Today I lie here thinking of you,
trying to stop the tears that made me feel so blue.
I am looking forward to see you in the earth made new,
Hence I am making every effort to remain faithful and true.
I visited the graves of mom, Rita, grandma and yours
Then I sat in your bed and the tears came like showers
The pain of loosing you all feel so unbearable
And I choked on my knees in prayer, asking to make these losses endurable.
Life is not the same without you here
I loved you deeply and would freely show it without fear
I missed talking , sharing and most importantly soliciting your advice Which you always gave with love and wisdom, leaving me no doubt for having to think twice.
If I had the choice of giving up some of my happiness to keep you alive
I wouldnt hesitate to do so in less than five
Since you've been gone , I am never 100% happy
Because loving and taking care of you daily has brought me true happiness.
I no longer wonder why the pain from my heart transform s into tears
And burdens seemed more than I can bear
Just knowing that My God is always near
To see and understand the meaning of all these falling tears
Has brought me comfort and erased my fears.
Dad on this your 85th birthday
On this very cold day, you are the only sun Ray
That creeps through my window and find me huddled under my sheet
Wallowing in tears and self pity, missing your love so sweet.
I love you now and always will
And I often envisioned us meeting when this earth stood still
There is so much I have to tell and show you
it will be hours of conversation between us two.
Continue to take your rest dearest Dad
I lways thought if you die I would go mad
But the love of God is greater than my mind can comprehend
And with cheering christian hope I anticipate the end.
You are my sunshine when skies are grey! I miss you endlessly.