wanting to go. I asked our friend Ralph ifhe would go with me, and he did. I got over my mad today. I was Blessed by your love and that will be mine for ever what a blessing. We had and have such a good life I'll keep you and me going. I'll alway's miss you but now I see what it and what we had made so many people love us. I'm not mad anymore it doesn't matter what is said by others when all that matters is what we had and have what a blessing. Thank you Vance for loving me and for that I'm Thankful. I love you xoxxoxox.